In that instant she was like a young girl (and I a jealous youth).
"Did your ship go straight from there to here?"
"Oh no, there were four voyages after Cuskery: to Alyle on the Sea Company barquentine Face of fairly," she said, and smiled broadly, staring ahead. "Then from there to Fuollah on a trireme, of all things… a Farossi vessel, exImperial navy, then overland to Osk, and from there to Illerne by an argosy out of Xinkspar, finally to Haspide on a galliot of the Mifeli clan traders."
"It all sounds most romantic, mistress."
She gave what looked like a sad smile. "It was not without its privations and indignities on occasion," she said, tapping at the top of her hoot, "and once or twice this old dagger was drawn, but yes, looking back, it was. Very romantic." She took a deep breath and let it out, then swivelled and looked up into the skies, shading her eyes from Seigen.
"fairly has not yet risen, mistress," I said quietly, and was surprised at the coldness I felt. She looked at me oddly.
Some sense returned to me. No matter that since my fever in the palace, when she had said that we ought to be friends, she was still my mistress and I was still her servant as well as her apprentice. And as well as a mistress, I had a Master. Probably nothing I could find out from the Doctor would be new to him, for he had many sources, but I could not be sure, and so I supposed I had an obligation to him to find out all I could from her, in case some small piece of it might prove useful.
"Was that — I mean taking the Mifeli clan ship from Illerne to Haspide — how you came to be employed by the Mifelis?"
"No, that was just coincidence. I helped around the seamen's infirmary for a while after I first landed before one of the younger Mifelis needed treatment on a homebound ship — it had signalled ahead to the Sentry Isles. The Mifelis" own doctor then suffered terribly from seasickness and would not go out on the cutter to meet the galleon. I was recommended to Prelis Mifeli by the infirmary's head surgeon, so I went instead. The boy lived, the ship came in and I was made the Mifeli head-family doctor right there on the docks. Old man Mifeli doesn't waste time making decisions."
"And their old doctor?"
"Pensioned off." She shrugged.
I watched the rear end of the two hauls for a while. One of them shat copiously. The steaming shit disappeared under our wagon, but not before wreathing us in its vapours.
"Dear me, what an awful smell," the Doctor said. I bit my tongue. This was one of the reasons that people who were in a position to do so usually kept as much distance between themselves and beasts of burden as they could.
"Mistress, may I ask you a question?"
She hesitated for a moment. "You have been asking me various questions already, Oelph," she said, and graced me with a sly, amused look. "I take it you mean may you ask me a question that may be impertinent?"
"Umm…,
"Ask away, young Oelph. I can always pretend I didn't hear you."
"I was just wondering, mistress," I said, feeling most awkward, and very warm all of a sudden, "why you left Drezen?"
"Ah," she said, and taking up the whip waggled it over the yokes of the two hauls, barely tickling their necks with the end of it. She looked briefly at me. "Partly the urge to have an adventure, Oelph. just the desire to go somewhere nobody I knew had been before. And partly… partly to get away, to forget somebody." She smiled brightly, dazzlingly at me for a moment before looking away up the road again. "I had an unhappy love affair, Oelph. And I am stubborn. And proud. Having made up my mind to leave and having announced that I would travel to the other ends of the world, I could not — I would not — back down. And so I hurt myself twice, once by falling for the wrong person, and then a second time by being too obstinate — even in a more temperate mood — to retreat from a commitment made in a fury of injured pride."
"Was this the person who gave you the dagger, mistress?" I asked, already hating and envying the man.
"No," she said, with a sort of snorting laugh which I thought was most unladylike. "I had been wounded by him quite enough without carrying such a token of his." She gazed down at the dagger, sheathed as usual in the top of her right boot. "The dagger was a gift from… the state. Some of the decoration on the dagger was given to me by another friend. One I used to have terrible arguments with. A double-edged gift."
"What was it you argued about, mistress?"
"Lots of things, or lots of aspects of the same thing. Whether the might beyond might had a right to impose its values on others." She looked at my puzzled expression and laughed. "We argued about here, for one thing."
"Here, mistress?" I asked, looking around.
"About-" She seemed to catch herself, then said, "About Haspide, the Empire. About this whole other hemisphere." She shrugged. "I won't bore you with the details. In the end I left and he stayed, though I did hear later that he too sailed away, some time after I did."
"Do you regret coming here now, mistress?"
"No," she said, smiling. "For most of the voyage to Cuskery I did… but the equator signalled a change, as they say it often does, and since then, no. I still miss my family and friends, but I am not sorry now that I made the decision."
"Do you think you will ever go back, mistress?"
"I have no idea, Oelph." Her expression was troubled and hopeful at once. Then she produced another smile for me. "I am the doctor to the King, after all. I would consider that I have not done my job properly if he would let me leave. I may be forced to look after him until he's an old man, or until he grows displeased with me because I grow whiskers on my lips and my hair thins on my head and my breath smells, and he has my head chopped off because I interrupt him once too often. Then you might have to become his doctor."
"Oh, mistress," was all I could say.
"I don't know, Oelph," she confided in me. "I'm not so sure about making plans. I'll wait and see which way fate takes me. If Providence, or whatever we wish to call it, has me stay, then I'll stay. If it somehow calls me back to Drezen, I'll go." She dipped her head towards me and with what she probably thought was a conspiratorial look said, "Who knows, my destiny might lead me back through Equatorial Cuskery. I might get to see my handsome Sea Company captain again." She winked at me.
"Was the land of Drezen much affected by the rocks from the sky, mistress?" I asked.
She did not seem to heed my tone, which I had worried might seem excessively frosty. "More than here in Haspidus," she said. "But much less than the Inlands of the Empire. One city on a far northern island was washed almost entirely away by a wave, killing ten or more thousand people, and some ships were lost, and of course the crop yields all over were down for a couple of growing seasons; so the farmers moaned, but then the farmers always do. No, we escaped relatively lightly."
"Do you think it was the work of the gods, mistress? There axe those who say that Providence was punishing us for something, or perhaps just punishing the Empire. Others hold that it was the work of the old gods, and that they are coming back. What do you think?"
"I think it could be any of those things, Oelph," the Doctor said thoughtfully. "Though there are some people in Drezen — philosophers — who have a much more bleak explanation, mind you."
"Which is what, mistress?"
"That such things happen for no reason at all."