Ben thought of Larison again, what he’d said about how you have to suborn yourself. He wondered if there was ever a person who’d compromised himself without at some point offering up Hort’s own words to the appalled reflection in the mirror.
“Hort… I don’t know. You’re telling me the Constitution doesn’t matter? That seems… that’s a lot.”
“It’s not that it doesn’t matter. It’s fiction, but necessary fiction. Part of what keeps America strong is the society’s belief that we’re a constitutional republic. That no one is above the law.”
“That we don’t torture.”
Hort nodded. “Now you’re getting it.”
“You’re saying people can’t know the truth.”
“And don’t want to know it. Do you know anything about honne and tatemae?”
“No.”
“Couple of Japanese concepts an exceptional man taught me a long time ago. Honne is the real truth. Tatemae is the façade of truth.”
“You think our job is to maintain the façade of truth?”
“I do. And that’s not a bad thing. Just like every society has an establishment, every society also needs tatemae. Think about Gitmo. What was that all about?”
Ben shrugged. “We needed a place to put the bad guys.”
Hort shook his head. “No, that’s a honne answer. The real purpose of Gitmo was to make the public feel safe. Whether it was actually making anyone safe was a secondary consideration at best. Hell, the truth is, we didn’t even know who we were putting in there, we just wanted a big number so we could announce to the public that we’d captured eight hundred of the ‘worst of the worst.’ Who wouldn’t sleep better at night knowing so many of our enemies had been taken out of the game? But we knew most of them were innocent. But it didn’t matter. We needed the number.”
“But the Caspers weren’t innocent. You said so.”
“That’s right, and if the public ever gets wind of what happened to the Caspers, the whole sorry story will come out, including the part about how most of the detainees were innocent. The public needs talismans, son, things like airport security, silly things like taking your shoes and belt off and leaving your six-ounce tube of toothpaste at home. On a honne level, those kind of ‘security’ measures are laughable. On a tatemae level, they convince people it’s safe to fly, and the economy keeps humming along, safe and profitable for the politicians and the corporations they work for.”
“I just… Hort, I can’t believe what you’re saying.”
“Ask yourself this. If you’re part of the oligarchy, what’s more important: that Americans be safe, or that they feel safe?”
Ben didn’t answer.
“Or what matters more: convicting a guilty man, or having society believe the guilty have been convicted? One guilty man going free is irrelevant, as long as society believes the guilty have been punished. But if society loses that confidence, you get anarchy. And the oligarchy doesn’t like anarchy.”
They were quiet for a few minutes. Hort ate. Ben didn’t.
Hort gestured to Ben’s steak and swallowed some of his own. “Try it, it’s good.”
Ben shook his head. “I’m not hungry.”
Hort watched him. “I’m sorry to hear that. Well, when you feel up to it, there’s something I want you to do.”
“What?”
“I told you, we’re rebuilding. There’s you, there’s Larison, I hope, and there are a few others. And there are two in particular I want you to track down.”
“Who?”
“A former marine sniper, goes by the name Dox, is one.”
“Who’s the other?”
Hort took a sip of wine. “The same man who taught me about honne and tatemae. A half-Japanese former soldier gone freelance, named Rain. John Rain.”
“The bartender in Jacó mentioned a guy named Rain. Said he knew him in Vietnam. Called him ‘death personified.’”
Hort nodded, and for a moment his thoughts seemed far away. “I’d say that’s an apt description.”
“You want me to track this guy down. And Dox.”
“They’re the ones who took down Hilger’s operation.”
“This is retaliation?”
“Hell, no. It was unfortunate, but it wasn’t personal. Hilger got in Rain’s and Dox’s business, which even for a man as effective as Hilger turned out not to be a very smart thing to do. No, I want them on our side. I want to make them an offer. But I have to find them first. Sounds like maybe you already have one lead, this bartender in Jacó.”
So this was what all the praise had been about. All the grooming. To entice him. To make him want to be complicit.
“Hort… part of me, I’m honored. But I can’t work for this thing you call the oligarchy.”
Hort took a swallow of wine. “You’ve been working for it. You just didn’t know it.”
“I… whatever you want to call it. I don’t want to be part of it.”
“You want to stay ignorant.”
“That’s not what I mean.”
“Because you’re not ignorant anymore. You come a certain distance, you can’t just turn around. It doesn’t work like that.”
Ben thought of Larison, asking him, You really want that knowledge?
He thought of what it would be like to kill this man, who’d been a mentor, a father figure.
He decided he could live with it.
“You threatening me, Hort?”
“I don’t have to threaten you. You can work with me or get owned by the CIA. That’s pretty much the deal right now.”
Ben swallowed, his nausea worse. So this was what it meant to be an insider.
“You’re not worried I’m going to expose this?”
Hort laughed. “You still don’t get it, do you? There’s nothing to expose. It’s all right there to see, for anyone who cares to look. But nobody does. And there’s nothing they could do, anyway.”
42. Frog in a Pot
Ben left the restaurant ahead of Hort. He had a killer headache and he felt like the only thing keeping him from puking was that he hadn’t touched his food.
The last thing Hort had said to him before he left was, Think it over. He’d said it with complete confidence, the supreme unconcern of a man who’d had this conversation many times before, and always with the same inevitable result.
He stopped at a CVS pharmacy to pick up some fresh skivvies and a toothbrush, then spent the night in a downtown hotel. He was exhausted, but couldn’t sleep. He stared at the ceiling and reran events, trying to make sense of them.
He wished Larison had just released the tapes. He hated that he’d prevented it. But then Al Jazeera would be broadcasting terrorist recruitment propaganda right now. And by commission or omission, Ben would have been part of what caused it.
You see, when the oligarchy looks in the mirror and says, “The State is me,” it’s not inaccurate. It’s not hubris. They’re just describing reality. They’ve made it so.
It was like a terrorist hostage situation. To take out the terrorists, you’d have to sacrifice the hostages. You want to go after the oligarchs and the self-interested, you have to take out the nation, too.
He rubbed his eyes, wishing he could sleep. When this thing had started, he’d so wanted to be on the inside. And then Hort had opened the door and showed him what the inside was really like.
You come a certain distance, you can’t just turn around. It doesn’t work like that.
Maybe I was stupid along the way to get in that position, to get in so deep I couldn’t find my way back, only out.
There had to be a way out of this. There had to be.
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He slept fitfully for five hours and was up at just after dawn. He showered, dressed, and headed out to get something to eat. His appetite had returned in the night and he was starving.