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When she had said all that she had to say, and her voice had trailed off pathetically into silence, he gathered up the dresses like an armful of crushed flowers and tossed them into the red-hot, angry maw of the fire. It was not in the least an act of violence. The whole rhythm of the gesture was deliberate, cold and heavy. The flames licked up the fragile garments in a trice; a blaze, a flicker, a puff of smoke, and they were gone as if a handful of hay had been thrown on the fire.

Anna had a little puzzled frown of pain on her face. She would have liked to wear the pretty clothes. But when her father said to her: ‘Do you want to be dressed up like a performing monkey?’ she felt that he was right in spite of her disappointment, and she bore him no grudge.

Miss Wilson lamented bitterly in herself her failure to enlist Lauretta Bland’s sympathies on Anna’s behalf. The poor woman knew that she would not be tolerated much longer at Mascarat. She crept about, unobtrusive as a careworn, timid mouse in her drab garments, avoiding James’s eye, hoping by obliterating herself to gain an hour, a week, a month of respite before the blow fell. That it would fall sooner or later she knew. Sentence had been passed on her long ago in the high valley on the day of the falling boulder. It was slow in being carried out, but she had no false illusion of security.

The final execution was swift and sudden. It was evening in the bare, clean upper room that Miss Wilson called the nursery. The room was dark and uninteresting, blank in its cleanliness. The cheap, rose-patterned cotton curtains that she had hung at the window looked tawdry and out of place. Anna was saying her prayers, an odd young shoot in her white nightgown, kneeling beside the clumsy wooden bed.

Suddenly James Forrester came in. It was very unusual for him to come into that room. Miss Wilson’s heart gave a rapid leap of alarm, the terrible, nerve-torturing apprehension of the dependant. Anna was peering at him through her fingers, uncertain whether to go on with her prayers.

‘Get up,’ he said quietly to her.

She obeyed at once, and stood looking at him with a child’s curious trustfulness that is already half suspicion. He had so much power over her.

‘What are you doing?’ he asked.

‘Saying my prayers,’ she answered, in her clear, thin voice, looking straight at him.

‘What are they?’

She stood in confused silence, not knowing how to reply. Then she glanced round doubtfully at Miss Wilson who had drawn near and would have spoken had not James motioned her imperiously to remain silent. Finally Anna flushed and said:

‘Prayers are talking to God.’

‘That is nonsense,’ her father said calmly. ‘There is no such person as God, and you are only making yourself ridiculous by kneeling down there in your silly white shirt to talk to someone who doesn’t exist.’

The child said nothing, staring with bewildered grey-blue eyes at the tall, strange man whose lips were dark and closed and angry-looking.

Again Miss Wilson tried to interfere, and again she was silenced. She stood looking on, almost in tears, her old face creased and reddened, not daring to speak a word.

‘Are you determined to be a little performing monkey, then?’ said James to his daughter. ‘Do you want to be a little saintly monkey this time, in a little white shirt?’

‘No!’ said Anna flatly, looking him straight in the eyes.

The father seemed satisfied.

‘Never let me see you kneeling again,’ he said; and signed to Miss Wilson to follow him out of the room.

That night he told her that she must go. She dared not plead with him or protest; her spirit was so broken, so abject, the spirit of the poor, friendless, unwanted elderly spinster who has no rights and for whom there seems to be no place.

In the silent darkness she watched over Anna lying asleep in the high bed. Upon her bare old knees she prayed for the child whose future seemed so sinister and so obscure, and her tired heart yearned over her.

CHAPTER 2

ANNA did not cry when Miss Wilson went away. Although the parting meant the end of all that was pleasant, familiar, safe and normal in her unpropitious childhood, something cold and unchildlike in her almost rejoiced. She was proud to think that she was to be alone with her father; as though she were being admitted to a kind of equality with him. In her secret heart she was glad to get rid of the tiresome, devoted old creature whom she almost despised. And so, when the one human being in the whole world who loved her was leaving her for ever, she did not shed a single tear.

Miss Wilson herself attained a certain dignity at the last. She had slept less than an hour the previous night. All through the long, dark, silent hours she had lain awake, weeping and praying for the child whom she must perforce abandon. In the night she had become definitely an old woman. New lines had appeared upon her face, and in her eyes, dim with many tears, a dullness of despair was gathering. But in the morning, in the bright, limpid sun of the mountain morning, she stood up stiff and proud to go off bravely with her flag still flying in the face of her conquering enemy.

James smiled his thin, unpleasant smile when he watched her trudging down the hill, this pathetic little wisp of a woman whom he had beaten, with her head held high in its unbecoming hat, while the loutish Paul followed behind with her meagre possessions.

But Anna did not smile with him. Dimly, her immature mind was aware of tragedy in that comical dwindling figure; recognized a kind of nobility in that unromantic departure, so that she almost started to run after her, to give her some sign of appreciation and affection, that she might not go away altogether uncomforted. But it was too late. The small, dowdy figure was already disappearing in the rich, dappled green shade of the chestnut-wood; and Paul, with the burdens he carried so easily, was plunging in behind, like a diver entering a sea of purplish shadow and dancing, lucent green.

So the first bright infantile page of Anna’s life was turned, and before her lay a new page, neither so bright nor so innocent, a page whereon the shadows were already beginning to fall.

The existence of Mascarat was one of complete, almost incredible isolation. No visitor from the outside world climbed that stony and arduous path that led at length through the whispering chestnut-forest. No stranger entered the grim old house where Seguela, like a bundle of dingy black feathers, flopped perpetually from room to room in clumsy, corvine haste.

Seguela was one of those women who seem never to have been young, rather tall, but with an ugly stoop, so that on the rare occasions when she stood upright her height came as a surprise. She had a strange, broken way of moving, as though she were deformed, and was always in a frustration of stumbling, purposeless haste. She lived with her son in a dark hole of a room, a sort of den, opening out of the kitchen at the back.

Nobody knew what Seguela thought of the strange ménage. She went on with her work with an obstinate, blank indifference, taking no notice of anyone. But all the time, out of the bundle of dusty black rags that was her slovenly person, her small, sharp eyes were continually peering about with a cynical gleam of malice that took note of everything.

Silent and cynical, she watched what went on. But when Miss Wilson had gone, Seguela went limping about as before, busy in her stubborn, aimless, animal sort of way, seeming to have forgotten immediately that the other woman had ever existed.

Seguela was the chief link between Mascarat and the outer world. Once or twice a month on a fine afternoon she would take off the black triangular shawl that usually covered her thick, dark, greasy hair, and put on instead a full-bottomed cap of some white material. Then she would set out to visit her friends, looking like a dusty, white-headed insect as she toiled awkwardly down the rocky slope.