But Hyacinth didn’t move. Gareth turned to look at her, and she seemed frozen into place. She looked at him with questioning eyes, and he knew she couldn’t believe that he’d held silent.
Gareth looked at her, then he looked at Lord St. Clair, and then he looked within himself. And he realized that while his never-ending war with the baron might not matter, the truth did. Not because it had the power to wound, just because it was the truth, and it had to be told.
It was the secret that had defined both of their lives for so long. And it was time that they were both set free.
“I have to tell you something,” Gareth said, looking the baron in the eye. It wasn’t easy, being this direct. He had no experience speaking to this man without malice. He felt strange, stripped bare.
Lord St. Clair said nothing, but his expression changed slightly, became more watchful.
“I am in possession of Grandmother St. Clair’s diary,” Gareth said. At the baron’s startled expression, he added, “Caroline found it among George’s effects with a note instructing her to give it to me.”
“He did not know that you are not her grandson,” the baron said sharply.
Gareth opened his mouth to retort, “But I was,” but he managed to bite off the comment. He would do this right. He had to do this right. Hyacinth was at his side, and suddenly his angry ways seemed callow, immature. He didn’t want her to see him like that. He didn’t want to be like that.
“Miss Bridgerton has some knowledge of Italian,” Gareth continued, keeping his voice even. “She has assisted me in its translation.”
The baron looked at Hyacinth, his piercing eyes studying her for a moment before turning back to Gareth.
“Isabella knew who my father was,” Gareth said softly. “It was Uncle Edward.”
The baron said nothing, not a word. Except for the slight parting of his lips, he was so still that Gareth wondered if he was even breathing.
Had he known? Had he suspected?
As Gareth and Hyacinth stood in silence, the baron turned and looked down the street, his eyes settling on some far-off point. When he turned back, he was as white as a sheet.
He cleared his throat and nodded. Just once, as an acknowledgment. “You should marry that girl,” he said, motioning with his head toward Hyacinth. “The Lord knows you’re going to need her dowry.”
And then he walked up the rest of the steps, let himself into his home, and shut the door.
“That’s all?” Hyacinth said, after a moment of just standing there with her mouth agape. “That’s all he’s going to say?”
Gareth felt himself begin to shake. It was laughter, he realized, almost as an aside. He was laughing.
“He can’t do that,” Hyacinth protested, her eyes flashing with indignation. “You just revealed the biggest secret of both of your lives, and all he does is-are you laughing?”
Gareth shook his head, even though it was clear that he was.
“What’s so funny?” Hyacinth asked suspiciously.
And her expression was so…her. It made him laugh even harder.
“What’s so funny?” she asked again, except this time she looked as if she might smile, too. “Gareth,” she persisted, tugging on his sleeve. “Tell me.”
He shrugged helplessly. “I’m happy,” he said, and he realized it was true. He’d enjoyed himself in his life, and he’d certainly had many happy moments, but it had been so long since he’d felt this-happiness, complete and whole. He’d almost forgotten the sensation.
She placed her hand abruptly on his brow. “Are you feverish?” she muttered.
“I’m fine.” He pulled her into his arms. “I’m better than fine.”
“Gareth!” she gasped, ducking away as he swooped down for a kiss. “Are you mad? We’re in the middle of Dover Street, and it’s-”
He cut her off with a kiss.
“It’s the middle of the night,” she spluttered.
He grinned devilishly. “But I’m going to marry you next week, remember?”
“Yes, but-”
“Speaking of which,” he murmured.
Hyacinth’s mouth fell open as he dropped down to one knee. “What are you doing?” she squeaked, frantically looking this way and that. Lord St. Clair was surely peeking out at them, and heaven only knew who else was, too. “Someone will see,” she whispered.
He seemed unconcerned. “People will say we’re in love.”
“I-” Good heavens, but how did a woman argue against that?
“Hyacinth Bridgerton,” he said, taking her hand in his, “will you marry me?”
She blinked in confusion. “I already said I would.”
“Yes, but as you said, I did not ask you for the right reasons. They were mostly the right reasons, but not all.”
“I-I-” She was stumbling on the words, choking on the emotion.
He was staring up at her, his eyes glowing clear and blue in the dim light of the streetlamps. “I am asking you to marry me because I love you,” he said, “because I cannot imagine living my life without you. I want to see your face in the morning, and then at night, and a hundred times in between. I want to grow old with you, I want to laugh with you, and I want to sigh to my friends about how managing you are, all the while secretly knowing I am the luckiest man in town.”
“What?” she demanded.
He shrugged. “A man’s got to keep up appearances. I’ll be universally detested if everyone realizes how perfect you are.”
“Oh.” Again, how could a woman argue with that?
And then his eyes grew serious. “I want you to be my family. I want you to be my wife.”
She stared down at him. He was gazing at her with such obvious love and devotion, she hardly knew what to do. It seemed to surround her, embrace her, and she knew that this was poetry, this was music.
This was love.
He smiled up at her, and all she could do was smile back, dimly aware that her cheeks were growing wet.
“Hyacinth,” he said. “Hyacinth.”
And she nodded. Or at least she thought she did.
He squeezed her hands as he rose to his feet. “I never thought I’d have to say this to you, of all people, but for God’s sake, say something, woman!”
“Yes,” she said. And she threw herself into his arms. “Yes!”
Epilogue
A few moments to bring us up to date…
Four days after the end of our tale, Gareth called upon Lord Wrotham, only to find that the earl in no way felt the betrothal was binding, especially after he related Lady Bridgerton’s promise to take one of the younger Wrotham daughters under her wing the following season.
Four days after that, Gareth was informed by Lady Bridgerton, in no uncertain manner, that her youngest child would not be married in haste, and he was forced to wait two months before wedding Hyacinth in an elaborate yet tasteful ceremony at St. George’s, in London.
Eleven months after that, Hyacinth gave birth to a healthy baby boy, christened George.
Two years after that, they were blessed with a daughter, christened Isabella.
Four years after that, Lord St. Clair was thrown from his horse during a fox hunt and instantly killed. Gareth assumed the title, and he and Hyacinth moved to their new town residence at Clair House.
That was six years ago. She has been looking for the jewels ever since…
“Haven’t you already searched this room?”
Hyacinth looked up from her position on the floor of the baroness’s washroom. Gareth was standing in the doorway, gazing down at her with an indulgent expression.