– Who haven't? – Vika rises and I pad back hurriedly. When the woman is mad, the man better not to resist. – So you've saved your… friend. Have he saved you guy?
Unfortunate shrugs smiling, and Vika slows down a little.
– What is your name?
– Unfortunate.
– Um-hm. So listen here pal, don't take your chances, just stay by the window and be silent!
Unfortunate submits and Vika moves towards me. Oh, the wrong personality have she chosen for that – it's Madam's manner.
– So, you've saved… So you've fucked Al-Kabar and "Labyrinth"…
– Vika, they're lying! – I say hurriedly, – 'Warlock-9000' is a local virus, it conforms to Convention's standards!
– And do they lie about the diver too? – shouts Vika, and I finally understand what exactly did piss her off, – Do they? Or somebody else is lying?… somebody else!
I don't have a big experience in getting slaps in the face, I hold the aching cheek and stand still as a pole. Unfortunate obediently looks into the window but obviously he could hear the sound well.
– Diver? – Vika is still boiling, – Diver? And I was so damned stupid to offer you help! Couldn't you tell me that you're diver yourself?
– No, – I whisper.
– Why? You don't trust me?
I'd never believe that God created a woman from Adam's rib. Never, as well as in that the man was created from clay, but of the different sort.
The reasons we find for becoming mad are too different.
– I thought I could lose you.
– And so you… – starts Vika and silences.
– It's impossible to love somebody who sees the Deep without illusions. I know Vika, I tried to uncover before. It… always happens. You would start to hate me. Imperceptibly. You wouldn't even notice what had happened…
I keep talking, already knowing that it's over. We might stay friends but nothing more. No woman in the world would love somebody who sees her face as a mesh of color pixels.
– Yes, I had to tell you, – I whisper, – Immediately. I'm sorry, I couldn't. Would you ever have a nerve to confess that you're diver?
Vika stays silent, there are tears in her eyes that don't really exist. There's a wall between us, from now on and forever.
– No, – she says quietly, – I couldn't either. I… didn't want to lose you.
I think I went crazy.
So what if I hug her tightly and there's no wall between us?
– My work… it's because of it. It's too disgusting when everything is for real. I don't know how it happened… it was too dirty… I was scared and had fallen from the Deep…
– We say – surfaced…
– Surfaced…
Unfortunate looks at the mountains, he's a great guy, he can strand like this all day.
– I always surface. That's why I always take the worst freaks, because I don't care…
I have a question that I'll never ask but Vika answers herself:
– There, by the river I didn't exit… for the first time in my life. Honest.
I believe her as all men from the beginning of times do.
Only our faith becomes the truth in this world.
111
Vika makes coffee and even Unfortunate cheers up a little. We sit down around the table, fresh cream is in the small pitcher, a pile of white sugar is in the sugar bowl, the full bottle of Ahtamar waits for its turn. Though, Vika pours the cognac into cups immediately.
– For your success, Lenia, – she says.
– Such successes are cheap, – I reply.
– Why?
– Net-wide search.
– So what?
– I'll have to leave. This personality is exposed and Gunslinger was seen here.
– By whom? – Vika says as if she doesn't understand all complexity of the situation. – By my girls?
– By them too.
– They won't tell anybody. Or do you think that virtual prostitutes are loyal to the powers of this world? You know, we had seen them all without pants… corporations' directors and companies' presidents. The people who usually lash the woman before going to bed don't evoke any pity.
– According to you they are all perverts.
– Sure not, – Vika smiles, – But these are the guests that are remembered. None of our girls would squeal on Gunslinger. All the more that you never made orgies and weren't disgusted to sit with us.
– Are you sure?
– Lenia, all our personnel is from Russia, Ukraine, Byelorussia, Kazakhstan. What do you think, does the love towards the government or big business exist there?
– I've never noticed such perversions.
– That's my point. For your success!
We drink cognac, Unfortunate joins us. His face is emotionless as if he have sipped some tea.
– What about Cap? – I remember – This is the one who remembers me for sure!
– Not that breed. Well defined asocial type… he won't squeal on you.
– He seemed capable of much to me.
Vika drums her fingers against the table.
– Lenia… Cap always takes the red album. This is a special group, where everything is allowed. Not just chains, lashes and petty sadist's delights, but any atrocities. Murders, body dismemberment… should I go on?
– Thanks, that's enough.
– So, Cap never does anything of this. He comes to us to socialize… to talk.
– And that's how he pissed everybody off?
– Lenia, when the solid unkie orders the red album, brings the girl to the dungeon and rips out her throat screaming "I'm a vampire!", this is lousy, disgusting but understandable. It's just an illness. When a plain looking youth sits across the girl and starts a 'sincere talk' with her… when he spends money to prove her in a couple of hours that she is a slut and a dirty beast, that she doesn't deserve to live on Earth… this is much more terrible, believe me.
– Why? – Unfortunate enters the talk suddenly.
– Because it's a curse. The right to judge and the right to rule. The right for the Truth. It's easy to sort it out with a stupid person or a beast. It's much more difficult with somebody who considers himself superhuman, a clean, clever and pure one. Generals fighting for peace, rulers destroying corruption, perverts condemning pornography – oh Lord, haven't we seen enough of them? Maybe this is a kind of curse that overhangs above the mankind? When they promise order one should expect chaos, when they defend life – death comes, when they defend moral – people turn into animals. You just have to say – I'm above that, I'm cleaner, I'm better – and requital comes immediately. Only those who don't climb the pedestal and never promise any miracles do bring good into the world.
I can feel that they have become engaged seriously and meddle quickly:
– Stop! Vika, let's do without disputes about good and evil! In such a way it's possible to declare killers and thieves justs!
– You're a thief yourself, – notes Vika.
– I help to distribute information.
– And the pickpocket teaches the people vigilance. But does the single mother with many children whose purse with a whole salary was stolen need such a lesson?
I have millions of objections. I can try to explain that stealing somebody else's files is not the most important in diver's work. Hacker can be much more successful in that without even entering virtuality, and there's a big difference between stealing the data and copying it: I never leave empty computers behind. What the hell is the difference for the mankind who will be the first in producing new shampoo or cold reliever?
But I don't want to argue with Vika.
– I'm sorry, – she touches my hand, – I'm wrong.
– Why not? You kicked my butt well…