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Dressed in rags and hides.

They don’t get what I say

And I don’t talk their language

All I can say to those I meet:

“Try and make it to Cold Mountain.

Hmmmmm.’“

My double appeared at the door of a cowbarn, pulling

at his hatbrim.

“I think your vision has no rules,” he said. “Mere

literary scraps.

The somnium animale of a man who reads too much.

I see traces of a fear that literature may be nothing

but a game,

and stark reality the chaos remaining when the

last game’s played.”

What could I say to such cynicism? My heart beat wildly and I jumped from the old woman’s back to snatch up

a handful of stones.

He saw my purpose — my double, or whoever— and clutching the brim of his hat in one hand he went

limping for the woods.

“Is nothing serious?” I yelled, pelting him. He squealed

like a pig.

He was gone. I wrung my fingers, whispering,

Is nothing serious?

The goddess had vanished. “Sirius! Sirius!” the dark

trees sang.

22

“Let it be,” the deep-voiced thunder rumbled, beyond

tall pillars,

beyond tall oaks like skeletal hands still snatching

at nothing

in the cockshut sky. They lighted the torches, for

the day had gone dark

prematurely, grown sullen as a nun full of grudges.

King Kreon rose,

stretched out his hands for silence, but the flashing sky

boomed on,

drowning his announcement, drowning the applause of

the assembled sea-kings.

Then Jason rose, smiling, and spoke — gray rain on

the palace grounds

pounding on flagstones and walls, filling lakes with

activity, drumming

on the square unmarked tomb of the forgotten king—

and the crowd applauded,

rising to honor him as he reached for the hand of

the princess. She rose,

radiant with love, as joyful as morning, all linen

and gold,

flashing like fire in the light of the torches,

her glory of victory.

In the vine-hung house below, the fleece lay singing

in the gleam

of candlelight, and the women gathered as seamstresses

stared

in awe at the cloth they must cut and sew. To some

it seemed

they might sooner cut plackets in the land itself, make

seams in the sky,

for the cloth held forests whose golden leaves flickered,

and extensive valleys,

cities and hamlets, overgrown thorps where peasants

labored,

hunched under lightning, preparing their sheds for

winter. Among

the seamstresses, the daughter of Aietes walked,

cold marble,

explaining her wishes, not weeping now, all carriers

of feeling

closed like doors. It seemed to the women gathered

in the house

no lady on earth was more beautiful to see — her hair

spun gold—

or more cruelly wronged. When the scissors approached

it, the cloth cried out.

That night there was music in the palace of Kreon—

flourishes and tuckets

of trumpets, bright chatter of drums. In the rafters,

ravens watched;

in the room’s dark corners, fat-coiled snakes, heads

shyly lowered,

drawn by prescience of death. Tall priests in white

came in—

white clouds of incense, hymns in modes now fallen

to disuse

mysterious and common as abandoned clothes. In

the lower hall

a young bull white as snow, red-eyed, breathed

heavily, waiting

in the flickering room. His nose was troubled by smells

unfamiliar

and ominous, his heart by loneliness and fear. He

watched

human beings hurrying around him, throwing high

shadows on the walls.

One came toward him with a shape. He bellowed in

terror. A blow,

sharp pain. A dark mist clouded his sight, and

his heavy limbs fell.

Medeia said now, standing in the room with her

Corinthian women,

no jewel more bright than the fire in her eyes,

no waterfall,

crimsoned by sunrise but shining within, more lovely

than her hair,

her low voice charged with her days and years (no

instrument of wood

or wire or brass could touch that sound, as the

singer proves,

shattering the dome of the orchestra, climbing on

eagle’s wings,

measured, alive to old pains, old joys, in a landscape

of stone-

cold hills, bright flame of cloud), “I would not keep

from you,

women of Corinth, more than I need of my purpose

in this.

If my looks seem dark, full of violence, pray do not

fear me or hate me,

remembering rumors. I am, whatever else, a woman, like you, but a woman betrayed and crushed,

fallen on disaster.”

Silence in the palace. And then the sweet

shrill-singing priest,

his soft left hand on Pyripta’s, his right on Jason’s.

When he paused,

a flash of lightning shocked the room, and the room’s

high pillars

sang out like men, an unearthly choir. Deaf as a stone, the priest held a golden ring to Pyripta, another to Jason.

The towering central door burst open, as if struck

full force

by a battering ram. Slaves rushed to close it. A voice

like the moan

of a mountain exploding said, “No, turn back!”

But the panelled door

was closed. And now the floor spoke out, roaring,

“No! Take care!”

There was not one man in the hall who failed to

hear it. I saw them.

But Jason and the princess kissed; the kings applauded.

His eyes

had Hera in them, and Athena. And old King Kreon

smiled.

Medeia said: “Now all pleasure in life is exhausted. I have no desire — no faintest tremor of desire—

but for death.

The man I loved more than earth itself, his leastmost

wish

the wind I ran in, his griefs my winters — my child,

my husband—

has proved more worthless than the world by the

darkest of philosophies.

Surely of all things living and feeling, women are

the creatures

unhappiest. By a rich dowery, at best — at worst by deeds like mine — we purchase our bodies’ slavery,

the right

to creep, stoop, cajole, flatter, run up and down, labor in the night — and we say thank God for it,

too — better that

than lose the tyrant. You know the saw: “No

wise man rides

a nag to war, or beds a misshapen old woman.’ Like

horses

worn out in service, they trade us off. Divorce is

their plaything—

ruiner of women, whatever the woman may think

in her hour

of escape. For there is no honor for women in divorce;