Perhaps this is why I did not cry when Keisha gave me the news. “I’m truly sorry,” I said.
“I’m calling because I wondered if you might say a few words at his funeral?”
“It’s not really my strong suit.” I was not comfortable with public displays of emotion.
“But it would mean so much to him. He was incredibly proud of you and the club. Every single article about you, he saved.”
I was surprised to hear that. For the last nine months of his life, Mr. Kipling and I had fought, mainly over my decision to open the club that apparently he’d been “incredibly proud of.” (There had been other reasons.) However, from my father’s death in 2075 until I’d become an adult last summer, Mr. Kipling had overseen every financial decision I had made and quite a few of the personal ones. I’m not sure how good his advice was at times, but he had always done his best and had never given up on me even when it seemed that the world was against me. I knew he had loved me. I had loved him, too.
Noriko; Leo, who was finally home from prison; and Natty, who was back from Sacred Heart, accompanied me to St. Patrick’s. I was the third to speak—after Simon Green and a man named Joe Burns, who apparently had been Mr. Kipling’s squash partner, but before his daughter, Grace, and his brother, Peter. By the time it was my turn, my palms and armpits were moist. Though it was winter, I was seriously regretting my decision to wear a black sweaterdress.
I brought my slate with me to the podium. “Hello,” I began. “I wrote some notes.” I turned on my slate, which seemed to take forever, and glanced over what I had written:
1. Mr. K. = Dad’s best friend. Joke about how it’s hard to be a crime boss’s best friend?
2. Mr. K., funny story about his being bald?
3. Mr. K., maybe not the best lawyer, but loyal. Story about that?
4. Mr. K. honored commitments.
And that was what I had. I had written the notes after coming home from a late night at work. They had made sense at the time, but as I stood in St. Patrick’s, they looked pretty inadequate. I turned off my slate. I would have to speak from the heart, which was an act I tried to avoid.
“I don’t know what to say,” I said stupidly. “He was”—my inane notes ran through my head: bald? my dad’s best friend? a mediocre lawyer?—“a good man.” My foot was shaking and I could hear myself breathing. “Thank you.”
As I walked back down the aisle, I could not look Keisha Kipling in the eye. I sat down in my pew, and Natty squeezed my hand.
After the funeral, Simon Green, who I usually tried to avoid, approached my siblings and me. Natty hugged him. “He was like a father to you,” she said generously. “You must be heartbroken.”
“Yes. Thank you, Natty.” Simon took off his glasses and wiped them on his shirt. He nodded toward me. “Anya,” he said, “I wondered if I might speak to you a moment.”
I would have preferred not to, but what choice did I have? “This is hard to say,” Simon said once we were outside.
I crossed my arms. I already didn’t like the tone of his voice.
“Mr. Kipling left his firm to me, but unfortunately, his client list is vastly diminished. I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep it afloat. Of course you can say no, but I wondered if you might have a job for me at the Dark Room.”
“The Dark Room has a lawyer already,” I said. Furthermore, I didn’t want Simon around.
“I know. I only meant because your business is so big now. Maybe if it gets any bigger you’ll need another lawyer. And a man like Charles Delacroix can’t be thinking he’ll be legal counsel to a nightclub forever.”
“I’ve learned it’s fruitless to try to speculate about what Charles Delacroix is thinking.”
“Okay, Annie. I can see I’ve made you upset. You can’t blame a person for asking.”
I knew I was being unkind. “Listen, Simon, it’s not personal, it’s business.”
“Sure, Annie. I get that.” He paused. “Leo’s back from prison, I see.”
This was not said casually, but as a reminder of an obligation I may or may not have had to Simon regarding the circumstances of my brother’s return from Japan last Easter. Had Simon spoken bluntly, I would have respected him more. “If my situation changes, I’ll let you know.”
And so I came to the end of 2084. It was tempting to dwell on the lows (the deaths, the loss of Win, the arguments with my sister, etc., etc., etc.), but for once in my life, I chose not to. My portion of tragedy had made my triumphs somehow sweeter. My business was prospering; I had settled relations with Fats and the Family; I was on the right side of the law for the first time in my life; I had more than enough money; I had become a godmother; and I’d become increasingly skilled at wearing heels.
And perhaps this explains why your fun-challenged heroine decided to behave in a way that was entirely out of character: New Year’s Eve, I threw a party at the Dark Room.
I posted a sign out front that read: CLOSED FOR A PRIVATE AFFAIR. Then I opened the doors of my club wide and turned the music up loud.
That night was the first time Leo had been at the club. “What do you think?” I asked him.
He grabbed my head with his hands and kissed me on my forehead, my cheeks, and the top of my head. “I honestly cannot believe that my tiny baby sister made this herself!”
“I had help,” I said. “Noriko. And Theo. And Mr. Delacroix.”
“You are the most amazing sister. Hey, Annie, can I come work here, too?”
“Sure,” I said. “What would you want to do?”
“I don’t know. I want to be useful.”
I would figure something out. Maybe I could team him up with the meticulous Noriko. I was still thinking about this when Natty grabbed my hand.
“Win’s here! I asked him to come. We should go say hi.”
“What? Who’s here?” I wasn’t sure if I had heard her correctly over the loud music.
“When we were riding back on the train from Boston, I told him he had to see your club because it was amazing. I reasoned with him that since it was basically the reason you two broke up, he probably wouldn’t have closure unless he did.”
“Natty, you really shouldn’t have done that,” I said.
“Truthfully, I didn’t think he would come, but he’s here now.”
I ran my fingers through my hair. He hadn’t seen me since I’d gotten my hair cut.
Natty led me to a table near the windows. Win was indeed there, along with his mother, Mr. Delacroix, and a girl about my age. I knew without being told that this was the girlfriend from Vermont. She was skinny skinny and tall tall with blond hair that flowed to her waist. Mr. Delacroix and Win stood. I smiled (in a way I hoped was) graciously at the table and put on my best hostess voice. “Mr. Delacroix, Mrs. Delacroix, so nice to see you again. Win, what a surprise. And you must be Win’s girlfriend?” I held my hand out for the Viking to shake.
“Astrid,” she said.
“Anya,” I said. “Amazing to meet you.”
“This place is so charming,” she said. “I love it.” Her hand was resting on his thigh. He brushed several long, blond strands of hair from her face.
“Charming is the word,” Mrs. Delacroix agreed. The last time I’d spoken to her, she’d seemed nonplussed about the club and her husband’s role in it, but she seemed to have made peace with both. “You’ve done a wonderful job. You and Charlie both.” She looked at her husband. Mr. Delacroix’s expression was cryptic, and I did not know him well enough to decipher it. He had not even greeted me when I’d arrived at the table, but had kept his gaze toward the window, as if the real party was going on just outside.