But they'll learn, he thought sadly. Oh, how they'll learn! Horeb's eyes scanned the large room, warming as they lighted upon his daughters who were clearing tables and delivering tankards. Tiny Dori blushing beneath her freckles at some ribald jest; Besa, the image of her mother, tall and fair; Nessa, fat and plain and loved by all, soon to marry the baker's apprentice Norvas. Good girls. Gifts of joy. Then his gaze fell on the tall figure in the blue cloak seated by the window.
"Damn you, Rek, snap out of it," he muttered, knowing the man would never hear him. Horeb turned away, cursed, then removed his leather apron and grasped a half-empty jug of ale and a tankard. As an afterthought he opened a small cupboard and removed a bottle of port he had been saving for Nessa's wedding.
"A problem shared is a problem doubled," he said, squeezing into the seat opposite Rek.
"A friend in need is a friend to be avoided," Rek countered, accepting the proffered bottle and refilling his glass. "I knew a general once," he said, staring at the wine, twirling the glass slowly with his long fingers. "Never lost a battle. Never won one either."
"How so?" asked Horeb.
"You know the answer. I've told you before."
"I have a bad memory. Anyway, I like to listen to you tell stories. How could he never lose and never win?"
"He surrendered whenever threatened," said Rek. "Clever, eh?"
"How come men followed him if he never won?"
"Because he never lost. Neither did they."
"Would you have followed him?" asked Horeb.
"I don't follow anyone any more. Least of all generals." Rek turned his head, listening to the interweaving chatter. He closed his eyes, concentrating. "Listen to them," he said, softly. "Listen to their talk of glory."
"They don't know any better, Rek, my friend. They haven't seen it, tasted it. Crows like a black cloud over a battlefield feasting on dead men's eyes, foxes jerking at severed tendons, worms…"
"Stop it, damn you… I don't need reminding. Well, I'm damned if I'll go. When's Nessa getting married?"
"In three days," answered Horeb. "He's a good boy, he'll look after her. Keeps baking her cakes. She'll be like a tub before long."
"One way or another," said Rek, with a wink.
"Indeed yes," answered Horeb, grinning broadly.
The men sat in their own silence allowing the noise to wash over them, each drinking and thinking, secure within their circle of two. After a while Rek leaned forward.
"The first attack will be at Dros Delnoch," he said. "Do you know they've only 10,000 men there?"
"I heard it was less than that. Abalayn's been cutting back on the regulars and concentrating on militia. Still, there're six high walls and a strong keep. And Delnar's no fool — he was at the battle of Skein."
"Really?" said Rek. "I heard that was one man against ten thousand, hurling mountains on the foe."
"The saga of Druss the Legend," said Horeb, deepening his voice. "The tale of a giant whose eyes were death, and whose axe was terror. Gather round, children, and keep from the shadows lest evil lurks as I tell my tale."
"You bastard!" said Rek. "That used to terrify me. You knew him, didn't you — the Legend, I mean?"
"A long time ago. They say he's dead. If not, he must be over sixty. We were in three campaigns together, but I only spoke to him twice. I saw him in action once, though."
"Was he good?" asked Rek.
"Awesome. It was just before Skeln and the defeat of the Immortals. Just a skirmish really. Yes, he was very good."
"You're not terribly strong on detail, Horeb."
"You want me to sound like the rest of these fools, jabbering about war and death and slaying?"
"No," said Rek, draining his wine. "No, I don't. You know me, don't you?"
"Enough to like you. Regardless."
"Regardless of what?"
"Regardless of the fact that you don't like yourself."
"On the contrary," said Rek, pouring a fresh glass, "I like myself well enough. It's just that I know myself better than most people."
"You know, Rek, sometimes I think you ask too much of yourself."
"No. No, I ask very little. I know my weaknesses."
"It's a funny thing about weakness," said Horeb. "Most people will tell you they know their weaknesses. When asked, they tell you, "Well, for one thing I'm over-generous." Come on then, list yours if you must. That's what innkeepers are for."
"Well, for one thing I'm over-generous — especially to innkeepers."
Horeb shook his head, smiled and lapsed into silence.
Too intelligent to be a hero, too frightened to be a coward, he thought. He watched his friend empty his glass, lift it to his face and peer at his own fragmented image. For a moment Horeb thought he would smash it, such had been the anger on Rek's flushed face.
Then the younger man gently returned the goblet to the wooden table.
"I'm not a fool," he said, softly. He stiffened as he realised he had spoken aloud. "Damn!" he said. "The drink finally got to me."
"Let me give you a hand to your room," offered Horeb.
"Is there a candle lit?" asked Rek, swaying in his seat.
"Of course."
"You won't let it go out on me, will you? Not keen on the dark. Not frightened, you understand. Just don't like it."
"I won't let it go out, Rek. Trust me."
"I trust you. I rescued you, didn't I? Remember?"
"I remember. Give me your arm. I'll guide you to the stairs. This way. That's good. One foot in front of the other. Good!"
"I didn't hesitate. Straight in with my sword raised, didn't I?"
"Yes."
"No, I didn't. I stood for two minutes shaking. And you got cut."
"But you still came in, Rek. Don't you see? It didn't matter about the cut — you still rescued me."
"It matters to me. Is there a candle in my room?"
Behind him was the fortress, grim and grey, outlined in flame and smoke. The sounds of battle filled his ears and he ran, heart pounding, his breathing ragged. He glanced behind him. The fortress was close, closer than it had been. Ahead were the green hills sheltering the Sentran Plain. They shimmered and retreated before him, taunting him with their tranquillity. He ran faster. A shadow fell across him. The gates of the fortress opened. He strained against the force pulling him back. He cried and begged. But the gates closed and he was back at the centre of the battle, a bloody sword in his shaking hand.
He awoke, eyes wide, nostrils flared, the beginning of a scream swelling his lungs. A soft hand stroked his face and gentle words soothed him. His eyes focused. Dawn was nearing, the pink light of a virgin day piercing the ice on the inside of the bedroom window. He rolled over.
"You were troubled in the night," Besa told him, her hand stroking his brow. He smiled, pulled the goose-down quilt over his shoulder and drew her to him under the covers.
"I'm not troubled now," said Rek. "How could I be?" The warmth of her body aroused him and his fingers caressed her back.
"Not today," she said, kissing him lightly on the forehead and pulling away. She threw back the quilt, shivered and ran across the room, gathering her clothes. "It's cold," she said. "Colder than yesterday."
"It's warm in here," he offered, raising himself to watch her dress. She blew him a kiss.
"You're fine to romp with, Rek. But I'll have no children by you. Now, get out of that bed. We've a party of travellers coming in this morning and the room is let."