'I wanted to…' Mama said, taking the tissue from Um Masoud's swollen fingers.
'Never hesitate, we are sisters.'
'I swear to God,' Mama said, 'I have always liked you.' Her eyes wide open, eager to convince.
'Don't worry,' Um Masoud said lazily. Her confidence was repulsive. 'Men are like that. They like adventure. The Guide knows this and he is very forgiving.'
'Really?'
'Yes,' Um Masoud reassured her, then, lowering her voice to a whisper, added, 'Let me tell you this. Once a man was fixed on killing him.'
'Really?' Mama said, assuming disbelief.
'Yes. What can you say? Mad. His mind had left him. When he was caught the Guide sat with him and asked, "Why did you want to kill me, my son?" They say the man melted like ice in fire, weeping for forgiveness, and the Guide forgave him there and then.' Mama looked astonished, hopeful, ridiculously naive. Um Masoud plucked the yellow tissue and handed it to Mama. 'I don't mean to brag, but Jafer has a special place in the Guide's heart. And Jafer is, of course, heart and soul devoted to him. Yes. After all, isn't all of this good fortune we are in,' she said opening her hands towards the ceiling, 'because of his generosity? It wouldn't be right to bite the hand that feeds you.'
'Of course,' Mama said, adding in the way people do at weddings, 'May God nurture the goodwill and keep the envious at bay.'
'From your mouth to God's ear,' Um Masoud said.
Ustath Jafer rarely stood chatting with any of the neighbours. He wasn't unfriendly, but kept conversations to a minimum and always assumed the air of the sort of man I would later come to recognize, one who wanted to make the burden of his monumental responsibilities clear; that he was a man who was thrust by fate's benevolent hand into the vortex of his time. He greeted people with a sort of inverted modesty that seemed designed to make them feel humble. He was always dressed in a suit and tie, his hair blow-dried and parted to carefully conceal the receding line. He wore gold-rimmed sunglasses which he rarely took off when shaking hands with others. He didn't have to seem outwardly eager to prove his loyalty. He was a senior member of the Mokhabarat, trained in Moscow by the KGB, concerned with the larger picture, with the mechanics of security, calculating who was to remain in front of the sun and who to be fixed firmly behind it. Most of us as children were led to fear him. Most of us secretly admired his power in comparison with our parents. Not one of us didn't want to be in his shoes.
He walked into his reception room, where Mama and I sat waiting like patients at a doctor's surgery. Mama stood up, I didn't. He came straight to me, ruffled my hair and said, simply, 'Suleiman.'
I stood up, my eyes on Mama, hoping to deflect his gaze.
'How are you?'
'Answer your uncle,' Mama said.
I faced the floor and mumbled, 'I am fine, Ustath Jafer.'
This made him clap his hands and laugh. He finally turned to Mama. He shook her hand without looking at her face, repeating, 'Sit down, sit down.'
'Najwa has come especially to talk to you, Jafer,' Um Masoud said in an unnecessarily loud voice, a smile lurking on her face. 'She is our dear neighbour. The prophet taught us to love our neighbours.'
'Of course, of course,' Ustath Jafer said benevolently.
'Thank you,' Mama said and repeated her statement: 'I swear, I have always liked you,' adding that, 'Masoud and Ali are like my own. I swear, there is no difference between them and Suleiman.' Then, to my horror, she began crying again.
Um Masoud looked at her husband and pursed her lips. She seemed to genuinely feel for Mama.
'Go and make us tea,' he said quietly, and Um Masoud left the room. His tone changed when he addressed his wife, it was rough and unrestrained.
'I swear to you, Bu Masoud,' Mama said, 'these days are pure hell.'
He didn't ask what she meant, he seemed to know, seemed to know everything.
'He's innocent. If he has done anything, it's because he was urged by others. Bu Suleiman has always been devoted, he isn't the type. It's just that other people, may God forgive them, have been whispering in his ears.'
'He shouldn't have listened.'
'I know, I know,' she said. 'But, what can you say, the devil is mischievous.' Then with renewed hope Mama said, 'I swear, since we found out about Rashid, we have had nothing to do with him or his family.' She began to weep again. 'Please, Ustath, you must believe me.'
'There, there,' he said so softly that I felt a strange urge to hug him. 'God is great. Capable of all things.'
And that was all he said, 'God is great,' and, 'Capable of all things.'
The tea came, served with the cake Mama had baked. I refused to have any, but Um Masoud insisted. I held the plate in my hand and looked at it. I plucked the strawberry from the icing and put the whole of it in my mouth. 'He's a sweet boy,' Um Masoud said. Ustath Jafer glanced at me and shouted, 'Masoud, Ali,' then asked his wife, 'Where are they?' They were at Osama's house, she told him, watching television. I imagined all the boys gathered there, watching one of the latest cowboy films Osama was always able to find. He had a genius for hunting down the latest videos. My heart turned with longing.
Um Masoud walked us out. When we were at the door she gasped. 'Just a minute,' she said, then returned with the piece of cake she had given me with the strawberry missing. 'There, Suleiman, be a good boy and give this to the gentleman sitting there in the car.' Then to Mama she added, 'They work so hard, sitting in the sun all day.' Mama stared blankly at Um Masoud.
Glad the cake wasn't meant for me, I took it to Sharief, who smiled past me at Um Masoud then took the plate.
The boys were coming out of Osama's house now, their eyes sleepy. They must have been watching the film in the darkened sitting room, each taking a stretch on the thick carpet, folding cushions beneath their heads, blasting the volume. When the hero had kissed the heroine they must have giggled, thrown cushions at each other.
I walked with Mama to our house, but then, when I saw the dark shade of our hallway, I decided to stay out. I walked around the garden, shook a branch of the orange tree, but no fruit fell. I went and stood on the pavement, kicking a pebble, hoping one of the boys would say something, include me in some game or conversation.
Adnan had begun to stack stones on top of one another. They were going to play Six Stones. I sat on the pavement. Sharief was devouring the cake. Just when they were ready to start playing I grabbed a pebble and threw it from that great distance to knock down the stack of stones. I wanted to impress them with my aim. But the stone hit Adnan instead. They all turned towards me. Osama, the mighty Osama, came charging at me.
'Are you mad?' he yelled. I remembered that if Adnan's skin was punctured he could bleed to death. Osama was now right in my face. 'Have you lost your mind?' He thrust the heels of his palms into my chest and I fell. I heard Sharief leave his car. 'Do you want to kill him?'
Osama yelled, kicking me as I lay on the ground. 'Enough,' I heard Sharief say and I received another kick. Where was Kareem? 'I said enough,' Sharief said and grabbed Osama by the back of the neck. 'Enough means enough/ Osama threw his head back to relieve the pain. Sharief pushed him towards the boys. Osama lost his balance and fell. He looked back at me with hate in his eyes. When he reached Adnan he put a hand on his shoulder, then kneeled down to inspect his ankle, the place where my stone had landed.
'You can't just hit each other over nothing,' Sharief said and returned to his car, a speck of cream clinging to one corner of his lips.
I ran into the shade of our house. Mama was in her bedroom, the door shut. She must have been asleep or ill. A few minutes later I heard an ambulance come screaming into our street. I peeped out of the window of the reception room. Adnan was resting with one arm on Osama, the rest of the boys crowded round him. He limped into the white arms of a doctor, his ankle a ball of bandages. Sharief stood holding the ambulance door open. He shut it with great care.