The autumn weather was chilly, but there was no city heat in Gorlovka. She tiptoed to the tiny kitchen with its bare shelves. Alena simply could not find the time to clean the stains or the scum from the gas stove or the oilcloth that covered the small table by the window. The fridge was almost empty, not counting the half-empty bottle of vodka that Artem had uncharacteristically left unfinished. There were some mushrooms she’d gathered in August. It would not be a simple thing to get more food.
She started at a knock at the door. Could it be Artem? But he always left early and got home late, if he even came home. She went to the door and fearfully put an eye to the peephole. With a sigh of relief, she opened the door to a welcome visitor.
“Misha!”
Mihailo Korzh smiled broadly as he stepped inside. “Shall we have a bite to eat?” he strode into the kitchen and set a large, cloth bag on the table then began pulling groceries out of it as he announced each delicacy with the aplomb of a TV announcer.
“Imported cheese. A forbidden product that must be eaten quickly. Real Ukrainian salo,[5] bananas and sugared pineapple, but that’s for dessert. A few cans of corned beef for reserves. Fresh milk and yoghurt for your son. Chicken legs — you can find some vegetables and cook up some borscht. And finally, we have some oil, sausage, and fresh apples.”
“Misha,” she could barely speak, “where did you find all this?”
“My aunt was in Mariopol. Don’t worry. She brought back enough for everybody.”
“Your aunt?” Alena was dubious. “You’re an orphan.”
“A man is an orphan if he has no family, and an aunt is family. So, take a seat and eat something.”
Mihailo was lying. There was no aunt. He’d bought the food with the last of his money from resellers from Mariopol. He hadn’t worried about money since he’d sent his wife and son to Kharkov under the pretext of an operation on the boy’s eyes.
“So, how are things with you?” he asked, taking a seat at the small table. He spread some salo on a slice of bread.
“It’s not good, Misha.”
He could see that she wanted to talk.
“You know,” she said, “I told you already. Life was normal with my husband before the war, and then he lost his job. He fell apart. I’d come home and find him passed out on the floor with a broken vodka bottle beside him, and my son was crawling through it and playing with the shards of glass. I had to get my son, Vitya, out and at first found a small apartment. But the prices have gone through the roof, as you know. They don’t pay much at the club, not enough to keep the apartment. I got into debt and then met Artem, just like I met you, in the club. I’ve lived here with him ever since. I took Vitya to my mother-in-law and tried to convince Artem to bring him here. But my mother-in-law gave me an ultimatum — return to my husband, or never see my son again.”
She began to sob softly.
“And Artem? Couldn’t he help you get the boy back? He’s in the militia and has a lot of pull in the city.”
“He doesn’t want to, Misha.” She finally broke out in tears. “He doesn’t want my son. We argued about it again last night and he hit me. I want to leave him, to find an apartment of my own, but what would I live on then? Artem sometimes brings food home. He helps with my debts. I live here for free. Sometimes he gives me some money and I can go a few days without working.” She rolled her eyes.
“Did you do what I asked?”
“Yes,” she sighed. “No problem. He thought he must have lost his credentials somewhere in the city.”
Alena rose from the table and retrieved the small, leather wallet from a drawer where she’d hidden it under some dish towels.
“But, Misha, you’re not going to do anything bad, are you, something that would create a problem?” She was nervous.
“Alena, I already told you. No problems. I just have to get out of town. It’s a stupid situation. My son needs an operation on his eyes, but they won’t let me travel because I was an artist at the DNR Ministry of Defense. An artist! I made the decorations for the Victory Day celebration. But once you’ve worked for the military on DNR territory, they won’t let you leave. I’m going to put my photo on this ID and go to Kharkov with my boy. That’s all. I’m an artist, after all, so I can surely falsify an ID.”
“I understand.” She shrugged almost indifferently. “That’s the way things are. I suppose it’s necessary in wartime. The Junta won’t leave us in peace.”
Her words were painful for Mihailo, but he ignored it. He said, “Alena, if I can get out for a week or two you and your son could use my apartment. For free. Here are the keys.”
“Misha.” She leapt from her chair and wrapped her arms around him. “I thought Artem loved me, you know? But he’s just like the rest. I know things are tough on him, too. He’s in the militia. But that doesn’t mean he can slap women around. War makes such pigs of men. Or maybe I’m just unlucky. But you’re not a pig. You’re a good man, but you’re married…”
“I understand why you hooked up with him…” Mihailo stopped talking and gently extracted himself from her embrace.
He choked back a silent scream, keeping his face calm so as not to betray the storm that raged in his heart. But he’s a terrorist, a murderer, a tool of the occupiers, and you sleep with him and still wonder why life is so unpleasant?
“He’s a militiaman.” She finished his sentence. “They always have money.”
She said this so simply, so naïvely, that Mihailo didn’t know how to react. He’d never figured out exactly how to act with Alena. She supported his enemies, she slept with murderers for a handful of hryvnia and a basket of food. But she was so unhappy and weak that he could not think of her as an enemy. She was another casualty of war, like many others — ignorant and deceived, maybe lacking some scruples, but still a casualty. Whatever her conduct, he was fighting for her.
Mihailo did not know Alena by chance. He’d gone to the strip club because fighters frequented the place. He wanted to see if they had particular girlfriends that might be susceptible to providing military secrets they learned from pillow talk. Artem and Alena were easy to spot.
A short investigation showed that Artem Volkov held fairly senior rank among the separatists and that meant he could pass through checkpoints without inspection and enter nearly any military site. All of this power lay in his credentials. The groceries were the price for Alena’s cooperation.
He was ready to hate her for some of the things she said, incapable of coming to terms with her omnivorous naïveté. And still he cared for her the way one might care for a wayward child. He wondered how she would react if he told her that her so-called Junta were fighting to protect the city’s residents, risking their lives for her, while the man with whom she shared a bed was ready to blow up entire cities along with their residents.
It was strange, but the more he lied to Alena, the more responsible he became for her; the more he took advantage of her blindness, the more grateful he became for her involuntary help. The more she became entangled in his net, the greater the need to protect her from danger.
This remarkable coincidence of cynicism and humanity was new to him. It was strange that these contradictory emotions should so easily fit together, like pieces of a huge jigsaw puzzle. So now he freely offered his apartment to her knowing that if he got out of Gorlovka alive he could not return before the war was over.