That, most definitely, was the reason Regina was so excited about this Christmas. Emma would be home soon. In forty-eight more days to be exact. She had been counting down the days to the soldier's expected arrival, and already Regina had the perfect present to give to her. Be it for Christmas or Valentine's Day, Regina was sure Emma would love it.
A scrapbook filled with pictures and keepsakes of their time apart. Regina knew she couldn't fill Emma in on every little detail in her letters, but the scrapbook could act as a way to catch up. She planned to continue adding to it having already printed out Christmas Day pictures and had Henry's last summer concert at daycare and his first Christmas concert burned onto a DVD.
She couldn't wait.
"Mommy!" Henry called from the kitchen where he was on supposed to be putting on his apron. Regina left her study to find her son already kneeling on a stool and trying to open a new bag of flour. "It's not working."
"Let's see those muscles." He grinned and tried to flex like his Uncle August had showed him, and the little bump of a muscle sprouted. "Good," Regina praised. "You'll be stronger than August yet."
Together they opened the flour. Powder fell on the counter with every tug of the bag, and by the time it was opened, an oval shaped ring of the baking supply circled around the bag.
"Can we make lots of cookies?"
"Lots?" Regina exclaimed. "I don't think your tummy can handle it."
"Yeah!" He argued. "And Unca August is coming and Auntie Ruby and Auntie Kat and Mr. David."
Regina bit back the smirk that threatened to appear on her face at Henry's insistence that David was simply a Mister and not part of their makeshift family that somehow worked. She pecked the top of his head and couldn't fault him for his logic just then and found she didn't want to. She could hear Emma already: "He's only a kid once, Regina. Let him have some sugar cookies."
"I suppose you're right, but you have to eat all your veggies tonight at dinner then."
He pouted and seemed to mull over the deal in his mind. "Just the carrots?"
"All."
"Carrots and corn."
"All, but I'll switch the cauliflower for peas."
"'Kay."
He turned back to the counter, already digging a measuring cup into the bag and plopping it into the mixing bowl. Together they worked on making the dough for the sugar cookies, and Regina's heart swelled with pride at how independent her son was. Save for turning on the stove and putting the tray of cookies in the oven, Henry had done most of the work by himself or guided with a light touch. He even started to trim the edges of the cut out cookies when he saw his mother make the Christmas tree and snowman cookie neater.
As soon as the cookies were in the oven, her little prince had even helped with the clean up, bringing a stool to the sink and helping by putting the dirty dishes and utensils into the soapy water.
There was still time on the oven when they finished with the cleanup. Henry had opted to sit against the island and watch the cookies bake when the knock sounded on the door. With a warning to Henry not to touch the stove, Regina removed her apron and headed to the foyer, catching the clock on her way to it.
Tina was away visiting family, and the Nolans weren't set to arrive until tomorrow. For a brief second Regina imagined opening the door, finding her soldier on the footstep with a smug grin and her luggage in tow. Emma would certainly lie to make a surprise better, Regina had learned that first hand. But she tamped down the feeling when she turned the knob because if she got her hopes too high, finding someone else on her doorstep would be a disappointment she didn't have to face.
It wasn't Emma on her doorstep. It wasn't Tina, or the Nolans, or Ruby.
She held the door to her when she saw the man dressed in his army blues, a medal hanging off his right breast pocket and his rank stitched on his forearm. The left side of his face was burned just under his chin and continuing down his neck, and his right arm was in a sling. Regina liked to think she knew everyone in town, at least by their face, but this man was a complete stranger. "Can I help you?"
He opened his mouth then shut it then pulled his cap off his head methodically. "Good afternoon, ma'am. Are you Regina Mills?"
She knit her brows and felt her heart speed up. "What's this about?"
He opened his mouth again but the crunching of snow behind him distracted him, and Regina looked past him to see August, dressed in a similar uniform though even from her distance his face was grave. "August?"
"Regina," he said softly when he reached the stoop. Though his face showed no emotion, the red lacing his eyes was unmistakable.
A brick settled in her stomach and a lump formed in her throat. "What's happening?"
The burned man looked solemnly at the ground then steered his eyes upward to lock with Regina's. She wanted to avert her eyes, and briefly she did to see that his burns extended to his left hand. It clicked. "It's with my deepest apologies—"
"No."
"—that I regret to inform you—"
"Stop."
"Regina."
"—that Corporal Emma Swan—"
She shook her head and tried to slam the door shut, but August beat her to it and caught her around the shoulders, her sobs wracking her body before she even knew she hit the floor.
The man shut his eyes and a tear slid down his cheek, catching on the crevices of his burned flesh before falling on the salted porch. "—is a casualty of war."
Chapter 19
Chapter Notes
Disclaimer in Chapter One.
AN: Yes, I am aware that I'm evil, but to be fair the warning was there in the summary. Bear with me for a few chapters though. This story isn't done yet.
"One for you." Henry dropped a sugar cookie onto a napkin in front of August then grabbed a handful and put them on his own plate. "And one for me."
August tried, he really did, to pull that smile all the way up to his eyes, but he just couldn't. Not when he knew Regina was in her study, sobbing, probably numb, maybe even a little angry, as Neal explained the situation. He could relate to that mind-numbing feeling. Like he had been thrown into the Artic in the middle of winter and told to swim through the freezing blackness only to have the air pressure suck the life out of him before he even had a chance.
When he found out nearly five days ago, his first thought was dread. His second: he was alone. And his third: how was he gonna tell Regina? He was barely surfacing himself. He'd be pulling her down with him and neither had a life jacket.
But misery loves company.
August had the phone picked up an hour after he got his bearings, but he thought better of it. A phone call? Even he wasn't that cruel. He'd be heading back to Maine anyway, but it wasn't supposed to be for this. Not for this. God, what a way to spend the holidays with a healthy dose of devastation. Neal had asked him to wait a few days. He should be the one to break the news. August snapped at him for that one, demanding how he would feel if someone waited to let him know that something happened to Tamara; how he liked it when he found out about his daughter's birth days after she was born. Neal couldn't say much after that, but August would never admit that he was grateful for those few days where he could soak in the reality that Emma was gone.
Christmas came and went and the phone call from the Mills on Christmas Eve went unanswered, only to be returned by a brief text saying he had been busy but was still on his way over. With presents and dread and coal, he thought numbly to himself. He drowned his disbelief in a bottle of Jack and hoped the nights lasted because there was no way in hell he could deal with seeing Regina's broken face.