"I can't help it. You make everything feel new to me, like it's the first time I'm seeing it, too," he said.
The way he looked at me across the table, those baby blues fixed so intensely on my face, made me blush and look down at my hands, which I had clasped in my lap over the forgotten and glossy cover of InStyle.
I could sense something from him, some desire to say something, to express something, that he struggled with. What sort of thing did a man like Liam have to struggle with, especially involving me?
"Stop," I said, my cheeks so hot that if they started smoking I wouldn't have been surprised.
"You know that I won't," he said, "You should have learned then when I chased you to the airport."
"So we're going to the Uffizi?" I said, trying to change the subject. The Uffizi Gallery was the foremost museum of art in all of Italy. Perhaps all of Europe.
"That's not what I want to talk about right now," Liam said.
I'd begun shaking a little. I clenched my hands into sweaty fists, crinkling the cover of the magazine. Had our train car heated up?
"Work, then?" I said, "How's your business stuff going? That merger or whatever go through?"
"Emma, look at me. Please, look at me."
I swallowed against a lump in my throat. It wasn't the train car that felt hot. It was me. I burned. It took every last ounce of willpower I had to drag my eyes away from the smiling model on the cover of the magazine to Liam.
He'd leaned his elbows on the table. His eyes kept flicking between my eyes, searching. He licked his lips as though nervous. My trembling intensified, seeing him like that.
"Yeah?" I said, my voice small.
"My business trip has been over for the last week," he said.
"Then why are you still here? Don't you have a huge international corporation to run?" I knew the answer to my question. I just wasn't sure I could accept it.
"Business can wait."
"Said no successful CEO ever," I broke in. I tried to smile, but my lips refused to stop quivering.
"You're the reason I'm still in Rome. Well," he said, glancing at the blurred landscape on the other side of the glass, "Italy, at least."
"Seems like a silly reason to me."
He sighed. "I've known it for a while now. Maybe even that first night we met. The fundraiser. I've just been trying to find the right place, the right way to say it. I thought maybe in Florence, surrounded by all the art you love so much. But I can't wait. I can't hold it in any longer."
"Are you sure? How can you be sure?" I said, my voice very small, so quiet I thought even the low thrum of the train might cover it up.
"I've fallen in love with you, Emma."
My throat started closing up. I couldn't breathe. My lungs started burning with the rest of me.
My heart did its best to beat its way through my ribs. Alternating waves of hot and cold washed over me. This incredible joy started pulsing through me, along with an unbearable fear tinted with guilt.
"You can't be," I said.
"I am, though. I love you," he returned without hesitation.
It was then I noticed the little tissue dispenser on my seat. They'd thought of everything, it seemed. I pulled one out. Then another, for good measure. I dabbed at my eyes.
"Are you sure?" I said. I didn't feel worthy of his love, like I'd tricked him into believing it. Like it was some magical charm that would fade as soon as the potion wore off.
I hadn't let anyone love me for a long time. I didn't think I was worthy of such powerful emotion. Who was I to make someone feel that strongly? No one, that was who.
"As sure as a person can be about anything in this crazy, uncertain world and life."
He stood up and shimmied his way around the table, then sat in the aisle chair beside me. He grabbed my hand and held it tightly. Even though it felt like I burned, he was still hotter.
"You make me see things in a whole new light. It feels like my stomach does a somersault every time you smile. I can't get you out of my head, and I never want you to leave. Tell me you feel the same way. Tell me you feel something. Just tell me before I say something stupid and mess this whole thing up.
"I'm trying to put how I feel into words, but there aren't any words that truly describe how you make me feel, that will let me tell you what I want you to know."
He waited, his eyes searching. The tension in him kept building. I could feel it in the way his fingers squeezed mine, in the way his whole hand and the body attached to it started trembling.
I searched myself and knew it was true. "I..."
Liam's shoulders rose and fell in a great, shuddering sigh. He thought I was going to say no. He thought I was about to tell him that he'd let himself open up to me for nothing.
I couldn't let that happen. I squeezed his hand hard, forced my eyes to his. "I do, too."
"Yeah?" he said, the tension started visibly draining from him.
I smiled, even with the tears building up in the corners of my eyes. "I do. I'm in love with you!"
The tension had dissipated enough that he could return my smile. "You make it sound like that surprises you."
"It does, though," I said, "I never thought I'd feel this way about another person. Except I can't help it with you. Does that make sense? I feel like I'm babbling."
"It makes perfect sense," he replied. Then he slipped his hands from mine and cupped my face. He drew me forward and kissed me, not caring about how the few tears I couldn't stop escaping from my eyes wet his cheeks, too.
"You're really staying in Italy just for me?" I said.
"Not 'just' for you. Only for you. There's a difference, don't you see?" He said, his thumbs sweeping beneath my eyes, collecting any more tears that tried tumbling their way to freedom.
Every other part of my life shrank, became less important. Trivial, even.
I was just a girl who loved a boy. A boy who, incredibly, loved me back even though he knew about my faults and my baggage. But wasn't that one of the definitions of love, someone who not only didn't care that you had baggage, but who also helped you to shoulder it?
I laughed, unable to express my relief, my shock and incredulity and joy in any other way. It was catching, it seemed, because Liam laughed, too.
We laughed so much that the people sat in the group of chairs on the other side of the aisle kept glancing our way.
Liam didn't move back to his chair across from me, apparently unwilling to let go of my hand.
And then I looked up through the window. "Hey, is that it?"
A city astride a river started speeding towards us, the buildings growing in scale with each breath I took. I recognized the enormous home of the ancient and extinct Medici family and knew.
"Welcome to Florence," Liam said.
We'd arrived in the historic city, but Liam and I had arrived at a destination I'd never let myself dream of reaching.
Chapter 19
Sometimes I wonder just how magical Florence really was. When we stepped off the train and Liam led me to a waiting cab, I wondered if it wasn't a dream. A fantasy come to life.
The energy of life suffused every fiber of me. I exuded it from every pore. The old buildings and the people who lived in them seemed imbued with that same energy, too. Had it been there all along? Was it everywhere?
Was it something you could only see when new love, its fire so hot and white you thought it could never dim, had you in its clutches?