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gullies and creeks

to the brim and beyond, all swirling, glittering, — so

down the aisles

of Kreon’s hall, filling each gap between trestle-tables, platters held high, hurtling along like boulders and

driftwood,

silver and gold on the current’s crest, came Kreon’s

slaves.

Their trays came loaded with stews and sauces, white

with steamclouds,

some piled high with meats of all kinds; some trailed

blue flame.

A great Ah! like the ocean drawn back from the pebbles

of the shore

welled through the room. Jason, dark head lowered,

smiled.

The huge Koprophoros snatched like a hungry bear at

food.

They mock me,” he whimpered to the man beside him.

They’ll change their tune!”

The torches flickered. Kreon patted his hands together. When I closed my eyes the sound of their eating was

the faraway roar

of dark waves grinding over boulders — ominous,

mindless.

4

Sunset. She sat in the room that opened on the terrace

and garden

watching the red go out of roses, the red-orange flame drain gradually out of the sky. Leaves, branches of

trees,

flowers that an hour before had been sharp with color,

became

all one, dark figures etched into dusk. Shade by shade they became one tone with the night. From Kreon’s

palace above,

its torchlit walls just visible here and there through gaps in the heavy bulk of oaks, occasional sounds came down, a burst of laughter, a snatch of song, the low boom of table chatter, and now and then some nearer voice, a guard, a servant at the gates — all far away, bell-like, ringing off smooth stone walls and walkways, glancing

off pools,

annulate tones moving out through the arch of

distances.

At times, above more muted sounds, I could hear the

drone

of the female slave, Agapetika, putting the children to

bed,

and sometimes a muttered rebuke from the second of

the slaves, the man.

Medeia sat like marble, expressionless, white hands

clamped

on the arms of her chair. It was as if she were holding

the room together

by her own stillness, a delicate balance like that of the

mind

of Zeus o’ervaulting the universe, enchaining dragons by thought. So she sat for a long time. Then, abruptly, she turned — a barely perceptible shift— and looked at the door, listening. Two minutes passed. The breathlike whisper of sandals came from the

corridor.

After a time, the old woman’s form emerged at the

doorway,

stooped, as heavy as stone, her white flesh liver-spotted, draped from head to foot in cinereal gray, her weight buttressed by two thick canes. The slave looked in,

dim-eyed.

Thank you, Agapetika,” Medeia said.

No answer. But slowly — so slowly I found it hard to

be sure

from second to second whether or not she was still

moving—

the old woman came forward. “Medeia, you’re ill again!” A moan like a dog’s. Medeia got up suddenly, angrily, and went out to stand on the terrace, her back to the slave. Another long silence. The sounds coming

down from the palace

were clearer here, like sounds through wintry fog:

the clatter

of plates, laughter like a wave striking. She said, not

turning,

“It’s a strange sound, the laughter of a crowd when

you’ve no idea

what they’re laughing at.” She turned, sighing. “I’m

fiercely jealous,

as you see. How dare the man go up and have dinner

with the king

and leave me wasting?”

The slave did not smile. “You should sleep, Medeia.

She shook her head, refusing her mistress further

speech.

The lids of the old woman’s eyes hung loose as a

hound’s. She said:

“When you came to Pelias’ city bringing the fleece,

your hand

on Jason’s arm — the beautiful princess and handsome

prince,

lady of sunlight, hero in a coal-dark panther skin— that time too your eyes were ice. Oh, everyone saw it, and a shiver went through us. — And yet you’d saved

him, and he’d saved you,

and nobody there, no matter how old, could recall he’d

seen

a handsomer couple.” She closed her eyes and rocked,

as slow

as a merchant ship sunk low in the water when the wind first fills her sails. She said, ‘Your

face was flushed,

and when Jason moved his hand on your arm, the air

in the room

turned rich, overripe as apples fallen from the tree—

despite

that glacial stillness of eyes. I was heavy with years,

life-sickened

already by then. I saw I must end my days in the service of a lord and lady whose love was a fadge of guilt

and scorn,

a prospect evil enough. And little by little, as the tales of the Argonauts came to our ears, we understood.

Such a passion

as Queen Aphrodite had put on you two was never seen on earth before; not even in Kadmos and Harmonia was such fire seen. But passion or no, he hated you. How could he not? — a princely Akhaian, and you’d

saved his life

by the midnight murder of your own poor trusting

brother! No matter

to Jason that that was your one slim chance. He’d

sooner be dead

than safe and ashamed. Worse yet … Don’t be

surprised, lady,

that I dare to speak these things. I can see how it

drains your cheeks,

the mention of your brother’s murder. No better than

you can I tell

which way your anger will strike, at yourself or me.

You suck in

breath, and I’m shaken with fear — but my fear is more

by far

for you than it is for myself. I’ve seen how you wince

and cry out,

alone. It fills me with dread. You’ll plunge into

madness, Medeia,

hating what couldn’t be helped, wrenching your heart

out in secret,

proud — oh, prouder than any queen living — but even

at the height

of that fierce Aiaian pride, uncertain, doubting you merit the friendship of any but the

Queen of Death.

You’re poisoned, Medeia. Venomed as surely as the ivy

burning

from within. I’d cure you if I could, if I knew how to

force you to hear me.

Think, child of the sun! Think past the bouldered hour that dams the flow of your mind. Lord Jason hated you. Justly, you think? Unselfishly? Is Jason a god? He’d agreed to your plan — agreed for your life’s sake,

not his.

To save your life, the woman who scattered his wits

like a vision—

like the sizzling crepitation of a lightning-bolt— he’d do what he’d never consider to save himself. No

wonder

if after he’d saved what he worshipped, your Jason

gnawed his fists

and hated all sight of what proved his weakness.

— Jason who once

loved honor, trusted his courage. You taught him his

price.”

The slave

was silent awhile. Medeia waited — high cheeks

bloodless.

The slave said softly, “—But time soon changed all that. Not any intentional act of yours, Medeia, nor any act of his. Mere time. We saw how he tensed when you screamed in the pain