“I don’t follow.”
“If they cornered you-would you prefer death or capture?”
I said, “What are you offering me? A cyanide capsule?”
“A pistol. Do you want one?”
“I’m not much good with them.”
“It doesn’t take much marksmanship to put the muzzle in your mouth and pull the trigger.”
I pictured myself sitting in this room for an indeterminate time, counting the walls; I foresaw the increasing waves of depression and anxiety; finally I said, “I think I’d rather take my chances without it.”
“Very well. I’ll bring food and drink.” Momentarily his austere features softened. “Don’t break yourself on the wheel of fear. There are places where the borders are quite porous-with any luck we’ll get you out. We’ve done it with hundreds, we know the drill. Does it matter to you where you break through?”
“I’d assumed you had a limited number of routes-I thought I’d better leave it to you.”
“All right.” He glanced briefly around the room. “I’m sorry you’ll have to be incarcerated here. I know you’d rather be a moving target. It can’t be helped, for the moment. Arrangements must be made-it takes time. Now. What about your linguistic aptitudes?”
I gave him a list of the languages I spoke; he needed that because it limited the identities he could manufacture for me.
I brought out my wallet. “I’m not offering a bribe. But I’ve got some money, in dollars. Can you change them into rubles without too much trouble?”
“Of course-and for a good deal more than you could.” He counted the bills. “Would you like some sort of receipt?”
“Don’t be ridiculous. I meant the money for your use. There’ll be expenses getting me out.”
He divided the bills into two stacks and proffered one of them. “You’ll want money after you’re out. You’d better keep this.”
I took it back without arguing. His eyes went beyond me to Pudovkin but it was to me that he was speaking: “When you go, Pudovkin will accompany you partway. You’ll want to get to know each other a bit.”
Instead of leaving the room then, Bukov settled into one of the chairs and crossed his thin silk ankles. Specks of dust twirled in the light. “Please try not to concern yourself with too many details. Under great stress you will naturally find yourself worrying about trivialities but I must ask that you leave everything to us. Our organization has several people in it who know where many bodies are buried-we’ll be able to obtain bumagi for you but you must leave the choice of identity to us. If you balk at anything at the wrong moment it could set us all right back to the wrong side of square one-you understand?”
“I put myself in your hands,” I answered. “I’m very grateful.”
Pudovkin jerked his head up as if he had just had an inspiration. He spoke a name.
Bukov shook his head. “No, I won’t use him. He has a fourteen-year-old daughter, he’s vulnerable. All they need to do is hint that she can’t be protected every minute-she could be raped by bandits. To prevent that, all he’d have to do is expose us. I won’t use him for anything more than innocuous errands.”
“Then who?”
“Don’t worry. You won’t have to carry it all the way.”
“I wasn’t thinking of myself, Vassily.”
“I know you weren’t.” Bukov smiled a bit. “One of these days you may begin to agree that my sense of security is as thorough as your own. I’m not a brash youth any longer, Mikhail.”
I was left out of this; watching the two of them I saw they were very old friends, it was more than a political alliance. Neither of them seemed the sort of man who communicated emotion easily but there was a bond of great warmth between them. Possibly Bukov had begun as the older man’s protege.
Bukov got up to leave us then. On his way to the door he paused. “Perhaps I should mention this-not to terrify you but to make you see things realistically. You can be sure that more than normal pressures have been applied against Sergei Zandor. To lose you would be to risk his position in the KGB chain of command. He has orders to bring you in alive of course-but he may be tempted to exceed those orders. You’ve given him a very bad time. You understand?”
“Yes.” The warning was: do exactly as you’re told and don’t mess things up for us because we could all get killed as a result.
Bukov nodded. Then the two of them left me.
In a little while he returned with a tray of borscht and Beluga caviar-an absurd combination but nourishing enough. He made a list of my clothing sizes.
On his way out he said, “Try to sleep.”
“Yes.”
“I rather approve of you.”
“Do you?”
“How did Nietzsche put it? ‘Audacity is essential to greatness.’ You have the essence of greatness, Harry.”
He went. I prowled the chamber for a while; pulled down a dry tome and read half a page and put it back; finally I rolled my shoes into my jacket to improvise a pillow, switched off the overhead light and lay trembling in the dark with my overcoat for a blanket.
* Director of the KGB in Moscow. These paragraphs (beginning with “I’d accused Karl Ritter …”) again are Bristow’s inserts, afterthoughts to explain his actions.-Ed.
16
On Tuesday* Pudovkin brought a parcel into my cell and unwrapped it with a certain voila flair-it contained the clothes I was to wear.
“We’ve laid on the truck for tonight,” he told me. “See if everything fits.”
“We’re going out tonight?”
“We’re starting tonight.” He had a dry deflating manner sometimes. I had learned that Pudovkin’s character was summed up largely in his Scandinavian thoroughness and impartiality: a cautious man with the patience for details. It had probably kept him alive. He seemed stolid but he had a good quick imagination; you needed that too if you were to anticipate the opposition’s movements. Pudovkin’s other persona-the visible portion of his iceberg existence-was that of a retired foundry official. Because he was retired from daily employment he enjoyed a certain freedom of time and movement which made him invaluable to Bukov; I gathered Pudovkin rarely had time to relax but that was the way he wanted it. He reminded me of the retired police lieutenant who can’t stand being out of harness and sets up his own security-detective agency-“just to keep a hand in,” but ends up working twice as hard as ever before.
For Pudovkin there was the added spice of illegality and the added strength of having a cause. Like Bukov he was not himself a Jew but to Pudovkin that was beside the point.
He had brought food also and I cut into the fresh loaf; the rich heavy smell invaded my nostrils and I ate while I unfolded the garments.
Several plans had been studied and rejected. At first there was the idea of smuggling me down to the Black Sea resort of Sochi and shipping me out as a deckhand on a tramp, but I had no nautical experience and we had to scotch that one. In any case there were too many checkpoints and bottlenecks; and the constant reinforcement of the Mediterranean Red fleet through the Dardanelles meant the waters would be alive with navy vessels practicing their boarding techniques on every passing freighter.
Our scheme was limited by the variety of OVIR blanks and forged passports available in the Bukov cell’s collections. It was also limited by my physical and linguistic markings: for instance I could not pass as a Cuban or Chilean, nor as a Russian for that matter-not only because of my height and coloring but also because the Soviets are far more meticulous in examining their own citizens who try to leave the country than they are about foreigners.
Bukov was adamant about one thing. I was not to cross through any international checkpoints in the Crimea. In the first place the Crimea was where they were looking for me; in the second place if I were caught too close to home it could bring down Bukov and his entire cell and he was quite right in refusing to take that risk. But it made our planning far more difficult because it meant I had to get to the mainland across the narrow isthmus at Armyansk, or cross Karkinitskiy Bay by small boat, or ride the train across the causeway from Dzhankoy to Genichesk-or, and this was what we settled on, due east across the length of the Crimean peninsula to the Kerch Straits and across to Taman by small boat. Once in the Georgian heights of the Caucasus it would be possible to motor southeast along the mountain roads above the Black Sea to the rugged Turkish border country; slip across into Turkey and escape through Asia Minor.