That was as good as a bucket of ice water dumped over her head. And she realized suddenly that that was exactly his intent.
“You had no intention of joining with me here, did you?” she demanded.
“When I take you, woman, there will be a bed- one that does not move-and privacy I can be assured of.”
“Then why did you make me want you?” She fairly shouted the words in her frustration.
“You needed reminding of your true feelings, those beneath your fear. And finally you have spoken the truth. You still want me.”
“Not anymore I don’t, you farden jerk!”
She turned away from him and nearly stumbled over the two unconscious Sunderians. It occurred to her then that Falon had actually rescued her, come to her aid when she desperately needed it- or thought she did. She still didn’t know what Lanar had intended doing, not that it mattered now. But because of her, Shanelle was back where she started, stuck with a man impossible to handle or reason with, and who got his point across in ways she wasn’t likely to ever forget. She would definitely like to repay that Sunderian witch for that.
Falon’s latest “point” was still affecting her. If he would touch her now in an intimate manner, she’d probably melt all over him, and that absolutely infuriated her. How dared he do that to her, make her want him and then not do anything about it…? Oh, Stars, that was one of the reasons she hadn’t wanted a Kan-is-Tran warrior for her lifemate, the very thing Tedra suffered whenever Challen found it necessary to punish her! It hadn’t been as bad, certainly. She hadn’t been brought to the screaming point. But she had still just been treated to what she had thought Ba-Har-ani warriors didn’t practice.
She swung around now to glare at Falon, and found him holding out her clothes to her. She snatched them from him, grateful that it was a Kystrani outfit, which went on as quickly as it could be removed.
But the suspicion that had occurred to her wouldn’t go away, and the moment she was finished covering her nakedness, she demanded, “Were you punishing me, warrior?”
“When it is time for the punishing, you will not be in doubt that you have received it.”
She stared at him, not sure what to think, but still too angry to be afraid or cautious. “And what makes you think I will accept your punishment, whatever it is? As far as I’m concerned, I haven’t done anything to deserve it.”
Falon lifted a dark brow. “Then you had your father’s permission to leave Sha-Ka’an?”
“I had my mother’s permission,” she replied with a great deal of triumph.
“Which she likely has been made to regret the giving of by now.”
Shanelle paled. Why hadn’t it occurred to her that Tedra would end up catching the brunt of Challen’s displeasure? Her mother must have known it, and still Tedra had let her take Martha, the very thing that would prove to Challen that Tedra had helped Shanelle leave.
“I think I’m beginning to hate you, Falon Van’yer,” she said between gritted teeth.
She’d managed to get a frown out of him. “Best you know now that I will not tolerate this habit you have for stating untruths.”
She frowned right back at him. “That wasn’t an untruth. In fact, I no longer think it, I’m quite sure now I definitely am beginning to hate you. And best you know that any habits I have I’m keeping, with or without your approval, which I don’t give a damn whether I have or not. Stick that in your boots and suck on it, why don’t you?”
She held her ground as he approached her. Nor did she flinch when his hand lifted, though it was only to take her chin to raise it so she couldn’t avoid his eyes. And those eyes weren’t blazing with anger, but were merely thoughtful as they gazed down at her.
“It is interesting how you deal with frustration, Shanelle.”
“I’m furious, not frustrated,” she retorted hotly. “There is a difference.”
“You are upset” he stressed, “because I did not see to your need.”
“Don’t flatter yourself,” she snorted. “What you made me feel was next to nothing and forgotten already.”
“Again you give me untruths. Shall I prove it?”
She tried to step back from him, but his grip tightened. She swallowed her pride and whispered, “No,” then was amazed to hear him confess.
“I could not prove it, not without taking you right now, for my need exceeds yours, kerima. I want you so much I hurt with it. Yet to hear you admit that you wanted me is worth any pain. Nor could I have refrained from touching you to assure myself you are real-and mine. Do not begrudge me that, and the small discomfort it has caused you. Easier would it have been to stop breathing than to keep my hands from you.”
Why did he have to say things like that? If she hadn’t been frustrated, she was now, in having to stomp down the unwanted emotions his confession caused, and not succeeding completely. The pleasure she felt from his words just wouldn’t go away.
And then it hit her, that what he was feeling, he was in control of, and obviously much better than she was. He was controlling his passion!
How dared he do that, get rid of one of her prime objections to him? How was she supposed to stand firm in her resolve when he did things like that? But everything else was still there, enough to convince her she still couldn’t be completely happy with such a thoroughly domineering male. He was going to try and change her. He’d already said so. And she’d have pain and humiliation waiting for her every time she did the slightest thing wrong. No way was she going to meekly accept that. And he still hadn’t proved that he wouldn’t lose his control in a crucial moment, only that he was getting better at it.
That managed to squash the pleasure she’d been feeling, and back came the anger, that she’d let his words affect her at all. She knocked his hand aside and moved away from him before she insisted, “I’m not experiencing any discomfort, warrior, just disappointment that you’ve found me, which you can’t do anything about unless you disappear the way you came-without me.”
He made a sound that was very close to exasperation. “I will break you of this need you have for telling untruths, woman; this I promise you. Yet do we have other things between us that must be attended to first.”
“A reprieve?” she shot back dryly. “How fortunate can I get?”
“Shanelle-” he began in an unmistakable warning tone.
But she cut him off before she got another promise she didn’t like. “If one of those things is to get out of here, the door happens to be locked. So you’ll have to ask that traitor who Transferred you here for assistance-which reminds me. If you’re listening, Brock, and I know you must be, I hope Martha never speaks to you again. I know I certainly won’t.”
“You are angry with your father’s computer?” Falon asked with some definite amusement lacing his tone now.
“I’m angry at every male under creation, but don’t worry about it. I’ll only take it out on you.”
He suddenly laughed. “This I am pleased to know. It would prove tiring if I must fight every male you offend.”
“And what happens when I offend you?”
“This you must find out firsthand.”
It figures, you farden jerk, but she said that only to herself.
Chapter 29
It didn’t take long at all for Shanelle to realize that Falon had no intention of asking for Brock’s assistance to get them out of there. His careful examination of the locked door proved it.
“Transferring would be quicker,” Shanelle finally pointed out.
Falon didn’t turn around to reply, “Transferring will wait until it is absolutely necessary.”
And that told her that the big brave warrior had a definite aversion to Transferring, which she would have found amusing if she weren’t still so angry. She moved to his side to complain, “We’re stuck in here behind a locked door. You don’t consider that necessary?”