8
A heavy footfall up the stairs, the tight end making no secret of his coming. Lance supposed he could dispatch him with a well-timed scissor kick-his years of study under Master Dao should not be wasted-but just in case, he reached into his desk drawer for his insurance policy.
His 9 mm Beretta was gone!
April Wu spun toward him, smiling, the Beretta aimed low, horizontal with his testicles.
“So you’re with them,” Lance said.
“Loyalty is a delusion, trust but a false mirror.”
The hallway door crashed open. It wasn’t the tight end, it was…Cudworth Brown! Furious, stomping toward him, fists balled. “You sold me out!”
April Wu’s bullet tore a hole through his bent nose. Cud gazed at her stupefied for a moment, then slumped to the floor.
“He had bad chi,” she said. “So do you.”
The pistol was aimed at Lance again!
“It was you all along,” he said.
“I am but one of many.” She barked. “Hand me the manuscript!”
Trash this page!
Flush this manic excursus, a digression from a plot barely coherent to start with. He was wandering off in every direction like a lunatic lost on the sanatorium grounds. Insanatorium grounds.
Point proved, however: When sober, as he was now, nauseated, shaking, skin prickling with the coca-Joneses, Brian wrote crap. If this is what abstinence wreaks on a single Christmas afternoon, what kind of hell would several days of it promise? But he’ll soldier on, stay off the stuff a while, supplies were low.
He must start this chapter over, seek inspiration from the fountain of truth. April Wu will keep her day job at Pomeroy and company but will no longer moonlight at the Valentine Agency-it’s gone out of business. Goodbye, Lance, you arrogant ponce. Live happily ever after, Cud Brown-for you, the rustic embattled poet, are the true hero of this tragedy, its true victim.
Suddenly I’m dining at the best tables, me, Cudworth Brown, scion of an unemployed miner, formerly of the working class myself, surviving on grants and a piddly-ass disability pension. So don’t be surprised I never seen a dinner like that one.
It started off with jumbo shrimp on cracked ice with some wafers and what I guessed was real caviar, though I didn’t want to be naive by asking. And those were only the starters, the whore doovers, as we say on Garibaldi.
I figured the sockeye salmon was the main course, I even took an extra offering, and I was sitting back, thinking about dessert, and suddenly the caterers were bringing out tenderloins and asparagus and baby carrots, new cutlery, the works; it was like the feast had just begun. Man, I was glad I smoked a doobie on the ferry-it gave me the appetite to pound the chow down. I didn’t want it to go to waste; they weren’t handing out doggie bags.
Before I forget, let me go back, there were drinks first, martinis or wine, you had a choice, they were coming around on trays. “Please mingle,” Judge Whynet-Moir said. Mingle. Decoded, he was telling his friends to check out the hick in the red braces. One of these poshes, Shiny Shoes, I call him, some kind of downtown rainmaker, tried to fluff me off. “A peace medallion-I hadn’t realized they were back in fashion.” I told him I also got one tattooed on my ass.
I didn’t mingle, I wasn’t comfortable with all these pooh-bahs. Talked to the other two writers. One came dressed in a sari. She wrote right-wing political commentary, so she was right at home here. The other was Lynn Tinkerson, a dyke who is what they call an important writer, and I told her I intend to read one of her novels.
The table was set with little place cards, a practice I’ve never encountered in four and a half decades of hard living. Rafael Whynet-Moir had done the guy-girl-guy-girl thing and put himself at the far end of the table between the two lady guest writers.
Sitting on my right was a wrinkle-free woman with a ten-inch smile who’d obviously been in the shop for renovations once too often. She told me she’d never met a poet and wanted to know all about it. I was feeling rosy after a couple or three martinis washed down by a fine, crisp Bordeaux, and I told her how during misty shoreline walks my muse would rescue me from the heartsickness of wounded love.
Meanwhile, I am playing left-leg footsie with Florenza LeGrand, Flo she likes to be called. She’d kicked off her sandals, was casually running her toes up my leg. Judge Whynet-Moir would look our way occasionally, smiling, but I read a warning in his eyes.
Sometimes Flo also played handsie, squeezing mine under the big table spread, touching my thigh. I didn’t know she had a rep, I didn’t know anything about her-but I knew the type. Spoiled daughter of the rich, flirts with danger, likes to smoke, drink, and get laid, in no particular order. I was looking forward to tupping a member of the ruling class; she’s rich beyond belief. She might be persuaded to set up a starving poets endowment fund.
You changed my life- that seemed like hoke. I figured she just wanted to bang me. There’s an image in Karmageddon of me eating hair pie, maybe that got to her, but I wasn’t sure it was me made her horny or if she was horny all the time. Her consort kind of answered that question when you saw him over there, tittering with the ladies in his overattentive way. You’ve got to figure Judge Whynet-Moir doesn’t have hair on his ass.
The cosmetic surgery victim to my right asked, “And when did you first decide to become a poet?”
“Madam,” I said, “I was born a poet. We are all born poets. Our first word is poetry. Ma-ma, da-da. Rhyme at its most basic but beautiful to a mother’s ear.” I was doing this mindless rap, with her hanging on every word. “You been there, eh, you got kids?”
“I have,” she said in a kind of heart-fluttery way while, from the other direction, toes were wiggling up my pant-leg.
I went on about how we have to dig through the garbage of our lives to rediscover the poetic talent God gave us at birth. “It got buried in organized religion and spreadsheets and ads for SUVs and all the other shit capitalism throws at you.”
She sat back; it was like I’d slapped her. As the waiter was topping up my Bordeaux, I was thinking I better pull in my ears, slow down. I’d promised my publisher I’d behave myself and not go around ticking off patrons of the arts.
I had to endure Mr. Sarcasm, Shiny Shoes, who was across from me, giving me this, “One of your claims to fame, I believe, involved some extended tree-sitting a couple of years ago.”
Entertain me, clown. Tell me a rollicking story. I said something back to him, I can’t remember. Before we got to the point of tangling asses, Whynet-Moir stood up to toast the celebrities. I drank along with everyone before remembering I wasn’t supposed to.
I got to admit there was a certain class anger at work here. This is how the rich live. Cooked to, catered to, and coddled, while my folks spent their whole lives on the wrong side of the tracks in a depressed mining town and could barely afford pork and beans. And I felt even shittier because I’d been given the role of royal jester, I was being used, patronized, and the hostess planned to use me as her fuck-servant.
And I was willing.
Flo was getting bolder with each refill of her wine-her fingers were no longer grazing, they were sliding up my thigh. I whispered, “Is this cool? I hope your old man doesn’t keep a loaded Magnum in a drawer.”
She came close, her breath hot in my ear. “Don’t worry, he’s a lousy shot.”