‘Quickly make as many idiotic statements like that as are necessary for a lifetime,’ my father said. ‘You’re almost old enough to know better. What is it? October? By January we’re going to start expecting moral responsibility of you both.’ Aba shifted sideways as he spoke and looped his legs over the arm of the chair, his every muscle conveying the indolence of a well-satisfied man. He could probably drape himself over a barbed-wire fence and still look entirely at ease.
Ami crooked a finger through the hole near the cuff of Aba’s jeans. I had asked her once if it bothered her that Aba was so totally unromantic, and she replied that her definition of romance was absent-minded intimacy, the way someone else’s hands stray to your plate of food.
I looked at my parents for a moment. My father was pushing at Ami’s chair with his bare foot, pretending he was about to tip it over, and she gave him a look — one of those officious looks of hers — and he winked at me and subsided. I winked back with my smaller, darker version of his cat eyes (‘Tiger eyes’, he and I would always insist. ‘Panther eyes.’). We were co-conspirators, my father and I, though it was never entirely clear to me what we were conspiring about. Beside me, Karim started humming under his breath, so I turned back to the conversation to figure out what objectionable thing Uncle Ali was saying.
‘What am I more afraid of: that one day my son will get caught up in the troubles, or that he’ll never get caught up in it at all? You know, I seriously think sometimes that I should just write to my brother and…’
Karim lay back and locked the tips of his fingers in a cradle for his head, but despite his attempt at nonchalance I could see the palms of his hands pressed tight against his ears, and I could hear the humming grow louder.
‘Hey!’ I prodded him. ‘Dekho!’
Karim’s mother stepped out through the sliding glass doors of the TV room, and Karim and I exchanged raised-eyebrow looks because her hair was a shade lighter than it had been an hour earlier, bringing it to almost-chestnut. Ever since she’d found those magazines under Karim’s bed she had taken to dyeing her hair every time she tried to make an important decision regarding her son, and now she was blinking rapidly and clearing her throat, signalling that she was about to say something that she wasn’t sure she should.
‘Laila called a little while ago, just back from her honeymoon, says it was the best of the three so far. But she’s feeling a little aisay-waisay, you know, trying to settle down to life on Asif’s farm. So, and, darlings’—she turned to my parents here—‘I didn’t give an answer, because I said we must all consult, though I know what my vote is and I’m prepared to get assertive about it, but what she said was we should all come to the farm to keep her company, which is, of course, ridiculous because ad agencies and linen factories and newspaper magazines don’t just run themselves and you’ve both taken more than enough time off this year what with the trek up North and I have to be here for my cousin’s wedding, but she also said, and here’s the part that we need to talk about, she said that over the winter holidays we should send the kids to her.’
Karim and I curled our lips at each other. A farm! For God’s sake, a farm! For two smogsniffers. Karachiites, damn it, who had things planned in the city for the winter holidays. Going crabbing and hanging out at Baleji Beach and driving to the airport for coffee, the world full of possibilities now that one of our crowd — Zia — drove, and the rest of us had chipped in with birthday and Eid money to buy him a driver’s licence that claimed he was born in 1967, before the moon landing, before the Civil War of ’71, before my mother and Karim’s mother swapped fiancés and wondered why they hadn’t earlier.
‘I don’t think that’s a good idea, Maheen.’ Ami absent-mindedly pulled petals of Raat-ki-Rani off the string of white buds that held her hair in a bun, rubbed the petals between her palms and spread her hands, releasing a musky scent which would hover around her for hours. My father once swore that Ami could climb into a vat of rotting rubbish and, if there were a single gladiolus amid the mess of eggshells, mould, mango peel, chicken gizzards and last week’s dinner, Ami would emerge smelling as though she’d just sprayed on a perfume with a sense of humour.
‘Well, I think it’s a wonderful idea,’ Aunty Maheen said, drawing her tiny frame to its full height. ‘And it’s my turn to be right.’
‘But, sadly, she keeps missing her turn,’ Uncle Ali said to my father.
I started to laugh, but stopped when I saw Aba kick Uncle Ali’s chair and incline his head towards Karim. Karim was resolutely looking away from his parents. Perhaps he hadn’t even heard his father’s comment. But then he put his hand up to his cheek and I knew he did it to hide his clenched jaw. I wanted to tell him acerbity was just Uncle Ali’s manner; it didn’t mean anything. So I pulled a fistful of grass out of the ground and blew the green blades in his direction. He turned towards me when he heard me exhale, and caught a scattering of grass on his palm. I moved closer to him and started to rearrange the grass strands into a grid for noughts and crosses.
‘Oho.’ Ami clicked her tongue against the roof of her mouth. ‘You can afford to think it’s wonderful, Maheen, because you have a son, and now you’re going to force me to use the dreaded phrase “what will people say?” Suno, yaar, Karim and Raheen are almost…no, oh khuda, they are teenagers. To send the two of them alone…buss, now don’t give me that look!’
I thought she was talking to me, but it was Uncle Ali who answered. ‘Don’t be absurd, Yasmin. They’re virtually cousins. In fact, they are cousins. You and I are third cousins, so that means our children are related, too. Tell that to the gossipmongers.’
‘Hey, cuz,’ Karim said. He blew on the grass strands and they flew on to my face.
‘We’re third cousins-in-law,’ Ami said. ‘No actual blood relation. I thought you’d be on my side, Ali.’
‘I have to sit down,’ Aunty Maheen said. ‘The husband is agreeing with me.’
‘I don’t think it’ll do Karim much good to be here, the way things are now.’ Uncle Ali sipped his tea and didn’t look at his wife. I looked at Karim again. He was staring up at the sky, slipping away.
‘He’s having one of his Doomsday visions,’ Ami cut in quickly. ‘He wants the kids away from Karachi.’
‘We can’t afford to do that,’ Aba said. ‘If you send them away because it’s too dangerous, how do you justify bringing them back?’
‘It’s only for the holidays,’ Uncle Ali said. ‘They run wild during the holidays. It just won’t be much fun for them if we say they can’t go anywhere, do anything. And it’ll be a nice break for them to have all Asif’s vast acreage to frolic in.’
‘But we want to frolic at the beach,’ I objected.
‘Much too dangerous driving out all that way,’ Ami said. ‘Ali, you may have a point. There’s a lot of fun to be had at Asif’s farm. Well, there was fifteen years ago.’
When Ami said that, it seemed to me Aunty Maheen started to look at my father, then looked away and sighed. ‘Maybe things will get better by December.’ She rested her head on my mother’s shoulder. ‘When will this country learn?’
Uncle Ali leaned sideways in his chair and looked at his wife. ‘This is not history repeating itself, Maheen. A military government such as ours can never rule a country that’s united. Not for any length of time. They can’t afford to allow any group to get powerful enough to instigate a mass movement. That’s what it’s about this time.’
‘You choose to believe that all the trouble is artificially created, don’t you, Ali?’ Aunty Maheen sat up and glared at her husband. ‘That makes things much easier for all of us in our civilized drawing rooms, doesn’t it, because then it’s only about the government, or the intelligence agencies, or even the Hidden Palm?—’