That was what I said. What I meant was: If you trust me, that is.
The condom packet was flung across the room and Lev smiled down at me.
He fucking smiled at me.
It hit me with so much force that I forgot I needed oxygen to live. I breathed out a shaky, “Oh my. Your smile.”
I was overwhelmed.
He smiled. And it was aimed at me.
It was all for me.
His smile came down over me and I felt his grin at my lips as he kissed me. It was all I ever wanted, and now that I had it, it made me realize I would do anything to keep it.
He adjusted himself at my core, rose up on his elbows to look down at me, and pushed. The head of him went in smoothly, but soon I was being stretched and it was hard to stop myself from flinching. I gritted my teeth and closed my eyes, breathing deeply. Lev faltered, unmoving a moment, but I smiled up at him, nodding. “Lev, I want this.”
His hands slid under my body to wrap around my lower back. He looked me in the eye. “Slow and steady, baby.”
I braced. “Slow and steady.”
He thrust lightly and my body fought to accept him. I was wet, but his cock was thick and long, and I wondered if this was going to work out the way I’d planned in my head.
I closed my eyes and breathed through the initial lunges. The more he worked me, the easier it became. My body no longer fought, and the friction of Lev driving into me was sending sparks down my spine. I opened my eyes to look up at him and his hips jerked fitfully.
He spoke through gritted teeth. “You feel incredible, mouse. Just a little more.”
My hands gripped his forearms, my nails digging in as he plunged into me, no longer afraid of hurting me. He kept his pace for a long while before I reached up and laid my hand against his rough cheek, pulling him down for a long kiss.
I felt hot and stretched, and his warm touch sent me into a frenzy. “I’m ready.” The naughty words sat on the tip of my tongue until I finally breathed out against his lips, “Fuck me, Lev.”
It became clear that Lev would not be able to get the entire length of him in me. Not tonight, anyway. My guess was that it would take multiple lovemaking sessions to get there. Luckily for him, I was up for the challenge.
Gripping my hips, he drove into me, thrusting as hard and deep as he could go without hurting me. My chest heaved with unsteady breaths. He was driving me crazy. My pussy throbbed around him and he tipped his head back, groaning.
His arms went rigid, the veins in them sticking out, his brow furrowed as he tried to gain control over himself, but I didn’t want Lev to be controlled. I wanted him to feel as helpless as I did. I wanted him to lose himself in me as I did him. I wanted Lev in all the ways I could get him.
I wanted him in a way that no others had him.
My core convulsed once more and Lev let out a shout, his hips jerking wildly. “Mina.”
Seeing Lev turned on this way had lights dancing in front of my eyes. My pussy tightened and tightened. My nails found a home in Lev’s shoulders. I panted harshly until a soft cry flew out of me, sending my body flying as my sex throbbed uncontrollably around him.
Lev’s thrusts turned erratic. He lowered his head, his nose pressed into the side of my neck, and he let out a long animalistic growl. My arms wrapped around him, holding him close as he neared his crest. He stilled, his body turning stiff, and his cock jerked inside of me, bathing me in wet heat. His release was harsh and prolonged. He nipped my neck as he gained control of his rigid body. His breath hot at my neck, he kissed me there and I smiled.
Lev was mine now in every way.
I wanted him to know I was his in every way, too.
I ran my hands down his damp back as his erection softened inside me. Turning my face, I pressed a soft kiss to his forehead and spoke quietly, “I love you, Lev. Very much.”
He stopped breathing a moment. His response came in the form of those strong arms tightening around me, pulling me further into him. I smiled, my eyes closing contentedly.
I didn’t expect him to tell me he loved me back. I wasn’t even sure if he did. I merely needed him to know how he made me feel and that I needed him.
I was looking for long term, and, my Lev…he would give me long term.
My heart belonged to him.
Lord help the person who tried to get between us.
Chapter Thirty-Two
Mina
My head resting on Lev’s chest, I listened to his heartbeat. It was almost four a.m. when I whispered, “Tell me about Irina.”
Lev’s hand, entwined with mine over his right pectoral, stiffened. The thumb caressing my hand stilled. “I don’t like to talk about her.”
I knew this. I had seen his reactions to her name being mentioned. But this was important.
I had to tell him in a way he would understand. “I’m around, Lev. I’m bound to meet her one day. It’s your duty, as my man, to inform me what I’m up against.” I let that sink in. “I love you. I love Lidiya. I’m a part of your life now and I know it’s hard for you, but give me something, sweetie. Anything.”
He remained quiet a long while, but I heard the beat of his heart increase. He let out a long sigh. “She was beautiful.”
Ouch. Not a great start.
He went on. “She was also untouchable. It was widely known the Alkaev girls were off-limits until such a time that their father chose who they would marry. So when Irina approached me, I was cautious. We formed a friendship of sorts. I liked to listen to her talk. A month went by and she kissed me. I told her I wasn’t looking for a relationship; she told me she wasn’t either and that what we did together would remain private so her father wouldn’t know.”
Nothing too sordid so far. I listened on.
“Imagine my surprise when we made it to the bedroom and I found out Irina was well acquainted with sex. It stunned me. She knew things even I didn’t know. It should’ve tipped me off that something was wrong, but I told myself that Irina was my friend. We had sex multiple times over three months, always using protection.” He sounded dejected. “She insisted on protection. I never assumed we were at risk. I never thought she would be the one to tamper with the condoms.”
A small gasp came from me. “You’re saying she tricked you into getting her pregnant?”
“Yes and no,” he said calmly. “Her father forced the situation on her. He planned it from start to finish. It all came out after the pregnancy was confirmed. Her entire family met with Sasha, Nastasia, and me at Sasha’s house. Her father, the smug bastard, told me I would marry Irina and come work for him, with his firm, Zakon.” He shook his head. “He didn’t know me well enough to guess that my answer would be no. Irina was certainly surprised. She told me that she would never marry a retard like me anyway.”
A louder gasp escaped me. “She didn’t!” I growled. “The bitch!”
He kissed my forehead. “She did, but I don’t think she meant it. It was only after she found out I didn’t want to marry her that she got nasty. I think she expected we would have Lidiya together, raise her together, and stay friends. When I told Irina that I wanted the baby but not the marriage, her father went to plan B. Told us that Irina would have to terminate the pregnancy if she were to remain husbandless. I told them they’d do that over my dead body.” He huffed out a harsh breath. “I paid them a lot of money to prevent Irina from getting an abortion. I moved her in here, hired Mirella to care for her, and to make sure she wouldn’t harm the child. As long as the money kept coming, Irina’s father, Igor, remained happy with the situation.”