“No.”
“You are sure?”
“Yes, I am sure.” He knew now that he did not want to tell her about Moeller. He wanted her to talk to him believing that there was no longer any danger, that nothing could happen to him, that he could walk down the gangway at Genoa without fear. Afraid to create his own illusion, he could live in one of her making. He managed to smile. “You mustn’t take any notice of me, Josette. I’m tired. You know, it’s a very tiring business searching other people’s cabins.”
Immediately she was all sympathy. “Mon pauvre chéri. It is my fault, not yours. I forget how unpleasant things have been for you. Would you like us to go back to the salone and have a little drink?”
He would have done almost anything for a drink but go back to the saloon where he could see Banat. “No. Tell me what we shall do first when we arrive in Paris.”
She looked at him quickly, smiling. “If we do not walk we shall get cold.” She wriggled into her coat and linked her arm in his. “So we are going to Paris together?”
“Of course! I thought it was all arranged.”
“Oh yes, but”-she pressed his arm against her side-“I did not think that you were serious. You see,” she went on carefully, “so many men like to talk about what will happen, but they do not always like to remember what they have said. It is not that they do not mean what they say but that they do not always feel the same. You understand me, chéri?”
“Yes, I understand.”
“I want you to understand,” she went on, “because it is very important to me. I am a dancer and must think of my career also.” She turned to him impulsively. “But you will think that I am selfish and I would not like you to think that. It is just that I like you very much and do not wish you to do anything simply because you have made a promise. As long as you understand that, it is all right. We will not talk about it.” She snapped her fingers. “Look! When we get to Paris we will go straight to a hotel which I know of near the St. Philippe du Roule Metro. It is very modern and respectable and if you wish we can have a bathroom. It is not expensive. Then we will have champagne cocktails at the Ritz bar. They are only nine francs. While we have those drinks we can decide where to eat. I am very tired of Turkish foods and the sight of ravioli makes me ill. We must have good French food.” She paused and added hesitantly, “I have never been to the Tour d’Argent.”
“You shall.”
“You mean it? I shall eat until I am as fat as a pig. After that we will begin.”
“Begin?”
“There are some little places that are still open late in spite of the police. I will introduce you to a great friend of mine. She was the sous-maquecée of the Moulin Galant when Le Boulanger had it and before the gangsters came. You understand sous-maquecée?”
“No.”
She laughed. “It is very bad of me. I will explain to you another time. But you will like Suzie. She saved a lot of money and now she is very respectable. She had a place in the rue de Liège which was better than Le Jockey Cabaret in Istanbul. She had to close it when the war came but she has opened another place in an impasse off the rue Pigalle and those who are her friends can go there. She has a great many friends and so she is making money again. She is quite old and the police do not trouble her. She shrugs her shoulders at them. Just because there is this filthy war there is no reason why we should all be miserable. I have other friends in Paris, too. You will like them when I introduce you. When they know that you are my friend they will be polite. They are very polite and nice when you are introduced by someone who is known in the quarter.”
She went on talking about them. Most of them were women (Lucette, Dolly, Sonia, Claudette, Berthe) but there were one or two men (Jojo, Ventura) who were foreigners and had not been mobilised. She spoke of them vaguely but with an enthusiasm half defensive, half real. They might not be rich as Americans understood being rich, but they were people of the world. Each was remarkable in some particular. One was “very intelligent,” another had a friend in the Ministry of the Interior, another was going to buy a villa at San Tropez and invite all his friends there for the summer. All were “amusing” and very useful if one wanted “anything special.” She did not say what she meant by “anything special” and Graham did not ask her. He did not object to the picture she was painting. The prospect of sitting in the Café Graf buying drinks for bizness men and women from the places up the hill seemed to him at that moment infinitely attractive. He would be safe and free; himself again; able to think his own thoughts, to smile without stretching his nerves to breaking point when he did so. It must happen. It was absurd that he should be killed. Moeller was right about one thing at least. He would be more use to his country alive than dead.
Considerably more! Even if the Turkish contract were delayed for six weeks it would still have to be fulfilled. If he were alive at the end of the six weeks he would be able to go on with it; perhaps he might even make up for some of the lost time. He was, after all, the company’s chief designer and it would be difficult to replace him in war time. He had been truthful enough when he had told Haki that there were dozens of other men with his qualifications; but he had not thought it necessary to bolster up Haki’s argument by explaining that those dozens were made up of Americans, Frenchmen, Germans, Japanese and Czechs as well as Englishmen. Surely the sensible course would be the safe one. He was an engineer, not a professional secret agent. Presumably, a secret agent would have been equal to dealing with men like Moeller and Banat. He, Graham, was not. It was not for him to decide whether or not Moeller was bluffing. His business was to stay alive. Six weeks on the Ligurian Riviera could not do him any harm. It meant lying, of course: lying to Stephanie and to their friends, to his managing director and to the representatives of the Turkish Government. He couldn’t tell them the truth. They would think that he ought to have risked his life. It was the sort of thing people did think when they were safe and snug in their arm-chairs. But if he lied, would they believe him? The people at home would; but what about Haki? Haki would smell a rat and ask questions. And Kuvetli? Moeller would have to do something about putting him off. It would be a tricky business; but Moeller would arrange things. Moeller was used to that sort of thing. Moeller.…
He stopped with a jerk. For God’s sake, what was he thinking? He must be out of his senses! Moeller was an enemy agent. What he, Graham, had been turning over in his mind was nothing less than treason. And yet.… And yet what? He knew suddenly that something had snapped in his mind. The idea of doing a deal with an enemy agent was no longer unthinkable. He could consider Moeller’s suggestion on its merits, coolly and calmly. He was becoming demoralised. He could no longer trust himself.
Josette was shaking his arm. “What is it, chéri? What is the matter?”
“I’ve just remembered something,” he muttered.
“Ah!” she said angrily, “that is not at all polite. I ask you if you wish to go on walking. You take no notice. I ask you again and you stop as if you were ill. You have not been listening to what I was saying.”
He pulled himself together. “Oh yes, I’ve been listening, but something you said reminded me that if I am to stop in Paris I shall have to write several important business letters so that I can post them immediately I get there.” He added with a fair assumption of jauntiness: “I don’t want to work while I am in Paris.”
“If it is not these salauds who tried to kill you, it is business,” she grumbled. But she was apparently mollified.