"- but why do you want to see him in jail?" I leaned forward. "He's finished already, Eddie. He's washed up. I talked to one ofPrejanian's staff members. They have no use for him. He could get off the hook tomorrow andPrejanian wouldn't dare pick him up. Whoever framed him already did enough of a job on him from your point of view. What's wrong with my going after the killer?"
"We already got the killer. He's in a cell in the Tombs."
"Let's just suppose you're wrong, Eddie.Then what?"
He stared hard at me. "All right," he said. "Let's suppose I'm wrong. Let's suppose your boy is clean and pure as the snow. Let's say he never did a bad thing in his life. Let's say somebody else killedWhat's
-her-name."
"Portia Carr."
"Right.And somebody deliberately framedBroadfield and set him up for a fall."
"So?"
"And you go after the guy and you get him."
"So?"
"And he's a cop, because who else would have such a goodgoddam reason to sendBroadfield up?"
"Oh."
"Yeah, oh.That'sgonna look terrific, isn't it?" He had his chin jutting at me, and the tendons in his throat were taut. His eyes were furious. "I don't say that's what happened," he said. "Because for my moneyBroadfield's as guilty as Judas, but if he's not, then somebody did a job on him, and who could it be but a couple of cops who want to give that son of a bitch what he deserves? And that would look beautiful, wouldn't it? A cop kills a girl and pins it on another cop to head off an investigation into police corruption. That would look just beautiful."
I thought about it. "And if that's what happened, you'd rather seeBroadfield go to jail for something he didn't do than for it to come out in the open. Is that what you're saying?"
"Shit."
"Is that what you're saying, Eddie?"
"Oh, for Christ's sake.I'd rather see him dead, Matt. Even if I had to blow his fucking head off all bymyself ."
"MATT? You okay?"
I looked up at Trina. Her apron was off and she had her coat over her arm. "Youleaving?"
"I just finished my shift. You've been putting away a lot of bourbon. I just wondered if you were all right."
I nodded.
"Who was that man you were talking with?"
"An old friend.He's a cop, a lieutenant working out of the Sixth Precinct. That's down in the Village." I picked up my glass but put it down again without drinking from it. "He was about the best friend I had on the force. Not buddy-buddy, but we got along pretty well. Of course, you drift apart over the years."
"What did he want?"
"He just wanted to talk."
"You seemed upset after he left."
I looked up at her. I said, "The thing is, murder is different. Taking a human life, that's something completely different. Nobody should be allowed to get away with that. Nobody should ever be allowed to get away with that."
"I don't follow you."
"He didn't do it, damn it. He didn't, he's innocent, and nobody cares. Eddie Koehler doesn't care. I know Eddie Koehler. He's a good cop."
"Matt- "
"But he doesn't care. He wants me to coast and not even make an effort because he wants that poor bastard to go to jail for a murder he didn't commit. And he wants the one who really did it to get away with it."
"I don't think I understand what you're saying, Matt. Look, don't finish that drink, huh? You don't really need it, do you?"
Everything seemed very clear to me. I couldn't fathom why Trina seemed to be having difficulty following me. I was enunciating clearly enough, and my thoughts, at least to me, flowed with crystalline clarity.
"Crystalline clarity," I said.
"What?"
"I know what he wants. Nobody else can figure it, but it's obvious.
You know what he wants, Diana?"
"I'm Trina, Matt. Honey, don't you know who I am?"
"Of course I do. Slip of the tongue. Don't you know what he wants, baby? He wants the glory."
"Who does, Matt? The man you were talking to?"
"Eddie?" I laughed at the notion. "Eddie Koehler doesn't give a damn about glory. I'm talking about Jerry. Good old Jerry."
"Uh-huh." She uncurled my fingers from around my glass and lifted the glass free. "I'll be right back,"
she said. "I won't be a minute, Matt." And then she went away, and shortly after that she was back again. I may have gone on talking to her while she was away from the table. I'm not too certain one way or the other.
"Let's go home, Matt. I'll walk you home, all right? Or would you like to stay at my place tonight?"
I shook my head."Can't do that."
"Of course you can."
"No. Have to see DougFuhrmann . Very important to see old Doug, baby."
"Did you find him in the book?"
"That's it.The book. He can put us all in a book, baby. That's where he comes in."
"I don't understand."
I frowned, irritated. I was making perfect sense and couldn't understand why my meaning was evidently eluding her. She was a bright girl, Trina was. She ought to be able to understand.
"The check," I said.
"You already settled your check, Matt. And you tipped me, you gave me too much. Come on, please, stand up, that's an angel. Oh, baby, the world did a job on you, didn't it? It's okay. All the times you helped me get it together, I can do it for you once in a while, can't I?"
"The check, Trina."
"You paid the check, I just told you, and- "
"Fuhrmann'scheck."It was easier to talk clearly now, easier to think more clearly, standing on my feet.
"He cashed a check here earlier tonight. That's what you said."
"So?"
"Check would be in the register, wouldn't it?"
"Sure. So what? Look, Matt, let's get out in the fresh air and you'll feel a lot better."
I held up a hand. "I'm all right," I insisted. "Fuhrmann'scheck's in the register. Ask Don if you can have a look at it." She still didn't follow me. "His address," I explained. "Most people have their address printed on their checks. I should have thought of it before. Go see, will you?
Please?"
And the check was in the register and it had his address on it. She came back and read off the address to me. I gave her my notebook and pen and told her to write it down for me.
"But you can't go there now, Matt. It's too late and you're not up to it."
"It's too late, and I'm too drunk."
"In the morning- "
"I don't usually get so drunk, Trina. But I'm all right."
"Of course you are, baby. Let's get out in the air. See? It's better already. That's the baby."
Chapter 8
It was a hard morning. I swallowed some aspirin and went downstairs to the Red Flame for a lot of coffee. It helped a little. My hands were slightly shaky and my stomach kept threatening to turn over.
What I wanted was a drink. But I wanted it badly enough to know not to have it. I had things to do,places to go, people to see. So I stuck with the coffee.
At the post office onSixtieth Street I purchased a money order for a thousand dollars and another for forty-five dollars. I addressed an envelope and mailed them both to Anita. Then I walked around the corner toSt. Paul 's onNinth Avenue . I must have sat there for fifteen or twenty minutes, not thinking of anything in particular. On the way out I stopped in front of the effigy of St. Anthony and lit a couple of candles for some absent friends. One was for Portia Carr, another forEstrellita Rivera, a couple others for a couple of other people. Then I put five fifty-dollar bills in the slot of the poor box and went out into the cold morning air.
I have an odd relationship with churches, and it's one I do not entirely understand myself. It started not long after I moved to myFifty-seventh Street hotel. I began spending time in churches, and I began lighting candles, and, ultimately, I began tithing. That last is the most curious part of all. I give a tenth of whatever money I make to the first church I happen to stop in after I receive payment. I don't know what they do with the money. They probably spend half of it converting happy pagans and use the rest to buy large cars for the clergy. But I keep giving my money to them and go on wondering why.