Katherine, inflexibly reliving the moments of her marriage, heard the rustling in the back of the church, the clink of golden spurs - she saw the priest hesitate and stop, the leap of flattered awe in his eyes. She saw herself walk down the aisle into the Duke's arms, yielding to him her mouth, her body, her allegiance; in the presence of the husband she had sworn herself to - and in the presence of God.
Here in this church had been the beginning of two long roads, one that ended in a shabby little room in Bordeaux in a death that would not have been except for her; the other road had ended in blood and fire and madness in the Avalon Chamber. Yet were they not the same road after all?
Above in the tower the bell began to toll for vespers, and Katherine arose and pushed aside a leather curtain. It was the priest himself who hauled the rope, and he stared at her in astonishment.
"Father," said Katherine, "was it you who was priest here fifteen years ago, did you once come from Lincolnshire?"
"Ay, my daughter." He was a mousy ill-fed man with anxious darting eyes, a sickly rash on his face - and in the sparse grey hair of his tonsure. "What is it?"
"I wish to make confession to you."
Father Oswald was at once flustered. He disliked the unusual, and he tried to put Katherine off by saying that it was
Sunday, that she was not of his parish, that in any case it was time for vespers.
She replied that she would wait and looked at him with so tragic an urgency that he became still more confused, until she added in a strange voice, "I am a Swynford, Father - Katherine Swynford, Sir Hugh Swynford's widow - ay, I see that means something to you." For he started and the raw scabs on his face blended with its sudden redness. He remembered well the marriage now, it was to Swynford influence that he had owed this living twenty years ago, and he remembered the moment when the great Duke and Duchess of Lancaster had appeared in the back of his church, for he had boasted of it often.
But after vespers, when he listened through the grille to the woman's low anguished voice, he was appalled. He could scarce listen to her for fear of the things she told him, dreadful secrets that he did not wish to know. Murder of Sir Hugh, her husband - said the voice - not deliberate but murder in God's sight, a Grey Friar had said so, Brother William Appleton, who had himself been murdered. Ten years of adultery with the Duke of Lancaster resultant upon this murder. And she spoke of a child, who had been driven mad, who might be dead too.
"Cease, daughter!" said the priest at last in a trembling voice. "I cannot grant you absolution, no priest could - -"
"I know," said Katherine. " 'Tis not of my own soul I'm thinking. It is of my child's. Father, surely a merciful God will accept from me some penance that will save Blanchette, wherever she be."
"Penance - ay, what penance?" stammered the little priest, wanting only to be rid of her. Now it came clearer to his panicking mind that this woman was protected by the Duke, the Duke who was all-powerful and might remove a meddlesome priest as easily as he would squash a fly. On the other hand the Duke's great palace had been burned by the rebels and he was hated by the common folk whose vengeance also might include a priest.
"True contrition, give up your evil life, make reparation, mortify your senses - -" he gabbled quickly. "Daughter, I cannot tell you what else - go to your own priest. Go - go - -" and he pulled the shutter over the grille.
Katherine walked from the church with dragging steps. She went again down Fleet Street through Ludgate. By St. Paul's Close she stopped and gazed up at the cathedral spire. After a while she entered the huge shadowed nave and walked down it to the chantry by the Lady Chapel, where two candles burned on the little altar and shone on the serene alabaster face and the long white hands that were upraised in perpetual prayer.
Katherine knelt beside the tomb and reached out to touch one corner of the sculptured robe while she spoke to the Lady Blanche. Dearest lady - if I have wronged you too, forgive, but you know that I never meant wrong towards you, and you knew what it is to love him, as I have loved him. So forgive - and tell me how to save my child who is your namesake.
The lovely face shimmered in the dimness of the chantry, it floated, high above, pure and cool as a star. A spirit. How should it give comfort to one who had denied the spirit these long years, who had been sufficient unto herself, who had lived for nothing but her own desires?
Outside the cathedral the grey light waned and the rain blew harder. Along the choir aisles a verger passed from time to time and stared curiously at the woman in simple russet gown and goodwife's coif who wept beside the Duchess of Lancaster's tomb. At last when Paul's bell began to ling for Compline, Katherine raised her head and spoke to Blanche again. Lady, I see now that it was yet one more wickedness that I should ask you to help me. And she struggled up from her cramped knees.
Then it seemed the candlelight brightened on the alabaster features, and in Katherine's head she heard the echo of a soft voice that said, "Walsingham," while she saw the Lady Blanche's living face as it had been that Christmastide at Bolingbroke, radiant with fruition for that she bore in her womb Henry, the heir of Lancaster; and Katherine remembered what Blanche had said: "Some day you must make pilgrimage to Our Lady of Walsingham, who is especially kind and merciful to mothers-"
It was Blanchette that Katherine had borne within her as she had heard those words long years ago - and surely it was for Blanchette's sake that the Lady Blanche had given Katherine some answer at last.
Katherine remained until the following Saturday with the Pessoners, and each day searched for Blanchette. Master Guy sent forth two of his prentices to cry through the streets that there would be a reward for any information respecting a little maid of fourteen with copper-toned hair, and dark grey eyes, whose Christian name was Blanche; while Katherine herself visited the convents where the child might have taken shelter.
They went all through London and over to Southwark and as far as Westminster, but no one had seen the girl. Steeling herself and telling no one of her purpose, Katherine made yet other visits - to the stews along Bankside, where the whoremongers received this pale grave woman kindly enough when they understood that it was a mother searching for a crazed girl, but nobody knew anything of Blanchette.
On the Friday evening before Katherine's departure on pilgrimage to Walsingham, the Pessoners had an unexpected visitor.
Katherine was upstairs in the chamber above the fish-shop when Dame Emma opened the door to a knock and greeted with pleased surprise a plump little man with a forked brown beard. "Why master Geoffrey, welcome! Guy," she called over her shoulder, " 'tis Master Geoffrey Chaucer come to see us!"
Geoffrey came in with appropriate greetings, accepted a mug of ale, then said in a tone of anxious wonder, "Is it really true that Lady Swynford is here?"
"That she is, poor thing," said the fishmonger, settling down with his own ale, and preparing for a pleasant chat with the Controller of the Customs, who was an important man in London and one Master Guy respected. "Ay, Lady Katherine's here, and a fearful time she had o' it last week in the revolt. Burned out o' the Savoy she was - and her lass gone daft - or," said the fishmonger shaking his head, "dead more like. We begin to think, Emma and me, the child never got out o' the Savoy, certain 'tis there's no trace o' her. And if she did, crazed as she was and not rightly well from scarlet fever, there's little chance either. Cock's bones!" - he broke off as he saw Chaucer's change of expression - "I clean forgot the little maid was your niece."