All things considered, the whole operation had already cost so much effort that I wished there was some way I could get out of it. It was so damned cold that it turned your face hard and sullen, the wind whipped tears from my eyes that I couldn’t wipe away because I had to hold onto Joe. Like a warm, heaving animal he fought his way upwind along the dyke to the spot where he’d stashed his plane. My legs with those black leather circus shoes at the ends of them dangled alongside the baggage carrier, I couldn’t rest them on the frame and so I had to sit the whole damn way with my full weight resting on my nuts.
Halfway between Lomark and Westerveld we coasted down off the dyke and onto Gemeenschapspolderweg. Along that road were three isolated farms. The wind was finally behind us. To the left and right the black fields lay fallow, ploughed for the winter into frozen furrows with frost on their backs. We cycled up a private road, gravel chirped beneath the wheels. At the end of the road was the farm that belonged to Dirty Rinus. So this was where the plane had been hidden all this time! I saw no trace of Rinus himself or his brown Opel Ascona. In the yard stood a wheelbarrow, its handgrips the only things not encrusted with a layer of dried manure and straw, otherwise the thing seemed covered with it. Joe rode to the shed all the way at the back and leaned me, bike and all, against the wall.
‘Wait here for a minute,’ he said, as though I had any choice.
He disappeared through a little stable door. It wasn’t hard to figure out why he’d parked the plane at Dirty Rinus’s; Rinus didn’t give a shit — the one thing he had plenty of — about anything. Sitting there against the brick wall like a sack of potatoes, I could see into one of the stalls where a row of Belgian Blue cattle stared back in despond. They were up to their knees in manure. Along their bellies I could see horizontal scars. Caesarean sections: Belgian blues are mutants with a birth canal that’s way too narrow; their calves have to be cut out from the side.
I was cold and my balls ached. Somewhere a pair of doors slid open, followed a moment later by the strangled cough of an engine that had been standing still for a while. After the first few tries it caught. I recognized the sound: a 100hp Subaru engine. Joe let it idle for a few minutes to warm up the oil and water.
Until that moment I could have changed my mind. We would have gone back home, Joe would have shrugged in puzzlement but forgotten it quickly enough, and I would have been relieved not to have to go through with it. But once the plane came around the corner, it was too late.
I don’t think I had fully realized that I was going flying. Only when I saw that sky-blue monster appear again after a whole year did a wave of fear and excitement go coursing through me. Joe circled around the yard and turned the plane with its nose toward the pasture. Then he turned off the engine, stepped out onto the wing and climbed down.
‘Like a charm,’ he said, sounding pleased.
He went around behind me, put his arms under my armpits and locked his fingers across my chest. He pulled me off the baggage carrier like a drowning man. His breath brushed my face, I could smell Mahfouz’s cooking.
‘Help out a little here,’ he grunted, ‘you’re too heavy for me.’
I hung in his arms like a baby learning to walk. With my good hand I grabbed hold of the wing and nodded to him to let go. It was the first time we’d ever stood beside each other. I was more than a year older than Joe, but a head shorter.
‘Let’s see, how are we going to do this?’ Joe said.
He found a ladder with liquid-manure spatters on it and leaned it against the side of the plane. He himself stepped up onto the wing and into the belly of the machine, then held his hand out to me.
‘If you just. . yeah, the first rung, then I can give you. . give me your hand. . now put your foot up, your foot! One more. . hold on. .’
And so I arrived breathlessly in the plane’s rattan bucket seat. Joe pushed the ladder away and sat down in front of me, half on the metal superstructure because there was only one chair. Together on a bicycle built for one.
‘Can you see all right?’
My head stuck up just above the edge of the cockpit.
‘Here we go, Frankie.’
He turned the key in the ignition and started the engine. We taxied through the open gate and into the pasture, a strip of frozen grassland stretched out before us. Joe put the plane into neutral and pulled on the handbrake. Then he opened the throttle the whole way. Thunder rolled, a frozen hurricane roared around our ears. I was chilled to the bone.
‘Flaps out!’ Joe shouted.
He popped the handbrake and we leapt forward. I grabbed him around the waist and we shot ahead with a deafening din. I felt his body working the pedals and the joystick, which he pulled all the way back when we reached full speed.
We were off. The ground disappeared beneath us, I screamed. The plane shivered, the wings swept left and right but we were already twice as high as the tallest poplar, with nothing more to worry about. There was a cheerful tingling in my scrotum. Behind and off to one side I saw the river and the washlands. Joe turned ninety degrees to the right and flew parallel to the river, heading for Lomark. The icy cold wind made my eyes and nose run and paralyzed my lips, but I ignored it. The plane stank of petrol.
From the looks of it we were going to hold at this altitude. It was hard to say how far up that really was. Below us the world reeled past like a slapstick film. Every rise and every hill that usually cost me so much effort was now nothing but a bump. My entire biotope, including all the things ordinarily hidden behind houses, hedges, ridges and dykes, was laughably flat and obvious from here. At this height there were no more secrets, and that was sad and lovely.
Every once in a while Joe looked back over his shoulder and shouted something unintelligible. The plane shuddered across the blue-golden sky and I was reminded of those old monster movies where Godzilla and all kinds of other dinosaurs moved just as unnaturally and jerkily as we did in mid-air.
In the milky distance I saw the electrical plant blowing its vertical plume of smoke. Joe pointed down. We were above Lomark. In the depths lay the cemetery, where Louise Maandag’s funeral seemed to be over. I tried to trace the road to Het Karrewiel where the funeral guests should now be eating their sandwiches. I found the restaurant, in the parking lot I saw the last few people in black on their way to the big dining room for coffee and sandwiches with salami and cheese, with no idea that we were up above them.
Joe shoved the joystick to the left, the left wing plunged down and the right one came up as he banked toward the river, back where we’d started. In my stomach I felt the jubilant sensation of falling. We were going to put the plane down before they had to saw us out of the cockpit like two frozen primeval hunters. The plane levelled out. I picked out the ferry landing and the old shipyard and then a wee little man who looked like he was dragging something much bigger than he was. Joe saw him too.
‘Mahfouz!’ he screamed over his shoulder.
The river gleamed and the cars’ roofs glistened along the dyke. I tried to take it all in at one go in order never to forget.
When I saw Rinus’s farm coming up fast, I was stunned — the landing! I didn’t want to think about the landing, I’d never watched Joe make a landing before, the landing was the hardest thing of all about flying! I thought about death, about how, together, Joe and I. . and suddenly I wasn’t so afraid of it anymore. We passed over the farm and now I saw Dirty Rinus’s Opel parked in the yard. The plane turned and lost altitude fast. The pasture was right in front of us and Joe was starting his approach. He was going to try to be as close as possible to the ground when he got to the field, I felt his body go tense, the wings shivered nervously and we were still going way too fast. . Pull up! Pull up, man! But he headed on in, with the pasture looming like a wall. Joe pushed the throttle all the way in and pulled the flaps all the way out, the noise dimmed but the earth was still coming up at us like a fist. Then the wheels smacked the ground. The plane hopped and came back down again, we raced across the field and I saw chunks of dirt flying up. We were losing speed fast.