He rambles on, all grumble and gripe. Veronica's brilliant trick is to shoot him in such a way that after a while you don't believe a word he says. This old man is one repellent flop of a human being. Why would you want to hear, much less trust, his opinion on anything?
Off camera, Veronica asks, "Why aren't you proud that one of your former students went on to become a world-famous writer?"
Tresvant sneers. "One should never take credit for participating in mediocrity." He looks away and takes another bite of toast. More crumbs fall. A small piece sticks to the corner of his mouth. He doesn't notice. The camera lingers on him. It is lethal because everything about this man – his pretentious tone, the dingy robe and unshaven face – exudes nothing but mediocrity.
"Would you like to hear what Bayer said about you?" Veronica's voice is emotionless.
Which stops the old pedant in midchew. His toast goes down and the eyes narrow. You can see he thought she was just going to let him pontificate and throw all the punches. Not so, lago.
But right there the film blacks out! What the hell did Bayer say about Tresvant?
The picture comes back up. I'm in a hotel room, pulling on a pair of pink socks. When we traveled together, Veronica carried a small video camera with her everywhere. I never paid attention after the first days because it seemed to be her third eye – she was always filming something.
Socks on, I sit back and smile. "School? The only thing I learned there was what I didn't like. That's what school's for – it teaches you what to avoid the rest of your life. Cell mitosis, calculus, the complete works of George Bernard Shaw . . . things like that."
Cut to a horse-drawn carriage, clopping down Vienna's Ringstrasse. I knew that beautiful street from one of my many honeymoons – this time with Cassandra's mother.
I had casually mentioned to Veronica that both sides of my family came from Vienna. She remembered. She found great-uncle Klaus and his adorable fat wife, Suzy. They gave her an inspired guided tour of the Bayer family's Vienna. The stories they told, the sights she chose to show, the way she segued from one thing to another – all of it was riveting.
From the top of St. Stephen's Church they talked about the Bayer who had helped rebuild the cathedral roof after it was destroyed by Allied bombing at the end of World War II. Over dinner of Tafelspitz at the King of Hungary Hotel, they described the distant cousin who had been Gustav Mahler's favorite tailor.
Any family memoir is a flock of small stories that periodically collide with history's propellers. The Bayers were no different. Although I was nominally the subject of her film, Veronica chose to paint a much larger, more panoramic picture. By cutting back and forth across time, across continents, from the astonishing to the forgettable, she was able to paint one of those gigantic canvases that portray whole battles, or the building of the Tower of Babel, a day in the life of a great city.
When the story returned to me and my life, she interviewed people and showed events I had forgotten long ago. I kept blinking or gasping, "That's right! God, I forgot all about that." I was spellbound throughout, and not just because it was my own life on the screen. She chose a narrative line so precise and encompassing that the result was the most thorough and loving biography any person could ever hope for. It saddened me because it brilliantly displayed a side of Veronica Lake I had never seen but could only admire. How I wished things had gone differently between us. Here was a great love letter. Tragically, it was created by a woman who came as close to scaring me as any intimate I had ever known.
Frannie watched as I ferried back and forth from my car to the house, carrying boxes and bags full of mysterious things I hoped would rouse him from his thousand-year sleep.
At a good market in my town I had bought a large array of groceries, hoping he'd take one look at the bounty on his kitchen counter and be inspired to help me cook a few fabulous meals.
After my third trip, he followed me out to the car in his pajamas.
"What is all this?"
"Resurrection soup."
"What do you mean?" He put both arms behind his back. Standing there shrunken in his wrinkled pajamas and flyaway hair he looked like an alumni from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest.
I hoisted a jumbo bag of groceries out of the trunk. "Frannie, have you noticed I'm busting my ass here lugging these groceries? How 'bout throwing on a robe and joining the process?"
Once we'd gotten everything into the kitchen, I pushed him out and said he could come back when I was ready. It took a while because the look and presentation had to be both dramatic and inspiring. I did my best. When it was done, I thought it looked pretty damned spiffy.
A few minutes before, the telephone rang but I barely heard it. Coming out of the kitchen, I heard him laughing very loudly. I was thrilled when I got him to answer anything with a full sentence. Who could reach him to laugh like that?
He was alone talking on his portable phone, wearing a big happy smile. He waved when he saw me and held up a finger for me to wait a second. "Here's the man, fresh out of the kitchen. He's doing something mysterious in there and won't let me see. You wanna talk to him?" He put his hand over the mouthpiece and said, "It's Veronica."
My eyebrows went up as far as they could go. The only contact I'd had with her in weeks was the videotape from Vienna. He pulled the phone away from his ear, as if whoever was on the other end of the line was shouting at him.
"All right, all right, take it easy, Veronica! You don't have to talk to him. What? Yeah, okay. Bye." He pressed the disconnect button and dropped the phone into his robe pocket. "Whoa! What did you do to the girl? She totally freaked out."
I tried to speak calmly. "Frannie, Veronica called you?"
"Sure she has, every day. She's been as nice as you since I've been sick, Sam. Comes by, cooks, calls . . . She's a good woman. I'm sorry things haven't been working out between you two."
"She comes and cooks for you? Why didn't you tell me this?"
"Because she asked me not to. That's her right. I gotta respect it. Besides, she's been so kind to me, you can't believe –"
I put up a denying hand. "How did she know you were shot?"
"She was going to interview me for your movie, but then it happened. Been watching over me ever since. I got all these guardian angels around me these days. I'm a lucky guy."
"McCabe, if you knew some of the things about Veronica that I know, you'd arrest her."
"What, the thing about cutting your pen in two? She told me! I laughed my ass off. Sam, the woman's a bucking bronco. She knows that, and that's probably why you like her, if you'll just admit it to yourself. You can't have everything safe and comfy when you're with her. That's part of her attraction."
I looked at the floor and told myself several times that this was a sick man who needed gentle treatment. "Come in the kitchen and take a look."
"At what?" He walked over and bumped me with his hip. "We're not having an affair, Sam. She's nice to me. That's all. You gotta be grateful to women who are nice to you." For the first time in weeks, he had the old impish glint in his eye. "You know what I've been thinking about today? I was just telling Veronica: high school. I've been thinking how we used to walk down those halls so fuckin' sure of ourselves. A hundred and fifty pounds of sperm. Remember that immortal feeling? We were King Kong, Teflon, radioactive, and free as a dollar you find in the street. Everything was imminent, you know what I mean? Everything was right around the corner, due to arrive any minute. And we had no doubt it would arrive because it had to. Because we were us! That's what's great about being a kid: You know things are going to work out and you can beat every guy in the house."