And also . . . also, especially—especially, especially—Neal’s dad was dead.
Georgie was . . . She must be imagining things.
Exhausted. She was exhausted.
And upset. Too much stress. Not enough sleep.
Also, maybe someone had drugged her—that was possible. That was more possible than Neal’s dad coming back from the dead to wish her Merry Christmas. Which didn’t. Just. Happen.
What else hadn’t happened today? Had she even gone to work? Had she spent last night on the couch? Had she ever woken up?
Wake up! Wake the fuck up, Georgie!
Maybe when she woke up, when she really woke up, she’d find Neal lying beside her. Maybe they wouldn’t even be fighting. (Were they fighting?) Maybe, in the real world, the waking world, Georgie and Neal never fought.
“I had a dream that things were just like they are now,” she’d say when she woke up, “but we weren’t happy. And it was Christmas, and you left me. . . .”
“Georgie?” Her mom was calling from the kitchen. Unless Georgie was dreaming that, too. “Are you okay?” her mom shouted.
“I’m fine!” Georgie yelled back.
Her mom came to her room anyway. “I heard a noise,” she said from the doorway. She looked down at the phone, lying stretched out and off the hook on the floor. “Is everything all right?”
Georgie wiped her eyes. “Fine. I’m just”—she shook her head—“I don’t know, maybe having a nervous breakdown.”
“Of course you are, honey. Your husband left you.”
“He didn’t leave me,” Georgie said. But maybe he had. Maybe that’s why Georgie was falling apart. “I think I need to rest.”
“That’s a good idea.”
“Or maybe I need a drink.”
Her mom came into the room and picked up the phone, setting it back on the table. “I hardly think you should start drinking.”
Had Georgie been drinking already? Had this ever happened before? Was she blacking out?
“Do you remember Neal’s dad?” she asked her mom.
“Paul? Sure. Neal looks just like him.”
“Looks? Or looked?”
“What?”
“What do you know about Neal’s dad?” Georgie asked.
“What are you talking about? Didn’t he have a heart attack?”
“Yes.” Georgie reached out and grabbed her mom’s arm. “He had a heart attack.”
Her mom looked significantly more concerned. “Do you think you’re having a heart attack?”
“No,” Georgie said. Was she having a heart attack? A stroke, maybe? She smiled and touched her own cheeks; nothing seemed to be drooping. “No. No, I just need some rest, I think.”
“I don’t think you should drive home.”
“I don’t think so either.”
“Okay.” Her mom studied her. “You’ll get through this, Georgie. I thought I’d spend the rest of my life alone after your dad and I split up.”
“You left him for another guy.”
Her mom shook her head dismissively. “These feelings aren’t rational. There’s nothing rational about marriage.”
“A fatal heart attack, right?”
“Why are you fixated on Neal’s dad? Poor man. Poor Margaret.”
“I don’t know,” Georgie said. “I just need to rest.”
“You rest.” Her mom turned off the light on her way out.
Georgie lay in the dark for an hour.
She cried some more.
And talked to herself. “I’m imagining things. I’m tired. I’m just tired.”
She closed her eyes and tried to sleep.
She opened them again, and watched the yellow phone.
She thought about going home. She went out and sat in the car for a while. Eventually, she plugged in her cell phone and tried to call Neal. (He didn’t pick up.) (Because he never fucking picks up. And maybe he had left her, maybe they were so out of synch that Georgie didn’t even recognize when he was actually, really leaving her. Maybe he’d already told her he was leaving, and she just hadn’t listened.)
She sat in the car and cried.
Then she tried Neal’s mom’s number, even though it was late. Georgie just needed to talk to him again. Normally. She needed to have a normal conversation to reset everything.
His mom’s line was busy. Maybe his dad had some really important ghost phone calls to make at midnight central time.
Georgie thought again about trying to sleep. She thought about how all her freaking out was probably making this situation—whatever this situation was—worse.
Then she went inside and went through the kitchen cabinets until she found a bottle of crème de menthe, probably left over from the last time her mom made grasshopper pie. (Her mom and Kendrick weren’t drinkers.) (Potheads? Possibly. Neal suspected.)
Georgie drank it straight. It was like getting drunk on syrup.
At some point she must have fallen asleep.
SATURDAY
DECEMBER 21, 2013
CHAPTER 8
Four missed calls—all from Seth.
It was already noon, and Georgie was just leaving for work. Her phone rang as soon as she plugged it into the car lighter.
“Sorry,” she said, answering it. “I overslept.”
“Jesus, Georgie,” Seth said, “I was ready to call the police.”
“You were not.”
“Maybe I was. I was just about to drive all the way out to Calabasas looking for you. What the fuck?”
“I stayed at my mom’s again. I’m sorry. I forgot to set the alarm.”
That was a vast, vast oversimplification. Georgie had woken up on her mom’s couch a half hour ago, with one of the pugs licking her face. Then she’d puked for twenty minutes. Then she’d spent another ten trying to find clothes in Heather’s room—nothing fit—before ending up in her mom’s closet, settling for a pair of velour sweatpants and a low-cut T-shirt with rhinestones. Georgie hadn’t even brushed her teeth. (Didn’t see the point; her whole body already smelled like mint.) “I’m coming,” she told Seth. “I’ll bring lunch.”
“We already have lunch here. And half a script—it’s fucking terrible, hurry up.”
“I’m coming.” She ended the call and got on the 101.
Four missed calls, all from Seth. None from Neal.
Georgie rubbed her thumb over the phone’s touchscreen. She wasn’t thinking about last night. Last night was something Georgie was not going to think about right now.
It was a new morning. She’d call Neal and start over from here. She held the phone up over the steering wheel and thumbed through her recent calls, pressing AN EMERGENCY CONTACT.
It rang. . . .
“Good day, sunshine.”
“Hey, Alice. It’s Mommy.”
“I know, I heard your song. Also, there’s a picture of you when you call—from Halloween. You’re dressed like the Tin Man.”
Neal had been the Cowardly Lion. Alice was Dorothy. Noomi was Toto the cat.
“I need to talk to Daddy,” Georgie said.
“Are you in the car?”
“I’m on my way to work.”
“You promised not to talk on the phone in the car—I’m telling Daddy.”
“I promised to wait until I was done merging. Where is Daddy?”
“I don’t know.”
“He’s not there?”
“No.”
“Where’s Grandma?”
“I don’t know.”
“Alice.”