“Something wrong?” I ask as I begin to swab.
“You’ve been awfully quiet.”
“No, Joe. Everything’s just peachy. I love lying here while you dig around inside this horrific piece of trash that used to be my breast. I love the smell, especially. Don’t you? It’s so sexy.”
“It isn’t bad, baby. I don’t mind it.”
“You don’t mind it? That’s nice, Joe. I’m so glad you don’t mind it.”
Her tone is heavy with sarcasm, which is definitely a bad sign, because Caroline rarely resorts to sarcasm. I continue to work on the wound quietly, wondering whether she’s going to tell me what’s on her mind or whether she’ll need prodding. I don’t have to wait long.
“Where were you last night?” she asks.
There are things I don’t tell her occasionally, but I’ve never been able to lie to her. I opt for a compromise.
“I had dinner with a friend.”
“Which friend?”
“An old friend. What difference does it make?”
“And what about the other night? Just like last night. I came home and you were gone. All the note said was, ‘Back in a while.’ ”
“I went to see somebody. What’s wrong with you?”
“And this morning? You left early, but you didn’t go to the gym.”
“I had a cup of coffee with Bates.”
“Why?”
“Why not?”
“Because you don’t work for the district attorney anymore, so why would you have coffee with the sheriff?”
“I don’t know. I didn’t have anything else to do.”
“Stop it!”
She’s upset now. She turns on her side to face me and pushes my hand away from her breast. She grabs me by the wrist and squeezes.
“Why can’t you give me a straight answer? What are you hiding?”
“I’m not hiding anything, Caroline.”
“Stop lying to me!”
“I’m not lying.”
“Are you having an affair?”
I nearly fall off the edge of the bed. I can’t believe I’m hearing this. Caroline and I have been married for more than twenty years, and being unfaithful to her has never entered my mind.
“Have you gone crazy? Of course I’m not having an affair.”
“Then where were you last night?”
“I told you. I had dinner with a friend.”
“Which friend, damn it. Which friend?”
I lower my eyes. I have to tell her.
“Rita Jones.”
She throws her legs over the side of the bed and stomps off toward the bathroom. “I knew it! I knew it!”
I get up slowly and follow her. Explaining dinner with Rita to her means I’m going to have to explain a lot more. I don’t really know why I haven’t told her about Hannah. I suppose it’s because I just didn’t want to upset her. She’s been dealing with cancer for such a long time now that I’ve probably become overly protective of her. But I should know better. She knows me so well.
The bathroom door is locked. I can hear her sobbing inside.
“Caroline, it isn’t what you think.”
“Stay away from me! I hate you!”
“Open the door and let me explain.”
“Explain what? How you’re fucking another woman?”
“Hannah’s dead, Caroline. I’ve been trying to help Bates find out who killed her. Rita helped us out, that’s all. We needed DNA samples from a couple of people in the office, and I called her and asked her if she’d collect some things for me. I met her last night and picked them up. That’s all it was. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before now. Please open the door.”
The crying stops, and a few seconds later I hear her feet shuffling across the tile on the other side of the door.
“Hannah’s dead?” she says weakly.
“Bates found her the other day. He’s not going to tell anyone until we figure out what happened.”
“I knew she was dead. I knew it the night you told me she was gone.”
“Open the door, Caroline. Please?”
“Why did you have dinner with Rita? Why couldn’t you just pick up whatever it was she had?”
“You know how she is. I bought her dinner and took her home, that’s all. I swear it.”
“You took her home?”
“She was too drunk to drive.”
“Did she make a pass at you?”
“Several.”
“You promised me you wouldn’t keep things from me anymore, Joe. You promised.”
“I know. I’m sorry.”
“I wouldn’t blame you, you know,” she says through the door. “I mean, I’d kill you, but I wouldn’t blame you. I’m a freak.”
“I love you, Caroline. Nothing will ever change that.”
I hear the lock click, and the door opens slowly. She’s standing there with her robe hanging open and tearstains on her cheeks. She’s so beautiful, so vulnerable, that it nearly moves me to tears.
“You promise you love me the way I am?” she says. “Mutilated…”
I step toward her and take her in my arms.
“I love you just like you are, baby. I wouldn’t change a thing.”
52
Anita White walked quickly through the front door of the Tennessee Bureau of Investigation’s forensic laboratory in Knoxville. The same day Tommy Miller was arrested, Dillard had left her a message on her cell phone saying he’d talked to the night clerk at the convenience store. The clerk had identified Tommy. He also said Tommy slept off a drunk in the parking lot that night and didn’t leave until after five in the morning. The next day, Anita learned that the DNA sample they obtained from Tommy Miller didn’t match the DNA the lab technicians had taken from the cigarette butts found near Judge Green’s body. With each passing hour, Anita’s belief that they’d arrested the wrong person intensified.
She’d been hurt and angry following her conversation with Dillard at the restaurant, but after hearing his message, reading the DNA report, and spending a sleepless night deep in thought, she realized Dillard was right. She should have voiced her concerns over Harmon’s tactics during the interrogation. She should have helped the boy. But as she told Dillard, what was done was done. She couldn’t undo the confession, but she could keep on working, keep on digging. If someone else killed the judge, Anita intended to find him.
She walked into a small office on the third floor. The office was occupied by Harold Teller, a forensic computer analyst. Teller had called Anita early that morning to say he was finished with his analysis of Judge Green’s computer and would be mailing a hard copy of his report. When Anita asked him whether there was anything interesting in the report, his reply was, “Several things,” so Anita asked Teller if she could meet with him later in the day. She’d driven the ninety miles to Knoxville in just over an hour.
“Agent White, I presume,” Teller said from behind a stack of reports on his desk.
Teller was in his late twenties, much younger than he sounded over the phone. His light brown hair was cut neatly and parted on the side, his eyes were the clearest blue Anita had ever seen, and he wore a pleasant smile on his angular face.
“Have a seat,” Teller said as he rolled in his chair to the corner, picked up a bound stack of papers, and rolled back to his desk. “Why are you so interested in the report? Don’t you already have a confession in this case?”
“Let’s just say I’m not totally convinced by the confession and leave it at that,” Anita said.
“Ah, you suspect a false confession. How intriguing.”
Teller’s eyes were gleaming mischievously, and Anita smiled. She’d been expecting a geek, a nerd with acne and thick glasses, someone so smart he would have difficulty talking to a mere mortal. But this was a good-looking young man who apparently had a sense of humor-a nice surprise.
Teller slid the report across the table, and Anita picked it up.
“There are some pretty disturbing images in there,” Teller said. “The judge had eclectic tastes in pornography. He favored prepubescent boys and adult gay sadomasochism.”
Anita set the report back on the desk. She had no desire to view lurid images of pornography.