‘He has photographs?’
‘Yes, he has.’
Hearing the word ‘photographs’, M. Dusapin began fiddling at the strings of his portfolio. ‘Tell him to stop,’ Will said. ‘Tell him I don’t want to see his disgusting photographs. Tell him we won’t be needing his services. There are thousands of our soldiers in the vicinity. A firing squad won’t be hard to find. There’s no need for us to recreate the terror of the French Revolution.’
Girardot, with a pained expression, translated. Dusapin began objecting. Head tilted to one side, looking at Will, Girardot listened and conveyed the executioner’s meaning to Will.
Will stopped him. ‘I’ve said we don’t want him. It’s time for him to leave.’
When they’d gone, Will plucked at his uniform, pulling it straight. Nausea surged with the anger that rose in him. Obscene, that executioner — soft, ingratiating, ambitious, argumentative, delicate. The rich hair on his head was somehow particularly sickening. Deeply, sinisterly French. He was precisely why the French should not have an empire. They weren’t clean and decent. Their order was that of a petty, sordid regime.
Will’s opinion of the French was reinforced rather than challenged by each of the colonials he encountered in the town. With little to occupy them, they drank too much, fornicated in shuttered rooms and paid frequent visits to the office to denounce each other as traitors. They drank so much that occasionally one of them would fall from a bar stool and die on the floor. Draycott mentioned a couple of distressing recent incidences of this happening in a morning meeting and Samuels raised his hand to say, ‘It’s the anisette, sir. It’s not safe.’
Will and Samuels had gone to a bar together one evening. Will requested beers. While they were served, Samuels watched the preparation of a drink for their neighbour at the bar. A glass of clear spirit was handed to a customer who added a dash of water, turning the whole concoction cloudy white. The man noticed Samuels looking at him and said, ‘Anisette. You like to try? Very strong. Is good.’ He took the cigarette holder from between his teeth and knocked back the drink, closing his eyes, leaning forwards, tucking in his chin and shuddering. He reopened watery eyes and laughed. ‘Yes, yes, two for you, for victory heroes.’
‘That’s kind,’ Samuels replied. ‘I’m not sure …’
‘But why not?’ Will said, always alert to detect any hint of unmanliness in Samuels, with the urge to punish any that appeared. Will said to the Frenchman, ‘That’s good of you. For victory heroes.’ To Samuels he went on, ‘What are you scared of?’
‘Nothing. I …’
‘Might as well try it. New experiences and all that. See the world. Worried it’ll be too strong for your delicate constitution?’
‘No. It’s not that. I …’
‘So there we are, then.’
The Frenchman was already conferring with the barman. It seemed that some discussion was necessary, some persuasion. Finally, the barman shrugged his shoulders and reached for an unmarked bottle.
‘He is not certain for you,’ the Frenchman laughed. ‘In Vichy time, it was not legal. Now it comes back to legal. But only the pharmacist makes it. Very very strong alcohol.’
Two small glasses were set before Will and Samuels. They added water and observed the colour change like schoolboys in a chemistry lesson.
‘Right,’ Will said. ‘On one.’
‘It smells like pure ethanol with a dash of aniseed twists.’
‘On one. One.’
The drink fell in clouds of flame into Will’s chest. ‘Haaa.’
‘There goes my tongue,’ Samuels croaked.
‘That’s awful.’
‘The second one is always better,’ the Frenchman said, laughing. ‘You will see.’ He ordered two more.
Later, the Frenchman was telling something deeply secret into Will’s ear, his breath hot, his lips wet and explosive. It was something about a particular woman’s vagina, someone’s wife. Will couldn’t really follow. Something to do with the vagina and a kind of fruit. Outside the bar, the Frenchman called over an Arab boy and reached into a pocket musical with loose change. ‘Look at this,’ he said to Will. When the boy was close, the man jerked up one leg and stamped as hard as he could onto the boy’s bare toes. The boy squeaked and fell over holding his foot.
‘Did you see what that fucker did?’ Samuels spiralled into Will’s vision. ‘I’m going to stamp on his fucking toes.’ Samuels staggered towards the man and tried to do the same but missed, banging his own foot on the pavement. ‘I missed.’
‘Why?’ the Frenchman protested, looking hurt. ‘It is normal. It is good for them.’
‘Try again,’ Will instructed. Samuels did but the man backed away as he approached and then turned and kept walking.
Will remembered hurtling home on his motorbike after that, zooming up the slope to the villa and arriving suddenly stock still beside the machine with the engine running. He made himself vomit into the elegant floral lavatory of the villa and went to bed.
The following morning, when called into Draycott’s office, Will’s head felt both hollow and filled with pain. Light drilled into him. He squinted as he saluted and sat carefully on the chair Draycott indicated. Draycott had good news. As an Arabic speaker, Will’s new job was to compile a report on local attitudes to the Allies. Get out of town on a motorcycle and see what he could find out. Talk to the tribal bigwigs. Will watched with increasing interest as Draycott’s fingers swirled over a very sizeable area of the map.
‘All of that?’
‘Yes.’
‘How long?’
‘However long it takes, I suppose. Not too long. If we need you for anything we’ll let you know.’
‘Thank you, sir.’ Will stood up and saluted again, suddenly cleared of pain by a rush of real happiness.
12
Frightened by the noise of Will’s motorcycle, a deer flew up the mountainside. He watched it go, the pulsing of its strong body, its delicate legs flung out, gathered under. Will shut off the engine and stood on the balls of his feet, the bike balanced beneath him. The winter’s day was as clear as spring water. In the forests of cork oak on either side, every tree was distinct, clarified. He could see the texture of the bark, the shivering leaves, insects twirling in shafts of sunlight. Above, a raptor glided along the valley’s channel of sky. Will tipped his head back and breathed in through his nostrils. Fresh cold air, wood-scented, tainted with the faint reek of petrol and hot metal. He was further inland than any of the Allies had yet reached, out on his own, the first. As he drove between fields, startled women had turned their backs on him, hiding their unveiled faces. The stillness in the forest was wonderful. It reminded him of being home in the wood by the river. Peace settled gently over his shoulders like a shawl. He allowed himself a moment more then kicked the motorcycle alive. There was somewhere he had to get to. The bike rattled and shook, firing up. The Norton was not a powerful machine but it was dogged up the inclines, chugging away. Will was getting to like its dumb, stubborn character as he would a horse.
Standing in the sleepy Esso station, petrol splashing into the hot empty tank of the Norton, it occurred to Will that the open lorry he’d just seen driving away with barrels roped to its back was probably delivering stolen fuel. Petrol was going missing in large quantities from the Allied shipments, soaking quickly out of sight. Of course that was what he’d just seen happen but he hadn’t realised it at the time because he lacked the nasty immediate suspiciousness of a policeman. He hadn’t thought of it until it was too late. He wouldn’t go after the truck now. He didn’t have time and, anyway, if it was delivering there’d be no evidence. He had better things to do, an appointment to keep.