“Trying,” she breathed out.
“Wrong answer, cowgirl.” Wrapping the loop around his wrist, he touched the tip of the crop to her inner thigh and moved it slowly to the crease where it met her body.
“Yes, sir,” she amended quickly.
“Better,” he said with a wink. He let the tip slide against her open lips. Her body jerked and he grinned. “Be still, beautiful.”
She didn’t say a word, didn’t struggle against the restraints. She just watched him. Trusted him. Which fucked him up so much inside he was struggling to breathe normally himself.
“It occurred to me last night that there are some things I’ve asked you about, things you haven’t answered.”
Her throat tightened as she swallowed. “What things…sir?”
“What did you mean when you said you’d never felt wanted before, Stella Jo? Because I’m having a real fucking hard time believing that.”
She blinked, keeping her eyes closed a few seconds longer than necessary.
Van ran the crop over her stomach to her hip, flicking his wrist lightly. She flinched and her eyes opened wide.
“What the fu—”
“Answer the question, cowgirl.”
She glared at him. A wicked desire unfurled in his stomach. He’d wanted to draw this out. But that fiery glare made him want to fuck her until that wooden headboard slammed straight through the damn wall.
“I meant exactly what I said,” she bit out through gritted teeth.
“Never? You’ve never felt like anyone wanted you? Not your rich daddy or that pretty boy who came to visit?”
Her brow creased. “My parents were too busy with their own lives. And Nash, the pretty boy as you called him, was my first real boyfriend and he could hardly wait for things to end between us so that he could hook up with my roommate.”
What a fucking moron. Van didn’t need to know what her roommate looked like to know dude had made a massive mistake.
“I wish I would’ve known. I would’ve thanked him. Hell, I would’ve bought his lunch.”
“For not wanting me?”
“For being a blind idiot.” Van was silent for a moment as he tried to contemplate how anyone could walk away from such a flawless creature. He sure as hell couldn’t.
A smile lifted her sensuous mouth, and he ached to taste her happiness. Every smile he’d triggered was carefully catalogued in his head. His ability to make her smile was the only thing that made him feel worthy of even being in her presence.
“Next question,” he said, gently dragging the crop lower. “Did pretty boy ever taste you? The way I did last night?”
“I am not answering that.” Her chin jutted upward in defiance. His cock practically danced a jig. He’d hoped she’d say that. Another flick of his wrist and the crop snapped against her inner thigh. The redness was instant, and he wanted to kiss it better. He would. Soon.
“No, okay? No one had ever…done that to me before, okay? Happy now?”
Van grinned. Fuck yeah he was happy. He was goddamn thrilled.
“I didn’t think so.”
Her eyes narrowed, but he saw more than anger and defiance. Vulnerability she was trying to keep hidden leaked out.
“Why not? Did I do something wrong?”
She’d moaned and cried out and screamed his name. Hell no she hadn’t done anything wrong.
“No, cowgirl. You did everything perfect.”
“Then how did you know he hadn’t…” She trailed off, eyeing the crop closely as he slid it up and down her right leg.
“Because I knew if he’d ever gotten a taste, a taste of what I got last night, there was no way in fucking hell he could’ve walked away.”
“Van,” she whispered, his name a plea. Closer. They were getting closer to the begging he wanted.
“Ask me—no. Beg me for what you need, Stella Jo. Tell me how it felt last night, how you want it to feel right now.”
Her body finally writhed hard against the restraints. “Please,” she whimpered.
“Please what, Stella Jo?”
“Please, sir. I want… It felt…” She gazed up at him, lost as he ran the crop across her breasts. Her taut peaks begged to be placed in his mouth, and he was going to snap if he didn’t get a taste of her soon.
“Fucking say it.”
“I want you to lick me. I want you to fuck me with your tongue again. I want to come in your mouth, on your fingers, hard like you did it last night. Maybe harder.”
Her words came out in a rush, his Heaven and his torturous Hell all at once. Behind his eyes, he saw her—startled when he’d run into her the first time, crying when he’d seen her the second time. Empty. Lost. Needy.
He swore to himself he’d give her what she needed, lick her sweet tears if she ever cried in front of him again. And lick every other part of her until she was practically skipping around every day with a smile permanently on her face.
“Close your eyes,” he demanded. “Don’t look at me. Don’t look at the fucking crop. Don’t look at the ceiling. Close your eyes.”
She did as she was told, and he let the end of the crop skitter softly across the top of her swollen, damp folds before setting it down on the bed.
“Just feel, Stella Jo. Don’t think. Don’t do anything except feel.”
Her legs twitched as he began placing lingering, wet kisses from her ankles to her thighs.
“Just feel, baby,” he murmured against her skin. “Feel me.”
She moaned when he let his teeth graze her flesh. She arched as hard as his constraints would allow when he sucked her clit into his mouth.
“Oh God, Van.”
“Oh no, baby. Now I have to start over.”
“Sir. I meant sir,” she corrected quickly. “Fuck.” She bit out the curse, causing him to have to stifle a laugh. Despite that addicting sugared-honey taste of her arousal, he started over, placing gentle kisses on her left ankle.
Torturously slow for both of them, he made his way back to her center. Licking relentlessly, he began to stroke her opening with the tip of his middle finger. Teasing her was hell on his dick, but watching her come to life at his touch was worth it.
“Please, oh god, please, please, sir,” she pleaded in an endless breathy stream.
“Please what, baby?”
He expected “Please put your fingers inside me,” or “Please make me come.” What he got threw every ounce of self-control that he had right out the window.
“Please fuck me, Van. Please. Pretty please, sir.”
Chapter Twenty-One
Stella could hardly believe her own ears.
She was tied up like an animal, and she wanted a man she wasn’t even dating, a man who wasn’t even her boyfriend, a man who—technically—she was forbidden from having a relationship with, to put his dick inside her.
Not only that, she was begging him to fuck her. Not have sex with her or make love to her. She wanted it rough, wanted it to hurt just like the snaps of the riding crop had.
“I want you,” she moaned. “I want you to fuck me so hard.”
The room seemed to be spinning out of control. It felt as if she were suspended naked in mid-air. She was lost in the sensations he was provoking with his mouth and fingers. The rough stubble on his face created a deliciously fiery friction against her smooth inner thighs. The room around them vanished completely—even the ropes didn’t sting against her wrists or ankles anymore. All she felt was her walls clenching on emptiness. And that place inside of her that pulsated intently, needing him.
“I need you. I need you, sir. Please.” She felt no shame in asking, in pleading. Not while her most private parts were in his mouth. All she felt was desire. She’d do or say whatever it took to relieve that ache he’d caused so far deep down she couldn’t reach. “Please.”