Beevers whirled about to await Tina and Conor, who were about thirty feet behind. Conor looked up and smiled at them.
Beevers tilted his head toward Michael and half-whispered, “Didn’t you ever get tired of baby-sitting those two guys?” Then he yelled at Pumo, “Did you tip that shithead?”
Pumo kept a straight face. “A pittance.”
Poole said, “The cabdriver I got yesterday wanted to ask me how it felt to kill someone.”
“ ‘How does it feel to kill someone?’ ” Beevers said in a mocking, high-pitched voice. “I can’t stand that question. Let them kill somebody, if they really want to find out.” He felt better already. The other two came up to them. “Well, we know we’re a unit anyway, don’t we?”
“We’re savage killers,” Pumo said.
Conor asked, “Who the fuck is Vanna White?” and Pumo cracked up.
* * *
By the time the four of them got within a hundred yards of the Memorial they were part of a crowd. The men and women streaming from the sidewalk across the grass might have been the same people Poole had seen the day before—vets wearing mismatched parts of uniforms, older men in VFW garrison caps, women Poole’s age gripping the hands of dazed-looking children. Harry Beevers’ chalk-striped lawyer’s suit made him look like a frustrated, rather superior tour guide.
“What a bunch of losers we are, when you come down to it,” Beevers spoke into Poole’s ear.
Poole said nothing—he was watching two men make their way across the grass. One, nearly six-five and skinny as a pipe-stem, leaned against a metal crutch and in wide arcs swung a rigid leg that must also have been metal; his bearded companion, imprisoned in a wooden wheelchair, had to hoist his body off the seat every time he pushed the wheels. The two men were calmly talking and laughing as they moved toward the Memorial.
“Did you find Cotton’s name yesterday?” Pumo asked, breaking into his thoughts in a way that seemed to extend them.
Poole shook his head. “Let’s find him today.”
“Hell, let’s find everybody,” Conor said. “What else are we here for?”
4
Pumo listed all the names and their panel locations on the back of an American Express slip. Dengler, 14 West, line 52—Poole remembered that one. Cotton, 13 West, line 73 … Trotman, 13 West, line 18. Peters, 14 West, line 38. And Huebsch, Hannapin, Recht. And Burrage, Washington, Tiano. And Rowley, Thomas Chambers, the only man in their company killed at Ia Thuc. And the victims of Elvis, the swivel-hipped sniper: Lowry, Montegna, Blevins. And more after that. Pumo’s tiny, neat handwriting covered the back of the green American Express slip.
They stood on the stone slabs of the path, looking up together at the names etched into polished black granite. Conor wept before Dengler’s name, and both Conor and Pumo had tears on their faces as they looked at the medic’s name: PETERS, NORMAN CHARLES.
“Goddamn,” Conor said. “Right now, Peters ought to be on top of a tractor, worried that he ain’t going to get enough rain.” Peters’ family had worked the same Kansas farmland for four generations, and the medic had let everyone know that while he temporarily enjoyed being their medical corpsman, sometimes in the night he could smell his fields in Kansas. (“You be smelling Spitalny, not Kansas,” SP4 Cotton said.) Now his brothers worked Peters’ fields, and whatever was left of Peters, Norman Charles, after the helicopter on which he’d been giving plasma to Recht, Herbert Wilson, had crashed and burned was beneath the doubtless fertile soil of a country cemetery.
“He’d just be bitching about how the government is giving a royal screwing to him and all the other farmers,” Beevers said.
Michael Poole saw a huge golden-fringed flag ruffling in the breeze off to his right, and remembered glimpsing the same flag yesterday. A tall wild-haired man held the flag anchored to his wide belt—beside him, nearly obscured by a glistening wreath, stood a round white sign lettered in red: NO GREATER LOVE. Poole thought he’d read that the wild-haired ex-Marine had been standing in the same place for two days straight.
“You see the story about that guy in the paper this morning?” Pumo said. “He’s holding the flag in honor of POWs and MIAs.”
“It won’t bring them back any quicker,” Beevers said.
“I don’t think that’s the point,” Pumo told him.
In that instant, the long black length of the Memorial announced itself—to Poole it was as if it had just spoken and taken a step toward him. Michael remembered this from his first visit. He moved very slightly away from the others. The world was a blur. Once Poole had stood for hours up to his waist in water swarming with leeches, holding his M-16 and his Claymores out of the water until his arms ached, turned to lead, died.… Rowley, Thomas Chambers was standing beside him, also holding his arsenal out of the stinking water. Swarms of mosquitos buzzed around them, settling on their faces. Every few seconds they had to blow tickling mosquitos out of their noses. Poole could remember being so tired that if Rowley had offered to prop up his arms for him, he would have collapsed into sleep right there. He could remember feeling the leeches attach themselves to his thighs.
“Oh God,” Poole said, realizing that he was trembling. He wiped his eyes and looked at the others. Conor was weeping too, and emotion suffused Pumo’s handsome, normally impassive face.
Harry Beevers was watching Poole. He looked about as emotional as a weight-guesser at the state fair. “It got you, hmm?”
“Sure,” Poole said. Profound irritation at Beevers’ smugness flashed through him. “Are you immune?”
Beevers shook his head. “Hardly, Michael. I just keep my feelings inside. That’s the way I was raised. But I was thinking that a bunch of names ought to be added to this thing. McKenna. The Martinsons. Danton and Guibert. Remember?”
Poole had no desire to try to explain what he had just experienced. He too could think of at least one name that could be added to those on the wall.
Beevers virtually twinkled at Michael. “You know that we’re going to get rich out of this, don’t you?” And for some Beeversish reason utterly opaque to Michael Poole, he tapped him twice on the chest with an extended index finger. The finger appeared to have been manicured. Then Beevers turned to Pumo and Linklater, evidently saying something about the Memorial. Michael could still feel Harry’s index finger playfully jabbing at his sternum.… Only problem is that it doesn’t have enough names on it, he heard Beevers saying.
A hundred dying mosquitos packed Poole’s nostrils; dying leeches clamped onto his weary, dying legs. It was decided, Poole knew: as if in imitation of their ignorant, terrified, and variously foolhardy nineteen-year-old selves, they really were going to take off for the Far East all over again.
PART
TWO
PREPARATIONS
FOR
TAKEOFF
1
“Maggie never comes in here, Maggie had enough,” said Jimmy Lah, answering Harry’s question as he poured a silvery ribbon of vermouth over the ice and liquid already in the glass. He squeezed a paring of lemon rind around the rim of the glass, then slipped it down into the ice cubes.
“Enough of life, or enough of Tina?” Beevers asked.