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Things were already getting back to normal.

Jerry’s bad timing was matched by his choice of bad location. He’d insisted on the Pioneer, all the way up in Ketchum, rather than any one of the good eateries in Hailey. But the Pioneer was Kevin’s favorite. And Kevin wasn’t about to fight it. Not now, anyway.

Kevin was stitched up at St. Luke’s and moved to a private room, where he slept six hours before being discharged to his mother’s care. Myra had been uncommonly quiet throughout the ordeal. It had taken Walt several hours to realize she’d been praying.

For his part, Walt spent most of Sunday on the telephone and in meetings. Dog tired, he finally called a joint press conference with the FBI, emphasizing the success resulting from cooperation between his office and their agency. In a strange, almost surreal, twist, the FBI fielded nearly all of the questions. In the end, according to the wording of the official statement, it was a “well-choreographed, jointly operated raid that had resulted in the safe recovery of assets.” By assets, he meant the two teenagers.

The dinner itself was painful. Forced but enthusiastic conversation through the salad course when Myra, fueled by white wine with ice, made a reference to Bobby that had silenced the table.

“I am so done with that,” Kevin said.

Walt didn’t know if it was his nephew or the painkillers talking.

“Excuse me?” Jerry said.

“My dad, the family’s inability to get past his death and remember his life. I don’t want to remember that day, I want to remember all the days that came before it. I mean, come on, people.”

Kevin caught his grandpa’s startled expression and turned his attention to a baked potato the size of a football. But then something happened that Walt definitely attributed to the painkillers: Kevin lifted his head and bravely entered into a staring contest with the senior Fleming.

“The thing is,” Kevin said, “I was the one that found him… suicide or no suicide-”

At this, Jerry rose several inches in his chair.

“Oh, yeah, I know all about that,” Kevin said. “But I don’t care how he died, I care how he lived. He was a good dad. Maybe not as smart as Uncle Walt or as brave as you, but that only made him different, not bad.”

Myra had buried her face in her napkin and her shoulders were shaking. Walt reached over and placed his hand on her back, and she sagged toward him.

“And I’m sick of no one ever talking about him. You all act like he never existed, and that’s just not going to work for me. He was there with me today.”

He stabbed at the potato, then set down the fork.

“I dropped that gun because of him, and I don’t know if that was a good thing or a bad thing. But I’m not pretending anymore that he never existed.” Kevin looked around at each of them. “So all of you had better get used to it.”

Definitely, it was the painkillers, because his statement was followed by a devilish grin that he fought to conceal but couldn’t. And then, inexplicably, he began to laugh-a small laugh, at first, a chuckle. But it grew inside him and then spread like a virus around the table until everyone, including Jerry, was laughing. The uncontrolled group laugh drew the attention of the crowded restaurant. They were laughing about a dead man and everybody was watching them, noticing them. It was a laugh that made Jerry proud.

Before heading back down the valley to the now-open bridge, Kevin asked if they could stop by work for a minute, meaning the Sun Valley Lodge. Walt knew damn well he had no intention of talking to the boss, who wouldn’t be there at eight o’clock on a Sunday night anyway. But Walt dropped Kevin off while he and Myra waited silently in the Cherokee, Myra not knowing what to say and for once not trying to.

Then her shoulders began shaking again, and she reached into her purse and fished out a tissue, cleaning herself up.

“Thank you,” she whispered hoarsely.

“No problem,” Walt said, looking out the windshield at the hotel’s reddish façade, thinking briefly of Hemingway as he always did no matter how many times he visited the lodge. He pushed his anger over Teddy Sumner back, having no idea how or even if the law would ever catch up to him. Cantell was dead, and quite possibly so was the connection between the two. Walt had a couple of interview tapes he needed to decide what to do with.

Kevin came out of the lodge a few minutes later. Despite having his arm in a sling, he seemed to be walking taller. He had a confident, almost smug expression on his face as he climbed into the back.

“Everything okay?” Walt said.

“We’re good,” Kevin said.

“We’re good,” said Myra, unable to control her tears.

“Mom, get over it,” said Kevin. “She’s just a friend.”

Myra’s shoulders continued to shake but now with laughter. She was laughing into her tissue and looking over at Walt, her teary eyes filled with utter amazement.

90

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sme. u? WYCM?

Kevin responded to the “Will you call me?” by immediately dialing her number.

“Hey,” she said. She sounded so close all of a sudden.

“Hey,” he said. “How’s the tennis?”

“Haven’t played.”

“You should.”

“You sound like my father.”

“How is he?”

“The same. In big trouble. I may have to live with my aunt, or something. It sucks.” A silence crossed the line. She filled it. “No big deal.”

“I… I think about you all the time.”

“Yeah. Me too,” she said. “My shrink says that’s part of it.”

“Mine says I’m supposed to move on. Right… Not going to happen.”

“We’re coming up there.”

“Here?”

“Yeah. Some kind of hearing or something.”

“I don’t think I’ll ever fly again,” he said. “That’s what I dream about: those flames.”

“My dad, he cried like a baby,” she said. “Apologizing. As if that’s going to change it. Said how he screwed it all up. I said: Duh!”

“My uncle says people do weird stuff when they’re cornered.”

“Don’t go defending him,” she said.

“You’ve got to forgive him,” Kevin said.

“No way.”

“Way,” he said. “So he goes to jail, so what? Maybe you could live up here or something. Maybe it all works out.”

“Yeah, like that’s going to happen.”

“It might,” Kevin said.

Silence.

“So, will I see you when you’re up here?” he asked.

“If you’re looking for me,” she said.

He tried to follow the shrink’s advice and just say what came to his mind, but it wasn’t as easy as she made out, and he heard himself whisper, “The thing is… I think about you all the time. I feel like-”

“Shut up,” she said. “I love you too. BFF.”

Best friends forever.

Kevin swallowed, trying to regain his voice. “No… not for me. It’s more than that, more than BFF.”

“Yeah, I know,” she confessed.

He felt good all of a sudden. Incredibly good. “I’m going to see you when you’re up here.”

“Duh!”

He thought he heard her crying. Only a few seconds later, mumbling some excuse about needing to be somewhere, she hung up.

Kevin held the phone in his hand, staring at it. He remembered calling his uncle from the back of the jet as it took off. He remembered leaving the phone by the chimney of the lodge and his uncle telling him how it had helped track him to the ranch. He considered calling the cowboy and thanking him for everything he’d done. He’d been invited to spend time at the lodge and to fish or white-water raft, and he thought maybe that would be a fun thing to do with his uncle. But he wasn’t going to fly in. If they ever went back there, they would have to hike it.