Julie Garwood
Killjoy
For Mary K. Wahlstedt Murphy, my sister and my friend.
With your steady strength, your quiet grace,
and your wonderful sense of humor,
you make the world a better place.
Prologue
Avery Elizabeth Delaney's mother was a frickin' maniac.
Fortunately her mother, Jilly, left for parts unknown just three days after Avery was born.
Avery was raised by her grandmother Lola and her aunt Carrie. The three generations of females lived quietly and modestly in
a two-story frame house on Barnett Street just two blocks from the city square in Sheldon Beach, Florida. The atmosphere on Barnett Street was vastly different after Jilly left home. The household, which had once been in a constant uproar, was now peaceful. Carrie even learned to laugh again, and for five wonderful years, life was very nearly idyllic.
The previous years with Jilly had taken their toll on Grandma Lola, however. She hadn't become a mother until she was almost
old enough to begin the change of life, and she was an old, tired woman now. The day Avery turned five, Lola began having
chest pains. She could barely get the icing on the child's birthday cake without having to sit down and rest a spell.
Lola didn't tell anyone about her problem, and she didn't see her regular doctor in Sheldon Beach because she didn't trust him to keep quiet about his findings. He might just take it upon himself to tell Carrie about her illness. She made an appointment with a cardiologist in Savannah and drove all the way there to see him. After giving her a complete physical, his diagnosis was grim. He prescribed medication that would ease the pain and help her heart, told her she had to slow down, and also, as gently as he could, suggested that she get her affairs in order.
Lola disregarded his advice. What did that quack of a doctor know about anything? She may have one foot in the grave but, by God, she was going to keep the other firmly planted on the ground. She had a granddaughter to raise, and she wasn't going anywhere until she got the job done.
Lola was an expert at pretending everything was fine. She'd perfected the art during the turbulent years trying to control Jilly.
By the time she got home from Savannah, she had convinced herself that she was as healthy as an ox.
And that was that.
Grandma Lola refused to talk about Jilly, but Avery wanted to know everything she could about the woman. Whenever she asked a question about her mother, her grandmother would pucker her lips and always answer the same way. "We wish her well. We wish her well away." Then, before Avery could try again, her grandmother would change the subject. And that, of course, wasn't a satisfactory answer, especially for a curious five-year-old.
The only way Avery could find out anything about her mother was to ask her aunt. Carrie loved to talk about Jilly, and she never forgot a single one of the bad things her sister had ever done, which, as it turned out, added up to a considerable number.
Avery idolized her aunt. She thought she was the most beautiful woman in the whole world, and she wished more than anything that she looked like her instead of her no-good mama. Carrie had hair the exact color of Grandma's homemade peach jam and eyes more gray than blue, like the furry white cat
Avery had seen colored pictures of in one of her storybooks. Carrie was constantly on a diet to lose twenty pounds, but Avery thought she was perfect just the way she was. At five feet six inches, Carrie was tall and glamorous, and when she put on one of her glittery barrettes to keep her hair out of her eyes while she was studying or working around the house, she looked just like a princess. Avery loved the way her aunt smelled too, like gardenias. Carrie told Avery it was her signature fragrance, which Avery knew had to be special. When Carrie was away from home and Avery was feeling lonely, she would sneak into her bedroom and squirt some of the special perfume on her arms and legs and pretend her aunt was there in the next room.
What Avery loved most about Carrie, though, was that she talked to her like she was a big person. She didn't treat her like a baby the way Grandma Lola did. When Carrie spoke about Avery's no-good mama, Jilly, she always began by saying in her no-nonsense tone of voice, "I'm not going to sugarcoat the truth just because you're little. You've got a right to know."
One week before Carrie moved to California, Avery went into her bedroom to help her pack. She kept getting in the way, and when Carrie had had enough, she sat her niece down at her vanity table and placed a shoe box filled with cheap costume jewelry in front of her. She'd collected the baubles at neighborhood garage sales as a present to give to Avery before she left. The little girl was thrilled with the sparkling treasures and immediately began to primp in front of the oval mirror.
"How come you got to go all the way to California, Carrie? You're supposed to stay home with Grandma and me."
Carrie laughed. "I'm 'supposed to'?"
"That's what Peyton says her mama says. Peyton says her mama says you already went to college and now you're supposed
to stay home and help take care of me 'cause I'm a handful."
Peyton was Avery's best friend, and because she was a year older, Avery believed everything she said. In Carrie's opinion, Peyton's mother, Harriet, was a busybody, but she was nice to Avery, and so Carrie put up with her occasionally butting into family business.
After folding her favorite, baby blue, angora sweater and placing it inside the suitcase, Carrie once again tried to explain why
she was leaving.
"I've gotten that grant, remember? I'm going to get my master's, and I know I already explained at least five times why the
extra schooling is important. I have to go, Avery. It's a wonderful opportunity for me, and after I've started my own company
and I've become rich and famous, then you and Grandma will come and live with me. We'll have a big house in Beverly Hills
with servants and a swimming pool."
"But then I can't take my piano lessons, and Mrs. Burns says I have to 'cause I've got ears."
Since her niece sounded so serious, Carrie didn't dare laugh. "She said you've got the ear, and that means that if you practice,
you could be good, but you can take piano lessons in California. You could take karate lessons there too."
"But I like taking karate here. Sammy says I'm getting stronger with my kicking, but you know what, Carrie? I heard Grandma
tell Peyton's mama she doesn't like me taking karate. She says it isn't ladylike."
"Too bad," Carrie said. "I'm paying for the lessons, and I want you to grow up knowing how to defend yourself."
"But how come?" Avery asked. "Peyton's mama asked Grandma how come too."
"Because I don't want anyone to be able to push you around the way Jilly used to push me," she said. "You're not going to grow
up being afraid. And I'm sure there are wonderful self-defense schools in California with teachers just as nice as Sammy."
"Peyton's mama says that Grandma said Jilly went away to be a movie star. Do you want to be a movie star too, Carrie?"
"No, I want to build a company and make tons of money. I'll make other people stars."
Avery turned back to the mirror and clipped on a pair of fat green rhinestone earrings. Then she untangled the matching necklace and put it around her neck. "You know what else Peyton said?" She didn't wait for a reply. "She says her mama says when Jilly had me, she was old enough to know better."
"That's right," Carrie answered. She pulled out her sock drawer, dumped the contents on the bed, and began to match the pairs. "Jilly was eighteen."
"But what did Peyton's mama mean? How come she should know better?"