But I digress.
I pushed in to the Yellow Wall and found the place crowded. Knowing how gradually it fills up even from about seven or so, this was a surprise. It was full of people who looked like they’d been up all night, and not at a party. Nobody talked much. The place reeked of coffee and inhaler fumes and sweat. The loudest noise came from the wheezing labour of the air conditioner. It was the most squalid atmosphere I’d breathed since my microgravity training. Most people looked down at visible or invisible comms or watched the video wall. The scene came from outside the Council Hall. As I made for the percolator I twitched my ears to pick up the audio. You know what I heard. The cup I dropped was empty. Its crash made everybody jump.
Faces turned toward me.
“You didn’t know?” asked Far Sun Park. One of the New Lamarck kids. I was with her at our last big shock, when we first received news of the transmissions. (Why all those flashbacks to training?) She cried then, and she looked like she’d been crying now, for all that she’d matured in the meantime.
I shook my head. “Has it passed?”
“Ninety-eight to thirty-five,” she said. “No abstentions.”
I summoned a brave face. “Thirty-five? That’s more than we could have hoped.”
Some people looked at me as if I was talking nonsense, but most looked like they wanted to hear what I had to say.
“The emergency can only last a year,” I said. “We can design and train like we expect to go out tomorrow and by the time it’s up, we’ll be more ready to go out than we’ve ever been.”
“They won’t let us go out,” said Far.
“Who’s they?” I said. “A year from now, most of us will have the vote.”
“By that time, they’ll have convinced most of us that the moratorium is a good idea.”
“They’re not the only ones who can do convincing.”
At that point everybody just laughed. I turned away and gathered the shards of the broken cup. Then I got myself the coffee and snack I’d come for. I sat down with it and wrote my first “exile” post and sent it to everyone who’d ever contacted me. I had plenty of time to do it, because nobody wanted to talk to me.
Compare that to how it is now. This morning I rolled out of bed, leaving Grant to sleep, and grabbed my breakfast here. I went to the workshop and did a couple of hours on the habitat virtual tests. I wasn’t the first person in, and the loft filled up fast. When I looked around, the real and virtual spaces were more crowded than the desks, with projects big and wild. Grant’s waterworld resort no longer looks outrageous — there’s a scheme for farming the algae that has so far survived three feasibility studies; an even wilder project for exporting water by whipping waterspouts to escape velocity (don’t ask); some very neat work with using gas giant slingshot effects to get a head start on the long tube; all of which are attracting some founder capital — which of course does its bit to undermine the pro-embargo coalition, by vesting interests in colonization and getting out. On the cultural side there’s a small school of artists over in the corner data-mining Red Sun transmissions — four years behind, obviously, and four hundred years of cultural drift off, but that’s what makes what they make of it interesting, even beautiful.
I’ll tell you a secret: we’ve gained by losing the virtualities. Without that distraction we’re more focused on our work and on our plans. Some of us. The truth is, the workshop is crowded not because too many people are working on projects, but because not enough are to justify opening another one.
And therein lies a problem, one I was reminded of as I walked to the cafe just now for my morning break. The streets and parks were busy. What worries me is what they were busy with. Fun, games, music, talk talk talk. Half a dozen kids loafing, passing an inhaler around, giggling. Nothing wrong with that at a party, but this was ten in the morning! Saw one guy cross-legged on a bench, whittling a bit of bent branch into a vague semblance of an animal. Doubtless he thinks it’s art and that he’s accomplishing something. Not everyone is into starting projects. Some always take more initiative than others. That isn’t the problem. The problem is that too many people who should be initiating projects aren’t, and too many people who should be checking out which project they want to join aren’t bothering. They don’t have plans and they don’t bother even to study. They’re out there playing under the sunline.
Who can blame them? Well, we can, and we do. We busy folk call them slackers and birthrighters, because they’re living on their birthrights and not earning or learning. But they didn’t just happen to be born with idle bones. They’re idle because they don’t believe they’ll ever get out, at least not for decades. So we should blame the founders, and all those who voted for the embargo?
No! We should blame ourselves! We’re not doing enough to convince them that the embargo won’t last more than another six months. All we have to do is vote. The voting-age cohort of the ship generation is enough to tip the balance.
I’ve just had an awful thought. If we don’t shift that crowd of slackers, they might vote to keep the embargo.
Think about that. Actually, when I think about that, I get such a terrible sense of suffocation that I gasp. And I think about killing. I really feel as if I could go out and choke slackers with my bare hands.
I’m as shocked as you are.
Synchronic Narrative Storm was showing a group of five-year-olds the big machine that turned bales of mown grass into milkshakes and meat patties when a shadow darkened the sunlight from the doorway. She turned and saw Constantine.
“You grace us with your real presence,” she said, in an electric message with a sharp edge. He smiled and stepped out of sight. Synchronic passed the five-year-olds to the charge of two ten-year-olds, who took over the demonstration so quickly that Synchronic could smell the sizzle before she was out of the door. She found Constantine leaning on the side of the barn, in a pose that needed only a chewed straw between his teeth to complete.
“You have some nerve coming here,” she said.
“Yes, my lady,” he said. He straightened away from the wooden wall and gestured to the pathways. “Care for a stroll?”
“If you must.”
“Thank you.”
They walked between gnarled trees. Mowing machines like large trilobites with baskets on their backs trimmed the verges.
“Feed for the nanotech cow,” remarked Constantine. “A cumbrous process. In the cones we grow food straight from the gunk.”
“You didn’t come here to pass the time of day.”
“No, my lady, I did not.”
“I still haven’t forgiven you, and I’m not going to, so don’t ask.”
The subterfuge of the surveillance still rankled; its exposure, at least, still embarrassed him. She could see his blush in the infrared.
“I didn’t come to ask that,” he said. “Nor to offer mine.”
“You think I need any?”
“Not particularly.” He looked sidelong at her. “Business is business. Can we put all that aside for the moment? Accepting it as unfinished business?”
She shrugged. “If you insist. So what did you come for?”
“We’re in danger of losing the ship generation.”
“I’m aware of the problems,” she said. “ ‘You can’t tell the boys from the girls, they have no respect for their elders, their user interfaces are garish and unwieldy, everybody is writing a book, and their music is just noise.’ Found scratched on a potsherd in Sumer.”
“All true as it ever was,” he said, “but it’s more than that. They were ripe to go out, and now they’re overripe, to the point of becoming somewhat rotten. A significant number are demoralised. Another and better fraction are becoming angry and organised against the founders.”