The next day my mother starts packing.
I look around for Samuel and catch sight of him half hidden behind the press where he is padding about with a broom, sweeping the ashes off the floor. As soon as the foreman’s through the door and gone, he drops the broom and goes into the soundproof room.
Trond comes whistling in where the foreman went out, he has a copy of Melody Maker tucked under his arm. He looks at me and grins.
‘Tell me something, Sletten,’ he says in a bossy voice. ‘Are you sure the printing trade is right for you? Have you considered the Oslo Fire Brigade? Hell, can’t I go to the shithouse for two minutes without you razing the whole place?’ I don’t answer. In a couple of months I might; for now, I just shrug.
‘Samuel!’ Trond shouts. ‘Come on, we have to thread the paper.’ To me he says, ‘The printers are in the storeroom playing poker, so we’ll have to do without them.’
We start the machine on slow, make a new cut in the paper and start threading it through the press, one man each side, round hundreds of cylinders and rollers. It takes ages, but everything runs smoothly, we could have done it with our eyes closed. When we’ve finished, we wash down the rubber blankets and have a smoke. We’re not allowed to start up without the printers, so we just have to wait for Goliath and Elk to show up. But they don’t, and Trond checks his watch.
‘Lunchtime,’ he says.
To get to the cloakroom, we have to go through the next concourse. I open the large door and walk straight into a wall of sound. The roar bounces off the walls and the compressed air valves make smacking sounds as the pressure is released, there is a loud whistle, the machines are coming in to land, everything moves, there is someone running, and the machines stop and go silent. A man I cannot see lets out a naked laugh, another man throws his lunch pack like a baseball, it fizzes in an arc through the air, and I can’t resist, I jump and catch it in mid-flight and toss it into the nearest waste bin.
I hear ‘Fuck you,’ and there is a tingle in my spine, but I just put my hands up and move on without looking back.
In the canteen we help ourselves to coffee from the counter, find a table by the wall, and Trond pulls a pack of cards from his pocket and starts to shuffle. We are the first ones here, it’s perfectly still, and we hear the clatter from the kitchen and the canteen lady humming. Trond deals with practised fingers, five cards each, and the door opens and all the others come streaming in wearing blue, ink-stained work clothes, and their hands are flushed from the white spirit and strong soap. They are shouting and laughing about something that has happened, but we don’t know what that is, and we don’t care. But when everyone has sat down, Jonny comes bursting in, five hours late today with his hair standing on end, and his face as red as his hands. He isn’t close enough for me to smell him, but I know he reeks of alcohol. He pours himself a large mug of coffee and chuckles at something only he knows about. On his way from the counter, he stops at the window facing the car park and looks out.
‘I’ll be damned,’ he says. ‘Did I come in the car today?’
Everyone cracks up laughing, they slap their thighs and roar with laughter, but I can see from Jonny’s face that he is not joking, he is staring in disbelief at the yellow Opel Kadett parked crosswise out there. His eyes are rimmed with white as he runs the gauntlet through the canteen and sits down at a table by himself. He lowers his head, and I pick up my cards, but I don’t look at them, I look at Jonny and think back to the first time I saw him, charging from the gallery of Number Three with a test print in his hand. Everything was wrong, no one was doing their job, and he was so furious the blue veins on his forehead stood out, and on his back there were big patches of sweat, and he scurried in between the machinery and started to dance along the ink regulators, twisting them like a lunatic, and then he was out again and off to the paper-folder for another test. Kneeling down, with a magnifying glass in his hand, pirouetting up, waving the print in the air he smacked it down on the table and said:
‘This is how it should look, this is pro work, damnit!’ And I guess he’s right, that’s what pro work looks like, but now he is empty, and I know he is finished. He’ll get the boot for certain, he’ll keep drinking until he ends up under the bridges along the Aker river or standing at the soup kitchen with his hand stretched out, his gaze turned in, saying:
‘Got any change, pal?’ And then he’ll die thirty years before his time.
There is a downward pull in the space around him, like at the edge of a cliff where half of you wants to jump and the rest of you holds back, and it makes me furious, makes me want to lash out. I can’t concentrate, and I chuck my cards on the table.
‘What’s up with you?’ Trond asks, impatient. ‘Why can’t you sit still like other people do?’ But I cannot and I get up, and there he is, the guy with the lunch pack. He started working here a month before me and is a veteran and doesn’t like me taking liberties.
‘Leaving, are you, tough guy?’ he says. I feel the heat rising. There’s no avoiding this, and he could not have chosen a better time. I round the table and face him and say:
‘No, I was going to come and see if you had any food left, I’m so goddamn hungry today.’ I haven’t said anything so stupid for years, but now he is forced to do something and shoves me hard in the chest. I would have toppled over without the table behind me. It’s a long time since I’ve been in a situation like this, but I made up my mind years ago that, if I ever were, I would be ready, and I lash out at once. The pain that shoots up my arm is so fierce that the first thing I think of is how much it must have hurt him, because I hit him right under the eye. He howls and crashes backwards, and I hold my arm, it hurts so much I could scream. I take two deep breaths, and then there is a racket in the canteen, and someone grabs me from behind and lifts me off my feet. I kick out and the someone hisses in my ear:
‘You fucking idiot, you’re not even through your probation period yet!’ It’s Goliath: he carries me through the canteen to the door and lobs me into the corridor without drawing an extra breath, I could have been his teddy bear, if he ever had such a thing. My knee smashes against the opposite wall. There is something expanding in my chest like a balloon, it’s swelling and pushing from the inside, it makes me dizzy, and I jump up and hurl myself at him and throw a left hook into his stomach. It’s a wonderful feeling, I have felt like doing it for weeks. A strange noise comes from his mouth, but then I feel a smack above my ear, and I am on the floor. There is a rushing sound and then a howl in my ear, and I can barely hear what he says:
‘If I were you, I would clear off and get down behind the machine until this blows over. You and I can settle up some other time. You goddamn squirt!’ He slams the door, and the bang bounces through my skull, and the corridor goes quiet. The only noise is in my ear. I limp to the stairs. My knee hurts, and I have to take the steps sideways, it is three floors down to the print shop, and I try not to think. I haven’t really seen this staircase before. It is painted yellow, and I cling to that. But of course, that’s not a whole lot.
On the ground floor I meet Maggi. She comes from the lift with her trolley on her way back from the shop. She stops.
‘Here’s your tobacco,’ she says. ‘That’s twenty-five kroner.’
‘What tobacco?’
‘You ordered a pack of tobacco. Have you gone senile?’
‘I’m not senile. It’s my head. It hurts.’ I try to put my hand in my pocket for money, but my arm is paralysed.