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by the gods, and by me — you who could find it in your

heart to murder

the children you bore yourself, to leave me childless

and broken—

by all the gods in heaven or on earth or under the earth I curse you! May you live forever in the pain you’ve

brought yourself,

and with every passing day may your sorrow triple, and

your mind

grow more unsure, more tortured by doubt of what’s

happened here,

till nothing is certain but hopeless and endless sorrow.”

Even now— the proof of her victory gray and inert beside her — she

turned

her face from the lash of his words; broken as he was,

he knew

her chief point of vincibility: self-doubt, her fear that all she might do on earth was nothing but the

afterburn

of her father’s mindlessly rumbling, teratical blood. She

shouted,

“Curse all you please. You’ve turned too late to religion,

Jason.

Why should the gods pay heed to the curses of an

oath-breaker?”

She laughed, terrible and false, a crash of ice. He

howled,

“Yield me one thing and go then, free of me forever.”

She waited.

“The bodies of my sons,” he said, “to bewail and bury.”

But again

Medeia laughed, monstrous in her spite. “Never, my

husband!

I’ll bear them myself to the shrine of Hera in the high

mountains

and there bury them where none who hate me will climb

to insult them,

scattering their stones. For the land of Sisyphus I’ll

ordain a feast

with solemn rites to atone for the blood I’ve impiously

spilled,

then afterward away to Erekhtheus I’ll go, and live in

protection

of Aigeus, Pandion’s son. And you, vile wretch — this

curse

I place on you, in the hearing of earth and the burning

sun

and the multitudinous gods: May you now grow old

alone,

childless and silent, and die at last a shameful death, crushed by a beam from your own Argo. Then, then or

never,

shall our marriage end.” He listened in silence, his skin

burning

from the heat of the sun-god’s chariot. He wailed:

“Medeia, give back

my sons.” But again her reply was, “Never!” Then,

turning slowly,

she pointed to the palace. “Burials enough you’ll have,

I think,

without these, husband.” He looked. All the palace was

churning fire—

the tapestried walls, the trusses and cantled beams,

the doors,

the vaulting roofs. His muscles knotted more tightly

than before,

and his mind went wild. “Not my work, husband,”

Medeia said.

“The friends you’d have saved, in your own good time,

from Kreon’s dungeon

have fashioned keys of their own. I’ll bury our children,

Jason.

Deal with the dead mad Idas and Lynkeus scatter in

their wake!”

More darkly than ever he’d have cursed her then, but

his tongue was a stone,

his thick neck swollen as an adder’s. With the strength

of fifteen men

he seized the great bronze gate he’d torn from its hinges,

twisted it,

breaking it free of its latch and lock, swung it around

once,

and fired it upward at his wife. The chariot and dragons

vanished,

cunning illusions, and the door went planing through

the night, arching

upward and away six furlongs, gleaming. All the sky

was alight from the fire in the palace; and now there

were more fires burning,

the brothers taking remorseless Argonaut revenge on a

king

now dead. Jason could do nothing, kneeling in the

cobbled street,

bellowing wordless fury, clinging to his skull with both

hands,

for the heat of burning Corinth was nothing to the fire

in his mind.

Kneeling, his muscular thighs bulging, he swayed and

strained

for speech. He’d forgotten the trick of it. And now he

grew silent,

became like the focus of the whole world’s pressure. The

city all around him

roared, full of fire and shouts, alive with people on the

run.

And now, as steady and endless as the rain, gray ashes

fell.

Kneeling, furious, no longer sane, Lord Jason grew

old.

Before my eyes his skin withered and his hair turned

white.

The street became the Argo. I shouted in terror for the

goddess.

Waves crashed over the gunnels; from the sailyard

icicles hung.

And still, like snow, white ashes drifted through the

universe,

and above the sailyard, circling, circling in the darkness,

the ravens.

24

I stood on an island of flaking shale, where snow lay

gray,

in sickly patches; an island barren except for one tree by a miracle not yet dead, but bare and aging, failing, the surrounding air so choked and smoky that, for all I

knew,

I’d stumbled on the kingdom of Death. From every side

I heard,

ringing across what must have been black and sludgy

waters,

cracks and explosions, rumblings, shots; the air was

filled

with the whine of what might have been engines. I could

see, through the snow and smoke,

no smouldering fires, no rocket’s glare, no proof that

the earth

was not, itself, unaided by man, the attacker and

attacked.

Holding my right hand — stiff and useless, violently

throbbing—

in my left, the collar of my old black coat drawn high

to shield me,

I moved with feeble and tottering steps toward the

center of the island.

I began to see now there was more life here than I’d

guessed at first:

insects struggling in the ice, and sluggish serpents,

hissing,

venomous mouths wide open. I kept my distance, and

passed.

In every crevasse of that sickened place, there were

lean, white gannets

crying forlornly in inconstant, snow-filled brume. I found a man with a stick walking slowly in front of the

entrance to a cave,

turning in slow, stiff circles, as if in search of something. His beard came nearly to his knees; his ankles were

knobby and swollen

from some old injury; he had no eyes. He frowned, stern and strangely unbent for a man so old, and a

hermit.

“Who’s there?” he said, and pointed his stick. I struggled

to answer,

but no words came. He reached toward me with his

square, gray hand

to feel out my features and manner of dress, then shook

his head

dully, wearier than ever, and turned his face away, thinking, or listening to something out on the water.

I thought

he’d forgotten my presence; but he said suddenly,

“Whoever sent you,

tell them to take you back. Say to them, ‘Oidipus thanks

you,

but he takes no interest in the future.’ Now go.” He

waved at me gruffly,

not unkindly but impatiently, like a man interrupted. “Are you gone?” he said. I tried to think how to tell him