And now it is near the day’s close. Soon the evening shift will come and replace them. He is pushing what will be his last but one full wagon, marvelling at his own hands and his own wealed back and the long strength of him. He knows he should be growing weaker, as are the men around him, but he is not. It may have something to do with the boy, who returns to the billet every night before dawn with hunks of bread and strangely composed pies, the cement dust which Unes his pockets its gritty salt, but it is food nevertheless, wonderful food, cold and concentrated, and they chew on it, him and the old man, chew on it and gulp it down, great lumps lodging in their throats, falling asleep to the sound of it churning their stomachs, their juices working like drains. Their farts are becoming different from those of the other men, smelling of meat and vegetables and the laws of decent digestion, rather than those occasioned by sawdust and dysentery. They wake and lift their blankets and waft the meaty fumes towards their nostrils. It is a pleasure shared.
As he nears the tunnel entrance van Dielen hears commotion. Up by the black rubber doors and the great block of light that waits outside stands a group of officers. There is the large fat man who once gave him chocolate, the man who beat him, and another, a handsome man who looks in awe at the great length he has stepped into and the noise he hears bellowing from deep behind its dark and fetid mouth. The man with the chocolate is waving his stick about, pointing towards the very spot on which he stands. Indeed for a second, the two of them, van Dielen in the remnants of his Tootall shirt and Harris tweed trousers, Major Ernst in his black uniform, peer at each other before a couple of fellow workers ease van Dielen aside and start to push his wagon out to the waiting lorries. The wheels grind on the hard concrete floor. Ernst starts shouting in the overseer’s ear. The handsome one walks up and down impatiently. Then the doors swing open and the wagon disappears into the crack of blinding light, and in the flare of darkness that descends, when the doors close once again and the noise ceases and he can see nothing, the conversation comes singing down the tunnel, like voices floating on a summer’s afternoon across a clear and flattened sea. “Looking for a young one,” the fat man says. “Got himself caught up in a murder, the slant-eyed little cunt. Red trousers and a brown coat. You got anyone like that? A woman’s coat, you understand, with…” and he cups his hands in front of his chest, weighing imaginary flesh. They laugh one and all. The overseer nods. He is eager to help. He consults his clipboard. “Ja, ja”
Turning quickly, van Dielen bends into the waiting wagon and starts to push the empty cart back up the slight incline. He keeps his head down. He shuts his eyes. He pushes. He must do this, push this empty load, otherwise he might be stopped, ordered to do something else before he can warn the boy, so he pushes, hands on the wooden frame, feet planted firmly on the floor, feeling the wheels resist the slight clitnb, head down, closing his eyes, pushing the wagon of his dreams. The passageway slopes all the way up to the work face, he knows this and yet only now, as he pushes harder, head down, eyes squeezed close, does he ask himself why. Why should a hospital have an entrance where the corridor slopes upwards? It makes no sense, having to push casualties uphill to an operating theatre or a recovery room. It should be level. He opens his eyes and looks beyond. Yes, it does slope up all the way, not by much, fifty centimetres every ten metres perhaps, but it is enough to ensure that the iron-clad wagon can only move back up to the face after considerable exertion. He bends to his task again, and as the wheels start to piek up speed and the voices gather in crescendo he sees something else which he has never noticed before. There are gutters running alongside the foot of every wall, and not just down this passageway but in the rooms he is passing too, where the wards and the kitchens and the cinema will be built, gutters running round the perimeter of every room, as if at some point they will be hosed down, water running off the walls and over the floor. But wards and operating theatres are not hosed down. There is only one type of building he knows of that needs hosing down. An abattoir. An abattoir? An underground abattoir? Come to think of it, who would want to send convalescing men underground, where it is damp, where there is no light, where the air is stale and unhealthy, but now is not the time to question the improbability of such an elaborate and contradictory construction, hearing the stamp of determined feet behind him, one, two, three sets, the fat man with the chocolate, the overseer who had beaten him and the handsome one, all seeking out the boy, the boy who had fed him biscuits and cake and two portions of smoked sausage pie, and placed an old jacket over his cold shoulders, and as he comes up to the intersection, where he can hear him throwing rocks into the next wagon, he abandons his wagon, giving it one lucky slap, as if thanking it for protecting him this far and starts to trot, no rooms now, no gutters either, just the long corridor and the low light and his rag-wrapped feet silent on the puddled floor, and suddenly there he is, the boy, small and perfect, standing beside the battered truck, his grey-white hair glowing in the guttering dark, throwing chunks of rock, pausing to look up as he sees this figure running towards him, weighing a lump of stone in his hand as an improvised defence, then, seeing who it is, the man with no voice, throws it into the wagon, waiting as van Dielen stumbles up, out of breath now. The Dutchman grabs the coat, breathing once again that strangely perfumed material. This is his son he has in his grasp, he knows it. He wants to hold him, to tell him of their history, of the father he could have been, but there is something growing in his windpipe, an adenoidal growth, a cancerous lump, the remnants of an indigestible sausage pie which prevents him from uttering a word. He must be rid of it! He places his hands upon his throat and works them up and down over the scrawn of his Adam’s apple, the footsteps louder now, up and down, up and down, feeling the pressure coming and himself rising out of the ground, bursting like a geyser, tightening and loosening up at the same time, head thrown back, eyes closed, teeth bared, coming up for air, rising out of the white whip of the waves and the black bosom of the earth.