“I know, Da, I know,” I say, pulling away from the table. “Season’s over already. Last team to win the Super Bowl with a backup quarterback was the seventy-two Dolphins. Can’t be done.”
“Exactly” he says as I actually run down the hall, “and who’d want to be those jerks?”
Just like yesterday. Right down to the jerks.
I practically crash through the front door, so anxious to get my hands on today and bring it back for my grandfather to read. I rip the door open, and find the paper’s not lying where it’s supposed to be.
And it’s not stolen either. Not exactly.
“Daniel,” Mr. Largs says awkwardly. “Jeez, you startled me.”
Da’s old workmate, carpooler, whatever, is standing there with our newspaper. He stops in once every few weeks to have a look at the Old Boy. I never could figure out if I liked Mr. Largs or not. Some days yes, some days no.
I don’t like surprises at breakfast, though.
“Why are you here?” I ask him.
“I’m not,” he says, walking past me when Da barks for him.
It’ll be a no-like day, then.
I get Mr. Largs a cup of coffee and a bran muffin. Then sit at the table with the men. Hard to tell why Largs has come by just now, as he doesn’t seem to have much to talk about. Mostly he’s eating and listening.
Maybe that’s because Da is in a talking mood.
“Beer, Largs?” Da asks.
“Cam?” Largs says, startled. Cam was Da’s work nickname. “It’s only nine thirty, pal?”
“Yes,” Da says, all crafty-coot, “but it’s afternoon in Europe. Remember the real-beer tour, Largs? Huh? Jeez, we had some fine beers on that trip. All the best local stuff, Daniel. We had Guinness in Dublin, Dinkelacker in Berlin, oh my, and everything in Brussels…”
You know how you can just tell when someone is looking at you even if you cannot see them? I turn to see Largs snap away from staring at me.
“That wasn’t me, Cam,” he says coolly.
“Of course it was. We drank Brains in Cardiff! Remember how much we laughed at that? Drinking Brains in Cardiff?” Long, thin smile slashes Da’s face.
Sounds like something my grandfather would laugh at.
Largs laughs. “Ah, you mad old hatter. I never went on such a trip.”
Da’s smile melts, as Largs reaches across the table. He takes hold of Da’s wrist, causes him to see the brass bracelet with MEMORY LOSS engraved across it for all the world to see. “We’re all getting a little forgetful these days, Cam. I mean, you had the best memory of anyone I ever worked with… ever. So what chance do I have, huh?” He laughs, alone. “I’m heading to retirement myself in a year or two. Already forgetting left and right.”
Da is now staring at the MedicAlert bracelet.
“We drank Maccabee in Tel Aviv,” Da says weakly.
“We drank Bud in St. Louis,” Largs says, chipper as hell. “We were purely domestic, Cam, you know that.”
I hate this. I hate this. The memory loss, of course. The low-level unpleasantness that is with us now, because of the conflict of stories? I hate this.
Largs knows better. Why does he have to win? Why can’t he just fudge and fade his way through a simple stupid exchange, the way people do every day anyway? Why do we need what we’re getting here?
Mostly, what is so awful is Da’s realization. His unrealization. He knows something is wrong, but he cannot be sure what it is. Like he’s fighting somebody in the dark.
Mostly more, even, is that I cannot stand to see him back on his heels. That’s it. That’s what it is for me. My Da always has the upper hand. Always had it. To see him so clearly not in charge is excruciating. And it wouldn’t even matter who had the facts straight, because either way, Largs is manhandling him.
It hurts.
“Sorry to rush you,” I say to Mr. Largs.
“Huh?” he says.
“We kind of had plans for this morning,” I say, standing up to see him out. This is not normally my way. I have been taught respect. I have been taught deference and politeness, often giving these things to people I knew didn’t deserve them. I have been taught to treat people the right way because, whatever you might be thinking about the person right in front of you, your manners are really offered to the people who taught them to you.
But I was never prepared for having to look out for my almighty Da. I was never prepared for the thought of needing to.
I have not even given Mr. Largs a chance to respond to my words before I am leading him away from my table and toward the exit.
“Okay, then, Cam,” says a befuddled Largs, backing out of the kitchen. “I’ll stop by again soon.”
Da is still examining his bracelet, silent and consumed and possibly unaware he has had a visitor.
“Call first,” I say to Largs, on the threshold of impolite, but not over it yet. I hold the door open for him.
Da is looking up at me when I re-enter the kitchen. He has his hand open, palm up, gesturing toward the mysterious piece of jewelry on his wrist.
“It’s because of your memory, Da,” I say. And because I always relished the challenge of making him laugh, and the thrill when I succeeded, I add, “Your memory, Old Boy, remember your memory?”
For a flickering few, he looks even more perplexed than before. Then he crinkles me a smile.
“I remember, Young Man,” he says, and I can see that for now, he does.
It is a funny thing, one that I wrestle with every day now, the notion that he is required to remember that he forgets. A big cosmic joke, that one.
“Did you say we had plans?” Da asks me.
“I did,” I say.
“What plans were those, Young Man?”
He has always called me Young Man. Just not this frequently. He never forgets Young Man.
“The races of course, Old Boy.”
“The races.”
“The horses.”
Da loves the horses. I love the horses with him.
“The horses. Today?”
“First race goes off at twelve fifteen, Da. We need to get cracking if we are going to do this the right way. Right? The racing form, the grandstand…”
“And the first of the day,” he says, beaming, finishing our standard statement of purpose.
“The Triple Crown of earthly pleasure on a sunny day,” I say, pointing at the author of the phrase, him.
A horse, a beer, my grandfather, and a full race card. That to me is an embarrassment of riches. The fact that since I’m not strictly old enough and Da has to smuggle me the beer only adds to the fun. So much so that when my folks offered to throw a party for my high school graduation a month ago, I thanked them politely and opted instead to spend the evening after the ceremony at the track with the Old Boy.
I promised myself, anyway. With this being my last summer home before college in September. With this summer being different, in every way, practically every day, regarding Da. I promised myself we were going to be together just as much as I could manage it.
We are going together. This summer, the last summer. Everywhere, together.
He loves stuff. He’s never been a big drinker, but he loves a beer. He loves the sweaty musculature of a racehorse. He loves the awful smell of the race-day crowd that can make even the horses wince. He loves experience, and to be with him when he’s at it is to be splashed with all the overspill of his spirit.
He is a human great-day-out, my Da.
In a few minutes he is back from his room and all zipped up in his racing colors. Though they are not all that colorful. His pea-green tweed flattop cap, almost-matching baggy pants, button-down white shirt, gray jacket with lots of pockets-like a fishing vest with arms.
Still, he manages to look dapper as hell.
We are off to the races.
The sun is brilliant, and we are settled into the bleachers with a beer between us and a likewise shared racing form.