Nay, thought Geoffrey, smiling at himself, my mind has gone a-blackberrying. And he looked at the Duke, who was now in earnest converse with Wyclif and obviously far from love-longings. It was no soft bond that linked these two, the great Duke and the reformer whose teachings now infiltrated England. This bond was indignation. Between them, though no doubt for different motives, they were agreed on debasing and despoiling the fat monks and fatter bishops who were bleeding the land.
Wyclif - so spare, so dedicated to his startling theories, of communal property, to his attacks on the Pope, to his denial of the need for confessions, saints or pilgrimages - seemed a strange colleague for Lancaster, whose orthodoxy had never been in question.
Yet they seemed to have respect for each other, thought Chaucer, and it was folly ever to listen to the slanders put out by their many enemies. The house of fame, he thought, is built on melting ice, not steel, and rumbles ever with a sound of rumours, while the goddess of fame is as false and capricious as her sister - Fortune.
Geoffrey's hand went to the pen-case that hung at his neck and, forgetting the Duke and Wyclif, his eyes darted around the Hall. Seeing no writing materials, he slipped quietly through the North door to the office of the constable. Here, as he'd hoped, a clerk was working on the castle accounts which would be submitted to the Duke's auditor tomorrow.
Geoffrey borrowed what he needed and huddling on a stool beside the clerk, noted the words, and the rhymes they presently suggested. " 'The great sound ... that rumbleth up and down, in Fame's House, full of tydings, both of fair speech and eludings, and of false and truth compound.' "
He wrote on. The verses he had had in his head for many weeks began to shape as he wished them.
That night when the guests had all retired, Katherine lay waiting between silken sheets for her lord to come. Her naked body glowed from the sweet herbs with which Hawise had cleansed her, her skin was fragrant with the amber scent, and she rejoiced that it was firm and fresh as it had ever been. She thought how the responses of this body had increased and that her passion now was equal to his, though for modesty she tried sometimes to hide it. Yet carnal love was no sin, she thought stoutly, if the love be true-hearted. A hundred romances had taught her this, and since no strict confessor exhorted her, she no longer felt the sense of sin. Brother Walter Dysse, the Carmelite friar, listened with placid indulgence to her infrequent confessions, as he did to the Duke's. And she went to Mass only as an example to the children and the castle folk.
The room grew chill in the April dawn before John came, sliding without a word into her bed while her arms closed about him hungrily; but later he did not fall asleep on her breast. He lay staring up at the shadowy bed canopy that was strewn with tiny diamond stars.
She put her hand softly on his forehead, for sometimes he liked to have her stroke his hair, but he turned his head away.
"What is it, my dear heart?" she whispered. "The Blessed Mother forfend you are not displeased with me?"
"No, no - lovedy," he drew her tight against him so that her cheek was in the hollow of his neck, but still he stared up at the canopy. He would not speak, lest the baffled rage which fermented in his soul should sound like fear.
It was Raulin, his stolid Flemish squire, who had given him a hint of what they said in London. John had listened in contempt, unmoved at first, so ridiculous were the slanders. Corruption, disloyalty, designs against his brother, the dying Prince, against little Richard, the heir apparent - this was but monkey talk, the spiteful chatter of the rabble which would never dare say these things to his face. But then Raulin went on "Another thing they visper, Your Grace - ach - such folly, 'tis not vorth repeating."
But John had commanded him to speak, knowing that he would be better armed to protect the crown for the coming fight in Parliament if he knew all their preposterous weapons.
"Some cock-and-bull tale that Your Grace is a changeling, not of royal birth."
"Bah! How feeble" - John had laughed. "Their other inventions are better. What more do they say of this? What particulars?"
" 'Tis all I heard," said Raulin, "no von beliefs it."
John had shrugged and spoken of something else, but in his stomach it was as though a cannon ball had gutted him, and his whole body trembled inwardly like that of the child who had first heard the word "changeling" nearly thirty years ago. Beneath his intercourse with others, beneath his joy at seeing Katherine, he had been trying to turn cool logic on this shameful fear. The King of Castile and Leon, the Duke of Lancaster, the most powerful man in England, to be overwhelmed by a vague whisper, to feel like a whimpering babe - cowering in terror of treachery, and injustice and loss. Last night he had dreamed of Isolda, and that he, a child again, looked up to her for comfort; but her grey eyes held naught but contempt and she sneered at him saying, "And did you believe me, my stupid lordling, when I said Pieter had lied? He did not lie, and you are hollow, empty as a blown egg, no royal meat within you."
"My dearest, what is it?" cried Katherine again, for the muscle of his arm jerked and the hand that had lain along her thigh clenched into a fist.
"Nothing, Katrine, nothing," he cried, "except I shall deal with my enemies! The hellish monks and the ribauds of London town - I'll crush them till they crawl on their bellies, snivelling for mercy; and I'll show none!"
She was frightened, for she had never heard him like this, and she said timidly, "But great men such as you, my lord, always have enemies and ever you have been above them - just and strong."
"Just and strong," he repeated with a bitter laugh. " 'Tis not that they call me - ay - do you know what they think, Katrine? They think I have no loyalty to my father and my brother. They think I plot to seize the English throne. The curse of God be on the fools!"
He shut his mouth, scowling into the darkness. His father and his brother - the idols of the nation, both feeble, ailing, moribund and at loggerheads just now. The Prince of Wales, frantic to conserve the kingdom for his son, little Richard, and to soothe the dangerous unrest of the English people, had called this Parliament and caused it to be subtly known that he would back the Commons in its attack upon the corruption around the doddering King. The Prince from his sick-bed looked to John for support in this. The King too, caring only to giggle and toy with Alice Perrers, yet looked with childish faith to John to spare him discomfort and uphold the divine rights of the crown. Mediator, scapegoat! John thought violently. I bow my head to obey them both, to fight for what they each demand, and hear myself called traitor for my pains.
Yet this injustice but bred a clean contemptuous anger, not like that other squirming shameful fear which he now subdued again, helped by the unquestioning love of the woman beside him. What use to fear a vague slander which might well have been a chance shot and a not uncommon one in history, when fears were felt for the rightful succession? Doubtless, as Raulin said, few knew of it and none believed it.
He breathed deeply and turning to Katherine, kissed her. "By Saint John, my love," he said in the light tender voice he kept for her alone, "I've been tilting with a phantom. I'll cease my folly."
She understood nothing of this, except that his dark mood had passed and that in her he found comfort.
But while he slept at last in her arms, it was as though his distress had passed to her and she suffered that there was so much of his life she did not know.
CHAPTER XVII
St. George's Day was a happy one at Kenilworth. The Duke was his gayest, his most charming.
For two days and two more nights John and Katherine knew poignant joy, poignant in that it must be so brief; then on Friday morning the horses were again assembled by the keep, and the heavy carts and wagons lined up below in the Base Court, while varlets scurried to them from the castle bearing travelling coffers.