Rackham squeezed through the docking adapter and made a right turn, heading down into Mir’s core habitat. It was dark except for a few glowing LEDs, a shaft of earthlight coming in through one window, and one of sunlight coming in through the other. Rackham found the light switch and turned it on. The interior lit up, revealing beige cylindrical walls. Looking down the module’s thirteen-meter length, he could see the main control console, with two strap-in chairs in front of it, storage lockers, the exercise bicycle, the dining table, the closet-like sleeping compartments, and, at the far end, the round door leading into Kvant-1, where Yuri’s body was supposedly floating.
He pushed off the wall and headed down the chamber. It widened out near the eating table. He noticed that the ceiling there had writing on it. Rackham looked at the cameras, one fore, one aft, both covered over with spacesuit gloves, and realized that even if they were uncovered, that part of the ceiling was perpetually out of their view. Each person who had visited the station had apparently written his or her name there in bold Magic Marker strokes: Romanenko, Leveykin, Viktorenko, Krikalev, dozens more. Foreign astronauts names’ appeared, too, in Chinese characters, and Arabic, and English.
But Yuri Vereshchagin’s name was nowhere to be seen. Perhaps the custom was to sign off just before leaving the station. Rackham easily found the Magic Marker, held in place on the bulkhead with Velcro. His Cyrillic wasn’t very good—he had to carefully copy certain letters from the samples already on the walls—but he soon had Vereshchagin’s name printed neatly across the ceiling.
Rackham thought about writing his own name, too. He touched the marker to the curving metal, but stopped, pulling the pen back, leaving only a black dot where it had made contact. Vereshchagin’s name should be here—a reminder that he had existed. Rackham remembered all the old photographs that came to light after the fall of the Soviet Union: the original versions, before those who had fallen out of favor had been airbrushed out. Surely no cosmonaut would ever remove Vereshchagin’s name, but there was no need to remind those who might come later that an American had stopped by to bring his body home.
The dried spheres of blood were more numerous in here. They bounced off Rackham’s faceplate with little pinging sounds as he continued down the core module through the circular hatch into Kvant-1.
Yuri’s body was indeed there, floating in a semi-fetal position. His skin was as white as candle wax, bled dry. He’d obviously rotated slowly as his opened wrist had emptied out—there was a ring of dark brown blood stains all around the circumference of the science module. Many pieces of equipment also had blood splatters on them where drops had impacted before they’d desiccated. Rackham could taste his lunch at the back of his throat. He desperately fought it down.
And yet he couldn’t take his eyes off Yuri. A corpse, a body without a soul in it. It was mesmerizing, terrifying, revolting. The very face of death.
He’d met Yuri once, in passing, years ago at an IAU conference in Montreal. Rackham had never known anyone before who had committed suicide. How could Yuri have killed himself? Sure, his country was in ruins. But billions of—of rubles—had been spent building this station and getting him up here. Didn’t he understand how special that made him? How, quite literally, he was above it all?
As he drifted closer, Rackham saw that Yuri’s eyes were open. The pupils were dilated to their maximum extent, and a pale gray film had spread over the orbs. Rackham thought that the decent thing to do would be to reach over and close the eyes. His gloves had textured rubber fingertips, to allow as much feedback as possible without compromising his suit’s thermal insulation, but even if he could work up the nerve, he didn’t trust them for something as delicate as moving eyelids.
His breathing was growing calmer. He was facing death— facing it directly. He regretted now not having seen his mother one last time, and—
There was something here. Something else, inside Kvant-1 with him. He grabbed hold of a projection from the bulkhead and wheeled around. He couldn’t see it. Couldn’t hear any sound conducted through the helmet of his suit. But he felt its presence, knew it was there.
There was no way to get out; Kvant-1’s rear docking port was blocked by the Progress ferry, and the exit to the core module was blocked by the invisible presence.
Get a grip on yourself, Rackham thought. There’s nothing here. But there was. He could feel it. “What do you want?” he said, a quaver in his tones.
“Say again, Paul.” McGovern’s voice, over the headset.
Rackham reached down, switched his suit radio from VOX to OFF. “What do you want?” he said again.
There was no answer. He waved his arms, batting around hundreds of dried drops of blood. They flew all over the cabin— except for an area, up ahead, the size of a man. In that area, they deflected before reaching the walls. Something was there—something unseen. Paul’s stomach contracted. He felt panic about to overtake him, when—
A hand on his shoulder, barely detectable through the bulky suit.
His heart jumped, and he swung around. He’d been floating backwards, moving away from the unseen presence, and had bumped into the corpse. He stopped dead—revolted by the prospect of touching the body again, terrified of moving in the other direction toward whatever was up ahead.
But he had to get out—somebody else could come back for Yuri. He’d find some way to explain it all later, but for now he had to escape. He grabbed hold of a handle on the wall and pushed off the bulkhead, trying to fly past the presence up ahead. He made it through into the core module. But something cold as space reached out and stopped him directly in front of the small window that looked down on the planet.
Look below, said a voice in Rackham’s head. What do you see?
He looked outside, saw the planet of his birth. “Africa.”
Millions of children starving to death.
Rackham moved his head left and right. “Not my fault.”
The view changed, faster than any orbital mechanics would allow. Look below, said the voice again. What do you see?
“China.”
A billion people living without freedom.
“Nothing I can do.”
Again, the world spun. Look below.
“The west coast of America. There’s San Francisco.”
The plague is everywhere, but nowhere is it worse than there.
“Someday they’ll find a cure.”
What else do you see?
“Los Angeles.”
The inner city. Slums. Poverty. They haven’t abandoned hope, those who live there… Hope has abandoned them.
“They can get out. They just need help.”
Whose help? Where will the money come from?
“I don’t know.”
Don’t you? Look below.
“No.”
Look. Tour eyes have been closed too long. Open them. What do you see?
“Russia. Ah, now—Russia! Free! We defeated the Evil Empire. We defeated the Communist menace.”
The people are starving.
“But they’re free.”
They have nothing to eat. Twice now they’ve taken food destined for this station.
“I read about that. Terrible, unthinkable. Like committing murder.”
To take food from the mouths of the hungry. It is like committing murder, isn’t it?
“Yes. No. No, wait—that’s not what I meant.”