One afternoon she finally spoke to Ramón.
“I want you to tell me honestly, from the bottom of your heart, what you think of all this.”
“Of all what?”
“Of all that is happening in this country.”
“I don’t know,” Ramón answered, without any hesitation. “I don’t think anything of it. I don’t believe this is my war.”
“Then, let’s go,” she pleaded in a tone that he had never heard. “Please, let’s go back home. Clipperton is paradise compared with the rest of Mexico.”
Ramón did not answer her right away. He took out of his shirt pocket the orders he had recently obtained from the Ministry of the Army and the Navy, and with the edge of the paper he stroked his wife’s nose.
“We must wait, darling,” he said. “This piece of paper was signed by a government no longer in power. Now we have to see if Huerta’s will ratify it.”
Marooned
Clipperton, 1914
THE OCEAN SURROUNDING CLIPPERTON is dense and dark, muddled and entangled with an overload of plankton and other substances. Deep underwater currents determine its movements. When Ramón and Alicia managed to overcome all the red tape and returned from Mexico during the first months of 1914, they experienced such joy to be on their isle again that they devoted their time to finding unexplored nooks. They discovered then that bordering the barrier reef around the isle and under the opaque and seemingly hostile surface of the water, there was a diverse and luminous universe. It was impossible to explore it on the windward side: the enormous waves exploding against the reefs would overpower any human being who dared try. But it was possible on the leeward side, where the sea withdrew, its will already broken after crashing against the rocky shoreline of the isle.
Making use of the old diver’s suit, Ramón and Alicia spied on the secrets of those monumental underwater palisades formed by billions of minute coral polyps piled on top of one another, making the reef come alive, breathe, move, and have a will of its own. They were always amazed at the whimsical, baroque structures that expanded in the shape of tree branches, mushrooms, umbrellas, cauliflowers, deer or moose antlers, deer horns, spines, lace, ruffles, and fringes.
On land, out of the water, the sun incinerated and bleached everything it touched. All except the crabs, with their bright red shells. Everything else was drab and brownish: the rocks, the sand, the sea, the seagulls. It was all a fading, monotonous body, in a camouflage of gray-brown tones with veins in paler shades. Like in an overexposed photo, the elements and the animals fused together, and it was impossible to distinguish one from the other, except for their silhouettes.
Underwater, in contrast, it was a bright, multicolored universe. Against the dark bottom, one could see dots of dazzling light and explosions in phosphorescent violet, methylene blue, neon shades of green, translucent mauve tones, and iridescent golds. The rigid and desiccated textures found out of the water would become softened and spongy, organic, sticky. Through the cracks and rocky galleries, hallucinatory guests would peek out: bunches of little pink fingers, swollen livers sporting electrified manes, transparent tubers with luminous eyes, creatures with flexible arms that delicately reached for their food and took it to their mouths.
Alicia and Ramón let themselves go with the timeless rhythm of the underwater world. Porfirio Díaz, Francisco Madero, Doña Carlota, even their own beings and all their history and everyday lives disappeared like fleeting ghosts when faced with the eternal reality of the squids’ slow-motion dances of love and death; with the rocklike creatures that, waking up apparently hungry, surprised their victims, sardines as well as occupants of sunken galleons; or with the sleepy lumbering of the sea bass, that sweet giant of the deep.
This placid existence of the Arnauds would have continued slipping by, rocked only by the ebb tide, were it not for the dawn of February 28, when they were awakened by a strange, humid, asphyxiating heat, like a damp towel covering one’s nose and mouth.
By five A.M., Ramón kicked off the sheet and began tossing about restlessly in bed.
“The problem with the ocean is that it’s too noisy. All the time, day and night, it’s making noise. I’ve already forgotten what silence is. I miss the silence,” he whispered in the hush of night. He turned this way and that, rearranging his pillow and trying to go back to sleep, without success. “I must have slept on the wrong side of the bed and woken up angry. Even the sound of the waves, always so pleasant, is driving me wild today.”
“You’re not the one who is angry, it’s the ocean. It’s making more noise than ever,” Alicia said, and got up to take a look out the window. In the sky, a sickly dawn was rising without any conviction. Under the scant light, the ocean itself was dead calm for miles. The motionless sea appeared gray, thick, and wrinkled, like the skin of an elephant.
“The strangest thing is how quiet it looks,” commented Alicia in astonishment. “It roars like a wild beast, but it’s still, as if it were dead.”
For a long time they had gotten into the habit of making love at sunrise, almost without consciously wanting to, letting themselves be carried by the energies that awaken independently after a night of rest. That morning they tried, but failed. Something in the air made their bodies feel like rag dolls and paralyzed every impulse before it was born.
“I can’t,” said Ramón, sitting on the bed in order to fill his lungs. “I need air.”
“I can’t either,” she said. “I need air, too.”
The sticky weather made their clothes damp with perspiration even before they finished getting dressed. Ramón went into the hall to look at the barometer. He found it showed an extremely low reading and thought it was out of order. He looked at the time. It was already six twenty in the morning, but the amount of sunlight had not changed since five o’clock, as if the heavy air would not allow the light to filter through.
“What the hell is going on?” he said out loud, but he could not hear his own words because of the loud noise coming from the ocean. Walking on the beach toward the soldiers’ barracks, he met Lieutenant Cardona, who was also looking for him.
“That gringo Schultz thinks that a hurricane is coming,” Cardona announced. “He says we have to get ready, because it’s a strong one.”
“He is not a gringo. He is German.”
“About the same, isn’t it?”
“Anyway, what does this German fellow know about hurricanes?” growled Arnaud in disgust, just when a tenuous line, ruffled and nebulous, appeared on the horizon, scarcely visible above the water. Neither Captain Arnaud nor Lieutenant Cardona could actually see it.
Until noon they battled the weakness and heaviness that had come over them, in order to perform their usual chores. Wherever they went, they saw people lying down, children in silence, women inactive and distracted, soldiers sluggish and ill-tempered. Even the domestic animals were sprawled about carelessly, as if they had plopped down just anywhere.
Arnaud looked around and asked Cardona, “And what about the crabs? And the boobies? They are always all over us, and today I haven’t seen even one since dawn.”
“Heaven knows where they are,” the lieutenant answered.
It was already noon, and yet, no daylight. A timid, unnatural light was filtering through, but it was not enough to dispel the darkness. Meanwhile, the sun seemed to have stopped in its position in the sky, swallowing timeless minutes.
Arnaud went to the supply store and set aside several bags of foodstuffs. In a flat, business-as-usual tone, he gave instructions to Cardona.