In places where lights were dim there was a change. It seemed to him that a certain quality either came into or departed the world. It was in .the nature of an underlying sense of interconnectedness, which was not present in day's full glare. With it came small feelings and some impressions. It was as if, despite his deafness to them, the shadows still attempted to address him. It was in this way that he knew, upon entering the dark bar, that that which had been seeking him was now drawing near.
The heat of perpetual day dropped away as he moved to the rear of The Dugout. Touched here and there with auburn highlights, he saw her dark hair in the rosy glow of candle-light through glass. Threading his way among tables, he felt relaxed for the first time since he had left his class.
He slid into the booth across from her and smiled.
"Hi, Clare."
She stared, her dark eyes widening.
"John! You always do that," she said. "Suddenly you're just-there."
He continued to smile, studying her slightly heavy features, pinch marks where her glasses had been, a small puffiness beneath her eyes, some stray strands of hair reaching for her brow.
"Like a salesman," he said. "Here comes the waiter."
"Beer."
"Beer."
They both sighed, leaned back, and stared at one another.
Finally, she laughed.
"What a year!" she announced. "Am I glad this semester's over!"
He nodded.
"Largest graduating class yet."
"And the overdue books we'll never see..."
"Talk to someone in the front office," he said. "Give them a list of names-"
"The graduates will ignore billings."
"Someday they'll want transcripts. When they ask, hit them with notices that they won't be sent until they pay their fines."
She leaned forward.
"That's a good idea!"
"Of course. They'll cough up if it means a job to them."
"You missed your calling when you went into anthropology. You should have been an administrator."
"I was where I wanted to be."
"Why do you speak in the past tense?" she asked.
"I don't know."
"What's happened?"
"Nothing, really."
But the feeling was there. It was near.
"Your contract," she said. "Was there some sort of trouble?"
"No," he said. "No trouble."
The drinks arrived. He raised his and sipped it. Beneath the table, his leg brushed against hers as he crossed them. She did not move away; but then, she never did. From me or anyone else, thought Jack. A good lay, but too eager to get married. She's been impatient with me all semester. Any day now...
He dismissed the thoughts. He might have married her had he met her sooner, for he had no qualms about leaving a wife behind when he returned to where he must. But he had just met her this semester, and things were close to completion.
"What of the sabbatical you've been mentioning?" she asked. "Any decision on that yet?"
"I don't know. It depends on some research I'm doing right now."
"How far along is it?"
"I'll know after I've used some computer time I have coming."
"Soon?"
He glanced at his wristwatch and nodded.
"That soon?" she said. "If the indications are favorable...?"
He lit a cigarette.
"Then it could be this coming semester," he said.
"But you said that your contract was-"
"-in good order," he said. "But I didn't sign it. Not yet."
"You once told me you thought Quilian doesn't like you."
"He doesn't. He's old-fashioned. He thinks I spend too much time with computers and not enough in libraries."
She smiled.
"So do I."
"At any rate, I'm too popular a lecturer not to be offered a renewal."
"Then why didn't you sign it? Are you asking for more money?"
"No," he said. "But if I do ask for a sabbatical and he refuses, it will be fun to tell him to shove his contract. Not that I wouldn't sign one and walk out, if it would benefit my-research. But I would enjoy telling Doc Quilian where to put his offer."
She sipped her beer.
"Then you must be near to something important."
He shrugged.
"How did your seminar wind up?" he asked.
She laughed.
"You certainly stick in Professor Weather-ton's craw. He devoted most of the lecture to dismembering your Darkside Customs and Philosophies course."
"We disagree on many points, but he's never been darkside."
"He intimated that you haven't either. He agrees that it is a feudal society, and that some of its Lords may actually believe they possess direct control over everything in their realms. He dismisses the whole notion of their being loosely united in a Compact, based on a premise that the sky will fall if they do not maintain some sort of Shield by means of cooperating in magical endeavors."
"Then what keeps everything on that side of the world alive?"
"Somebody asked that question, and he said it was a problem for physical scientists, not social theorists. His personal opinion, though, was that it involved some sort of high altitude bleed-off from our force screens."
He snorted.
"I'd like to take him on a field trip sometime. His buddy Quilian, too."
"I know you've been darkside," she said. "In fact, I think your connection with it is even stronger than you say."
"What do you mean?"
"If you could see yourself now, you would know. It took me a long while to realize what it was, but when I noticed what gave you a strange appearance in places like this, it seemed obvious-it's your eyes. They are more light sensitive than any eyes I have ever seen before. As soon as you get out of the light and into a place like this, your pupils become enormous. There is only a faint line of color around them. And I noticed that the sunglasses you wear most of the time are far darker than ordinary ones."
"I do have an eye condition. They are quite weak, and bright lights irritate them."
"Yes, that's what I said."
He returned her smile.
He crushed out his cigarette, and as though this were a signal, a soft, sickening music slithered from out of a speaker set high on the wall above the bar. He took another drink of beer.
"I suppose Weatherton got in a few shots at the resurrection of bodies, too?"
"Yes."
And if I die here? he wondered. What will become of me? Will I be denied Glyve and return?
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"What do you mean?"
"Your nostrils flared. Your brows contracted."
"You study features too much. It's that awful music."
"I like looking at you," she said. "But let's finish and go to my place. I'll play you something different. There is a thing I want to show you and ask you about, too."