Emma stirred beside her. Max entered in mid-eye rub a few minutes later. Jack was usually the one who made breakfast. He was more the early riser. Grace managed to whip up the morning meal-Cap’n Crunch with sliced banana-and deflected their questions about their father’s absence. While they were busy wolfing down breakfast, she slid into the den and tried Jack’s office, but nobody picked up the line. Still too early.
She threw on a pair of Jack’s Adidas sweats and walked them to the bus stop. Emma used to hug her before she boarded, but she was too old for that. She hurried aboard, before Grace could mumble something idiotically parental about Emma being too old for hugs but not too old to visit Mom when she was scared at night. Max still gave her a hug but it was quick and with a serious lack of enthusiasm. They both stepped inside, the bus door swooshing to a close as though swallowing them whole.
Grace blocked the sun with her hand and, as always, watched the bus until it turned down Bryden Road. Even now, even after all this time, she still longed to hop in her car and follow just to be sure that that seemingly fragile box of yellow tin made it safely to school.
What had happened to Jack?
She started back toward the house, but then, thinking better of it, she sprinted toward her car and took off. Grace caught up to the bus on Heights Road and followed it the rest of the way to Willard School. She shifted into park and watched the children disembark. When Emma and Max appeared, weighed down by their backpacks, she felt the familiar flutter. She sat and waited until they both headed up the path, up the stairs, and disappeared through the school doors.
And then, for the first time in a long time, Grace cried.
Grace expected cops in plainclothes. And she expected two of them. That was how it always worked on television. One would be the gruff veteran. The other would be young and handsome. So much for TV. The town police had sent one officer in the regulation stop-you-for-speeding uniform and matching car.
He had introduced himself as Officer Daley. He was indeed young, very young, with a smattering of acne on his shiny baby face. He was gym muscular. His short sleeves worked like tourniquets on his bloated biceps. Officer Daley spoke with annoying patience, a suburban-cop monotone, as if addressing a class of first graders on bike safety.
He had arrived ten minutes after her call on the non-emergency police line. Normally, the dispatcher told her, they would ask her to come in and fill out a report on her own. But it just so happened that Officer Daley was in the area, so he’d be able to swing by. Lucky her.
Daley took a letter-size sheet of paper and placed it out on the coffee table. He clicked his pen and started asking questions.
“The missing person’s name?”
“John Lawson. But he goes by Jack.”
He started down the list.
“Address and phone number?”
She gave them.
“Place of birth?”
“ Los Angeles, California.”
He asked his height, weight, eye and hair color, sex (yes, he actually asked). He asked if Jack had any scars, marks, or tattoos. He asked for a possible destination.
“I don’t know,” Grace said. “That’s why I called you.”
Officer Daley nodded. “I assume that your husband is over the age of emancipation?”
“Pardon?”
“He is over eighteen years old.”
“Yes.”
“That makes this harder.”
“Why?”
“We got new regulations on filling out a missing person report. It was just updated a couple weeks back.”
“I’m not sure I understand.”
He gave a theatrical sigh. “See, in order to put someone in the computer, he needs to meet the criteria.” Daley pulled out another sheet of paper. “Is your husband disabled?”
“No.”
“Endangered?”
“What do you mean?”
Daley read from the sheet. “ ‘A person of age who is missing and in the company of another person under circumstances indicating that his/her physical safety is in danger.’ ”
“I don’t know. I told you. He left here last night…”
“Then that would be a no,” Daley said. He scanned down the sheet. “Number three. Involuntary. Like a kidnapping or abduction.”
“I don’t know.”
“Right. Number four. Catastrophe victim. Like in a fire or airplane crash.”
“No.”
“And the last category. Is he a juvenile? Well, we covered that already.” He put the sheet down. “That’s it. You can’t put the person into the system unless he fits in one of those categories.”
“So if someone goes missing like this, you do nothing?”
“I wouldn’t put it that way, ma’am.”
“How would you put it?”
“We have no evidence that there was any foul play. If we receive any, we will immediately upgrade the investigation.”
“So for now you do nothing?”
Daley put down the pen. He leaned forward, his forearms on his thighs. His breathing was heavy. “May I speak frankly, Mrs. Lawson?”
“Please.”
“Most of these cases-no, more than that, I’d say ninety-nine out of a hundred-the husband is just running around. There are marital problems. There is a mistress. The husband doesn’t want to be found.”
“That’s not the case here.”
He nodded. “And in ninety-nine out of a hundred cases, that’s what we hear from the wife.”
The patronizing tone was starting to piss her off. Grace hadn’t felt comfortable confiding in this youth. She’d held back, as if she feared telling the entire truth would be a betrayal. Plus, when you really thought about it, how would it sound?
Well, see, I found this weird photo from the Photomat in the middle of my pack from Apple Orchard, in Chester, right, and my husband said it wasn’t him and really, it’s hard to tell because the picture is old and then Jack left the house…
“Mrs. Lawson?”
“Yes.”
“Do you understand what I’m telling you?”
“I think so. That I’m hysterical. My husband ran off. I’m trying to use the police to drag him back. That sound about right?”
He remained unruffled. “You have to understand. We can’t fully investigate until we have some evidence that a crime has been committed. Those are the rules set up by the NCIC.” He pointed to the sheet of paper again and said in his gravest tone: “That’s the National Crime Information Center.”
She almost rolled her eyes.
“Even if we find your husband, we wouldn’t tell you where he was. This is a free country. He is of age. We can’t force him to come back.”
“I’m aware of that.”
“We could make a few calls, maybe make a few discreet inquiries.”
“Great.”
“I’ll need the vehicle make and license plate number.”
“It’s a Ford Windstar.”
“Color?”
“Dark blue.”
“Year?”
She didn’t remember.
“License plate?”
“It begins with an M.”
Officer Daley looked up. Grace felt like a moron.
“I have a copy of the registration upstairs,” she said. “I can check.”
“Do you use E-ZPass at tollbooths?”
“Yes.”
Officer Daley nodded and wrote that down. Grace headed upstairs and found the file. She made a copy with her scanner and gave it to Officer Daley. He wrote something down. He asked a few questions. She stuck with the facts: Jack had come home from work, helped put the children to bed, gone out, probably for groceries… and that was it.
After about five minutes, Daley seemed satisfied. He smiled and told her not to worry. She stared at him.