“Simon,” I said.
He stopped and turned to look at me.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“Think nothing of it, sir.”
“I’m feeling pretty sorry for myself.”
“I believe you have every right to be distressed.”
“Maybe. But it isn’t healthy if it drags on too long.”
“A wise observation, sir.”
I sat up a little bit, then took the cup off the tray. “I’ve been kind of hiding out, haven’t I?”
“We have done our best to respect your privacy.”
“And I appreciate that. But it’s been a week. I’m back. I need to act like I’m back.”
“As you say, sir.”
“How have you guys been getting along?”
“Mr. Fujimoto and I have been able to manage the household’s affairs as well as one might expect under the circumstances. We did, however, lose Maria.”
Maria had been Haley’s cook and maid over at the mansion for many years.
“What happened?”
“The paparazzi were much more aggressive than usual. She learned they had been interviewing her mother. I believe her mother was quite distraught at the intrusive nature of their questions and their tactics, so Maria decided it would be best for her family if she gave her notice.”
“That’s a shame. Have you replaced her yet?”
“No, sir. One did wonder if that would be necessary.”
I took a sip of the coffee. It was excellent, of course. “What have you guys been up to all this time?”
Simon pursed his lips as if in thought. “Let me see… Mr. Fujimoto laid in a new bed of impatiens at the south end of the front lawn. He also erected a small arbor above the bench where Miss Lane often sat to observe the harbor. I believe he planted violet bougainvillea there, which was her favorite color as you may recall. He stated his belief that it should frame the bench quite pleasantly in future years. I myself noticed a bit of rust on the second-floor railings, so I took the liberty of engaging painters.
“One of the refrigerators in the pantry started making a strange humming noise, which required replacement of a motor. I did that myself. We took delivery of a billiard table, which Miss Lane had ordered for the sunroom. Its placement there required removal of a sofa and four occasional chairs, which I disposed of with the Salvation Army.” He paused and looked at me. “I hope that decision was acceptable. One did wonder if they should be sold; however, in the end I decided Miss Lane would have preferred that they go toward a benevolent purpose.”
“You must have been bored stiff.”
“It has been a rather dreary seven months in her absence. And in yours, if I may say so, sir.”
“Except for the paparazzi.”
“Yes, sir. They were quite distressing in the early weeks, but more recently they seem to have lost interest.”
“Well, at least there’s that.”
Through the window I saw Teru Fujimoto walking underneath the sycamores. He wore his usual coolie hat, green trousers, and green shirt, with the sleeves rolled up to reveal the ropy muscles in his forearms. He held a plastic tray by the handle. In the tray were little sprigs of something leafy. In his other hand was a garden trowel.
Watching him I said, “Is Teru doing okay?”
Simon paused a moment before answering. “He grieves, sir.”
“And you?”
Simon looked away but didn’t reply. I watched his profile as he gazed out the window. The quintessential English butler. A pristinely tailored suit. Aquiline features. Silver hair, worn slightly long and combed back from a tall, smooth forehead. It was very unusual for Simon to ignore a question. Suddenly I felt ashamed. I had forgotten that I wasn’t the only one who loved her.
I said, “Have you thought about what you’ll do now?”
He turned to me, his eyebrows raised. “Do, sir?”
“I’m sure there are a lot of folks in Newport who would love to have you. Or maybe Laguna or Malibu. Friends of Haley’s in the business.”
A mask of neutrality quickly replaced his rare flash of emotion. “I understand. Is there anything more I can do for you, sir?”
“There is one thing.”
“Yes, sir?”
“What’s with all the ‘sir’ business? You never used to call me that.”
He looked at me and raised one eyebrow. “It is the normal appellation for one’s employer, sir.”
After Simon left, I sipped the coffee. It seemed Simon had expected to stay on at El Nido. I hadn’t thought of that. With Haley gone, I had assumed he would want to leave as soon as possible. That was certainly my intention.
Then I remembered the last thing he had said, and an astonishing realization came to me. I felt foolish not to have considered it before. Probably it had been rattling around in the back of my mind for weeks, but in all of the confusion, I hadn’t taken hold of it and focused.
Could it really be possible that El Nido was mine now?
As I sat in bed pondering that possibility, a memory slowly emerged of a man, a lawyer, who had come to see me in the hospital. Hadn’t he said the grounds, guesthouse, tennis court, pool, helipad, dock, and mansion… all of it had been left to me? Yes, I was almost certain that was what he said. I hadn’t thought of it again because it hadn’t seemed important. Details about property and money don’t matter much when your own mind isn’t under your control. Bigger fish to fry and all that. But while the world around me still dissolved into chaos sometimes, mostly I had begun to see the same so-called reality as everybody else. Maybe I should be paying more attention.
I got to my feet. I pulled on a pair of khaki cargo shorts and a white polo shirt, then slipped into a pair of flip-flops. I glanced at my reflection in the mirrored door of the Edwardian armoire. The polo-shirt sleeves fit tightly around my biceps and hung loosely over my flat stomach. After my mind had begun to come back, they allowed me to work out twice a day at the hospital’s physical therapy gym, so I probably remained the only limo driver in Orange County who could do sixty one-armed push-ups in a minute. At least I still had that.
I walked out of the bedroom. I paused and looked around at the living room and the kitchen, with the little dining area. It had never felt like home. Now that I apparently owned it, the guesthouse seemed even less homey. The interior had been carefully designed to coordinate with Haley’s Spanish-colonial mansion, with rough-cut beams stained dark brown, a heavy iron chandelier with simulated candles, and multipaned windows set deep in recesses carefully plastered to simulate the thick walls of an adobe hacienda.
I crossed the living area and peered into the guest room. There stood my easel and the folding table beside it, on which my brushes and paints awaited. The harbor scene on the easel remained unfinished, exactly as I had left it the day before the murder. It seemed unfamiliar, as if it had been done by someone else. I tried to imagine myself painting again and found myself thinking instead of the day when my new life began with Haley Lane.
6
After thirteen years in the Marines, I had been demoted to the rank of private, confined in the stockade for half a year, and then dishonorably discharged. Standing there in the spare bedroom of Haley’s guesthouse, I didn’t bother thinking about why it had happened. I only thought about the fact that I had limped back to lick my wounds at my grandparents’ ranch near Uvalde, Texas, where I grew up.
One weekend, after spending most of that summer running cattle with my grandfather and his Mexican crew, I drove over to San Antonio. I had decided not to worry about money for a while and took a room downtown at the Menger Hotel, which is across the street from the Alamo. That first night I had a drink in the old hotel’s bar, a Texas icon where Teddy Roosevelt famously recruited his Rough Riders.