Cowart paused, looking at her. 'At least he will be in hand and not out there doing whatever it is he's doing. So he'll be stopped.'
'And it's going to be that easy, is it?'
Cowart shook his head. 'No,' he replied. 'Everything's dangerous. Everything's a risk.'
I know that,' she said calmly. 'I just wanted to be certain you knew it as well.'
Silence crept over them again, imposing itself on their thoughts for a few awkward moments before Cowart said, 'This has happened quickly, hasn't it?'
'What do you mean?'
'It seems like a long time since Blair Sullivan went to the chair. But it's only been days.'
'Would you rather it be longer?' she asked.
'No. I want it to end.'
Andrea Shaeffer started to say one thing, changed her mind, and asked another. 'And what happens when it ends?'
Cowart didn't hesitate. 'I get the chance to go back to doing what I was doing, before all this started. Just a chance.'
He did not say what he thought was a more accurate answer: I get the chance to be safe.
He laughed sarcastically. 'Of course, I'm probably going to get chewed up pretty bad in the process. So will Tanny Brown. Maybe you, too. But…' He shrugged, as if to say it no longer mattered, which was a lie, of course.
Shaeffer digested this. She thought people who wanted things to return to the way they were before were almost always hopelessly naive. And never happy with the results. Then she asked, 'Do you trust Lieutenant Brown?'
Cowart hesitated. I think he's dangerous, if that's what you mean. I think he's close to the edge. I also think he's going to do what he says.'
Cowart thought of adding to his statement, I think he's filled with unmitigated fury and a hatred of his own. But he didn't get to where he is now by breaking rules. He got there by playing the game. Toeing the line. Behaving precisely the way people expected him to behave. He violated that once, when he let Wilcox beat that confession out of Ferguson. He won't fall into that trap again.
Shaeffer agreed. 'I think he's close to the edge, too. But he seems steady.' She wasn't sure whether she believed this or not. She knew the same thing could be said of Cowart, and of herself as well.
'Makes no difference,' Cowart said abruptly.
'Why?'
'Because we're all going to see this through to the end.'
The waitress came and removed their plates, inquiring whether they cared for dessert. Both refused and refused coffee as well. The waitress, remaining sullen, seemed to have anticipated their responses; she had already totaled their check and dropped it unceremoniously on the table between them. Shaeffer insisted on paying her half. They walked to their rooms without further conversation. They did not say good night to each other.
Andrea Shaeffer closed the door behind her and went straight to the bureau dresser in the small motel room. Images from the past few days, snatches of conversations, raced through her head, ratcheting about in a confusing, unsettling manner. But she steeled herself and started to act slowly, steadily. She placed her pocketbook down deliberately on the top and removed her nine-millimeter semiautomatic pistol. She released the clip of bullets from the handle, checking to make certain that it was fully loaded. She pulled back the action on the pistol as well, sighting down the barrel, making sure that all the moving parts were in working order. She reloaded the weapon and placed it down in front of her. Then she rummaged through the pocket-book, searching for her backup clip of bullets. She found this, checked it, then put it next to the gun.
For a few moments she stared down at the weapon.
She thought of hours spent practicing with the nine-millimeter. The Monroe County Sheriff's Department had set up a combat practice range on a deserted spot just below Marathon. It was a simple procedure; while she walked through a series of deserted buildings, little more than the cinder-block shells of homes bleached white by the constancy of sun, a range control officer electronically operated a series of targets. She'd been good at the procedure, scoring consistently in the nineties. But what she'd enjoyed the most was the electricity of the practice sessions, the demand to see a target, recognize it as friend or foe, and fire or hold fire accordingly. There was a sense of being totally involved, unconcerned by anything save the sun, the weight of the handgun in her hand, and the targets that appeared. In a killing zone. Comfortable, alone with the single task of proceeding through the course.
She looked down at the weapon again.
I've never fired except at a target, she thought.
She remembered the mist and cold of the streets in Newark.
It wasn't like what she had expected. She had not even known that she was in combat in those moments. The people on the sidewalk, the threatening looks and motions, the hopeless pursuit through the streets. It was the first time it had been for real, for her. She gritted her teeth. She promised herself not to fail that test again.
She set the weapon down on the bed and reached for the telephone. She found Michael Weiss on her third try…'Andy, hey!' he said quickly. 'Jesus, am I glad to hear from you. What's been happening? What about your bad guy?'
This question almost made her laugh.
'I was right,' she said. 'This guy's real wrong. I have to help this Escambia cop with an arrest, then I'll be there.'
She could sense Weiss absorbing this cryptic statement. Before he could say anything, she added, 'I'm back in Florida. I can get to Starke tomorrow, okay? I'll fill you in then.'
'Okay,' he said slowly. 'But don't waste any more time. Guess what I came up with?'
'Murder weapon?'
'No such luck. But guess who made a dozen phone calls to his brother in the Keys in the month before the murder? And guess whose brand-new pickup truck got a speeding ticket on 1-95 right outside Miami twenty-four hours before Mister Reporter finds those bodies?'
'The good sergeant?'
'You got it. I'm going over to the truck dealer tomorrow. Gonna find out just exactly how he purchased that new four- by-four. Red. With fat tires and a light bar. A redneck Ferrari.' Weiss laughed. 'Come on, Andy, I've done all the legwork. Now I need your famous cold-hearted questioning technique to close the door on this guy. He's the one. I can feel it.'
'I'll get there,' she said. Tomorrow.'
She hung up the telephone. Her eyes landed on the pistol resting beside her. She cleared her mind and picked up her handgun, and, cradling it in her arms, lay back on the bed, kicking off her shoes but remaining fully clothed. She told herself to get some sleep and closed her eyes, still holding the gun tight, slightly irritated with Matthew Cowart for perceiving the truth: that she was in this to the end.
Cowart locked the door behind him and sat on the side of the bed. For a few seconds he looked down at the telephone, half as if he expected it to ring. Finally he reached down and seized the receiver. He pushed button number eight to receive a long-distance line, then started to punch in his ex-wife and daughter's number in Tampa. He touched nine of the eleven digits, then stopped.
He could think of nothing to say. He had nothing to add to what he'd told them in the early morning hours. He did not want to learn that they had not taken his advice and were still exposed and vulnerable, sitting in their fancy subdivision home. It was safer to imagine his daughter resting safely up in Michigan.
He disconnected the line, pushed number eight again, and dialed the number for the main switchboard at the Miami Journal. Talk to Will or Edna, he thought. The city editor or the managing editor or some copyboy. Just talk to someone at the paper.