I rest my head on Taylor’s knees, completely at her mercy. I know I don’t deserve her. I know I’m not worthy and won’t be able to give her what she needs, but I’m just selfish enough to try.
The next morning, I catch McAllister in the hall, a rolling suitcase in tow. He stops when he sees me, a guilty look flashing across his face, then he straightens his shoulders and turns to face me.
“I need to go away for a few days on business. I just sent you an email. You’re in charge of day-to-day decisions. If anything bigger comes up, call my cell.”
Without so much as a goodbye, he turns and continues down the hall, rolling his bag behind him. Watching his retreating back, bag in hand brings up an unwelcome memory. After my mom died, he began leaving on overnight business trips more and more, to the point where he was rarely ever home.
“You can’t just run away this time,” I call after him.
He stops stiffening and turns to face me once again. His eyes meet mine and I can see he’s trying to decide if he should just keep walking.
I press on before he has the chance to decide. “I know you think I was too young to remember, but I remember everything.”
His eyes dance nervously on mine, unsure of what I’ll say next. And frankly so am I. But I’m on a roll now. I take a step closer to him.
“After mom passed, you threw yourself into this place like never before. You were rarely home, you even started spending the night here, leaving me and Reis with Mrs. Lee just so you didn’t have to face us.”
He shifts nervously, fiddling with the handle of his suitcase.
“You chose to give up your family a long time ago, Dad.” I hadn’t called him that in so long, the word surprises us both. An expression from long ago crosses his face. Compassion? Sorrow?
“You need to make things right with Taylor.”
He cocks his head, the expression fading away the instant I mention her name. “I’ve upset your latest conquest? What a travesty. Spare me. Don’t think for a second that I don’t know what goes on around here. I’ve been fully briefed. I’m just glad your mother isn’t around to see how you’ve turned out.”
He turns and stalks down the hall, yanking his bag behind him.
“Just run away!” I call after him. “It’s what you do best.”
Jackass.
Chapter 50
Though I’d rather distract myself with Colt and the newness of our relationship, my new self-appointed assignment is gathering everything I can find on McAllister. I desperately need to feel in control of something again. My entire life is spiraling out of my grasp.
I stumble onto something of interest in McAllister’s personal banking records that I’ve hacked into. He made a very large cash transfer the day before the oil tanker crash. He invested one hundred thousand dollars into a stock called IBX.
I type it into Google. It’s a company that manufactures industrial cleaning solutions. They have a patented formula that attracts and disintegrates oil, and with a few more clicks, I learn that IBX was awarded the business for cleaning up the oil spill the Alliance caused. Holy shit!
Since IBX was awarded the business, their stock has shot up several hundred percent. I do some more digging and see that in a matter of weeks, McAllister has made two million dollars from his new stock purchase. And the cleanup efforts are expected to last for six months. My stomach clenches. By causing that oil spill, he’ll make millions.
I feel sick.
I head to Colt’s room, a plan spinning in my head as I make my way down the hall.
He opens the door and pulls me inside the room, happy to see me, as usual. “What’s wrong?” he asks, sensing the tension in my embrace.
“I know why McAllister did it, and it’s even worse than I thought.”
He frowns. “Come sit down.”
I am seething, but follow him to his bed and sit down beside him. Why does he look so nervous?
“He’s heavily invested in company that’s in charge of the cleanup, and after I caused the spill, his stock shot through the roof.”
His mouth gapes open.
“He’s already made two million on his initial investment.”
Colt looks down, clenching and unclenching his fists.
“Colt, say something.”
“What do you want me to say, Taylor?”
“That we’re going to stop him. He doesn’t deserve that money.”
He scoffs. “And what, you do? Because you were the one behind the controls?”
I flinch as though physically struck by his words. “Of course not. The money should go to the cleanup efforts. And he shouldn’t be in charge here, he should be in jail. This isn’t about me, Colt. What he’s doing is wrong.”
“He’s not just going to give up that money because you tell him to, Taylor. Grow up. And without him here, what would happen to this place? Think about it. We can’t turn him into the police – if we do that, you’ll be implicated too.”
He’s right, but why is his tone so crushing right now? I knew Colt didn’t want me meddling around in McAllister’s business, but why is he being so argumentative?
“What’s with you right now?” I challenge.
Colt takes a deep breath, releasing it slowly. His eyes are pure agony, an aching inside him I can practically see. “McAllister is my father.”
What? Holy hell! I study him, waiting for him to say something else, to explain this. How could I not have known? “But your last name…”
“Was McAllister,” he says. “I changed it to my mother’s maiden name before I came to Wilbrook.”
We watch each other in silence for a few minutes, the tension igniting the air around us. I pull back from him, moving further away on the bed as a wall erects itself between us. He is related to the man I hate. A voice in the back of my mind taunts me, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, as I remember Colt’s despicable behavior when I first met him.
“No matter what I think about him, I can’t force him out. He’s my father.” Colt’s voice is softer, more in control, but just as certain as before.
“Well then this conversation’s over.” I turn, and walk away, Colt’s silence ripping a hole through me as I go.
I keep my game face on as best as I can during the next week of classes, but any chance I get, I crawl into my bed. And after an entire day spent pretending – pretending that everything is fine, I finally let go and let the tears come.
The crush of heartbreak is all consuming. Between Colt’s rejection and the oil tanker assignment gone wrong – I am nothing but a shell.
I know I can’t stay here. Not now. Having to face McAllister and Colt – father and son –who run this place is way more than I’m capable of handling.
Even though I’d seen glimmers of hope – Colt hadn’t changed. Why hadn’t he ever told me McAllister was his dad? I’d been inside their house for heaven’s sake. Then again, he never told me about his brother either – and I don’t think it’s because he was hiding something.
Colt and I haven’t spoken a word. We don’t even make eye contact when we pass in the halls. I’ve skipped his class every day since we broke up. I can’t bear to see him in the martial arts studio where we used to train together during his private lessons.
I distract myself with online forums with nameless, faceless hacker friends that feel far safer than real relationships.
MJ and Logan follow me around like little shadows. I still haven’t told them anything – about the ship – or about Colt – instead letting them draw their own conclusions. And of course the conclusion around school is that Colt finally slept with me and moved on. The truth is far more painful.