“Adron’s Disaster,” said Morrolan.
Aliera nodded. “I was afraid Daddy would cause trouble sooner or later.” 14. Conversations with the Undead
I was glad Teldra and Loiosh were there, because I didn’t want to be alone.
Morrolan, Sethra, and Aliera had left us, continuing their discussions as to who should speak with whom about what—Morrolan to speak with the Empress, Aliera to talk to the Necromancer, and so on, and what they should tell them. Dzur Mountain is a big and lonely place, and some of that feeling rests in each chamber, no matter how small and warm; with little effort I could imagine the nightmares from my childhood creeping out of the corners—especially since this was a place where some of the nightmares were real. And it didn’t help that it required very little imagination to see Jenoine appearing out of nowhere; from all evidence, that was a very real possibility. Teldra and I spoke for a while about the meal, and the furnishings of Dzur Mountain, and other things. I wanted to ask her about Cawti, but I refrained. Instead I said, “Do you think I was out of line, Teldra?”
“My lord?”
“My, uh, blowup at Morrolan and Aliera. Was I out of line?”
“I don’t believe it is my place to say, my lord.”
“Heh. In other words, yes.”
She shook her head. “No, I simply mean it is not my place to say.”
“All right.”
She hesitated, then said, “I think you, being wounded, had the right to request respect for your injury.”
“Mmmmm. But you wish I hadn’t said it?”
“I’m not certain, Vlad. Certainly, everything you said is true. Not exhaustive, but true.”
“Not exhaustive?”
“I mean your insight was well taken. But, there is still much you don’t understand about my Lord Morrolan. For all of his skills and strengths of character, Morrolan is still a young Dragon. He knows this. It is why he wanted me as his seneschal. To know and take steps to counter one’s weaknesses is praiseworthy, in my opinion. Also, rare.”
“I see. Other than having the desire from time to time to slaughter a few hundred helpless peasants, what does it mean to be a young Dragon?”
“It means seeing the world with one’s self as the center.”
“Really? I’ve never considered Morrolan to be self-centered.”
“He isn’t,” said Teldra. “Not as the term is usually meant. There is a subtle but important difference, Vlad, between thinking only of yourself, and seeing the world as it affects you.” She smiled suddenly. “And the difference, by the way, is exactly what courtesy is all about.”
“You’ll have to explain that to me.”
“Do I, Vlad? I somehow doubt that.”
“Oh?”
“Oh. But, very well. Morrolan is generous, and self-sacrificing, and always glad to be of help to a friend, but sometimes he sees things first from how they affect him. It means he will sometimes go into a situation wondering what he should do, rather than wondering what needs to be done.”
“That’s pretty subtle, Teldra.”
“Not as subtle as you might think. Or, rather, it is a case where subtleties can become very large. Sometimes, for example, you step into a situation where the thing that needs to be done is nothing at all; someone looking at it from his own perspective is unlikely to realize this.”
I made a noncommittal sound, trying to work it all out.
“I know of one case late in the Interregnum – because Lord Morrolan told of it himself—where he was a division commander under Sethra. He was, he says, an effective commander, but he had the bad habit, when given an order, of sending back suggestions to Sethra about what she should do with the rest of the army to support him, not quite able to realize that she might have thought of these things, and that it was she who had the best view of the entire picture, and was placed to make those decisions. The result was a small increase in friction among the staff, and a series of delays in carrying out her orders. His intentions were good, but he was seeing everything from his own perspective.”
“Hmmm,” I said. “Okay, I see your point. And, yeah, Morrolan is like that, sometimes. So is Aliera, for that matter.”
“Yes, she is also a young Dragon.”
“Which, of course, is part of why they keep knocking heads, notwithstanding my juvenile outburst earlier.”
“Of course.”
I shrugged. “Well, okay, I’m glad we settled that. What are young Issola like?”
Teldra flashed me a smile. “Obsequious to the point of irritating, or else timid to the point of invisibility. What about young Easterners?”
“Brash, cocky, and convinced we can beat anything that walks, flies, or swims, and that we know all the answers to everything.”
“Rather like Dzur, then.”
“I guess. I’m generalizing from one example, here, but everyone generalizes from one example. At least, I do.”
That earned an actual chuckle; I felt very proud.
I added, “Of course, by Dragaeran standards, all Easterners are young Easterners.”
“Yes. Which is only one of the reasons Easterners are treated the way they are by humans.”
“Morrolan is an exception; he deserves credit for that. As are you, by the way.”
“Thank you,” said Teldra. “In my case, I can’t help it, it’s how I was raised.” She smiled.
There were footsteps in the hall, and I knew it was Sethra before she appeared, either because I recognized her footsteps, or because of some subtle psychic awareness of her that I was developing. She nodded to us and said, “Have you two solved all of our questions of grand strategy for us?”
“No,” I said, “but we’ve solved a great deal of the mystery of the mysterious Morrolan.”
“I’m impressed,” said Sethra, sitting down in an oversized chair to my left. “That’s much more difficult.” It seemed to me, watching her sit, that she was tired. I guess she’d been busy enough while we were away.
I said, “You reached the Necromancer?”
Sethra nodded. “She’ll be along directly.”
I tried to say, “Good,” but couldn’t force the word past my lips, so I settled for the old brusque nod. Sethra glanced at my arm and said, “Any change?”
“About five or six minutes ago it twitched a little. Hardly anything; I was talking to Teldra and barely noticed it.”
“Very well,” she said. “That’s probably a good sign. The muscles are coming back to life, which means, among other things, that they aren’t entirely dead.”
“You thought they might be?”
“It was a possibility.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“What good would it have done you?”
“It would have given me a good excuse to have a hissy-cow right when I badly wanted to have one.”
“A hissy-cow?”
“Uh ...”
“No, no, Vlad. Don’t explain.” She chuckled. “A hissy-cow I think I like that,”
I had gotten a chuckle out of Teldra and Sethra within the same hour, and that after making Teldra and Aliera blush, and before that I’d managed to shock the Demon Goddess. My life was now complete. I decided this was a good time to quit, so I leaned back and closed my eyes, only to be interrupted by the sound of more footsteps. I didn’t want to open my eyes, for fear that the Necromancer would be there, so I did and she was.
You must understand, it isn’t that I’m afraid of her. I’ve spoken with her, and, if you can get past the fact that she’s undead, and that her mind is perfectly comfortable living in places that would drive me mad, and that for her the distinction between the living and the dead is just a matter of which way she’s facing, she’s a perfectly decent sort, as Dragaerans go. It’s just that her showing up just then meant that things were liable to start moving, and I was very happy sitting on a couch in Dzur Mountain, feeling relatively at peace with the world, and luxuriating in the notion that no one, just at that moment, would be able to kill me.