What I had seen in the first hour was enough to convince me that we would be fortunate if any of us survived this ordeal. Pitiful specimens of humanity, walking human bodies like skeletons, their heads bald, their eyes sunken, walking with hands on the wall to support themselves, were crying for help, praying for redemption. The room in which I was placed was the isolation room, filled with those patients who were deathly ill. Here two bedsteads were put together, with boards across them on which five men could lie. I had to lie between four men who were sick with dysentery and typhus. We had only two pillows and one blanket for the five of us. Besides this bed there were five others. A bucket in one corner served as a chamberpot, but few of these men were well enough to reach the chamberpot in time, relieving themselves on the floor or wherever they happened to be. The stench was terrible, not only in this room but in all parts of the hospital, for the only lavatory was in the basement. We had no towels or anything with which to clean our hands. In the morning, when the first “nurse” came on duty, she asked, “How many are dead?” After we gave her the number, she asked, “What, no more?”
The dead bodies were taken out of the beds, undressed, and taken away. The same woman who had done the undressing brought out bread. We could not eat, putting the bread under our pillows against the time when we would be hungry, though many times the bread was taken away from us. In this way the disease spread from one room to another, and the entire house was soon an island of dying souls. When I entered this hospital the number of occupants had been close to three thousand, all the rooms being crowded to the fullest capacity. The mortality rate in the months from January to August was exactly 80 per cent. During my first fourteen days I was sick with typhus and had an average temperature of 102 degrees. I couldn’t eat a bite, but I badly wanted something to drink.
Every morning my nearest neighbor in the bed was dead. Often I envied these dead men, but when I saw how a dead body was treated—how they grasped it by the feet and dragged it out of the bed, the head striking the floor, my will to live was rekindled, and I hoped and prayed that I would get well and be permitted to leave this terrible house.
Most of the prisoners had typhus exanthematous, a deadly disease which requires special care, but here there was a shortage of doctors and drugs. I do not believe that anyone made a serious effort to save or cure a prisoner. The registration of the dead prisoners was simple, the nurse writing the name of the deceased on a strip of newspaper with a pencil and fastening this on the wrist with a cord or bandage. Nobody knows where these creatures are buried.
In the latter part of January my temperature dropped to normal, but my body was as emaciated as the others, my weight having dropped to ninety-six pounds. My strength had deserted me, and I was walking like all the others, keeping my hands on the wall for support. It took me almost four more weeks to be able to walk alone without any support.
Since I was a medical student, I was compelled to work in this hospital, and I was appalled at the manner in which the ill and wounded were treated. No care was exercised for the wounded, the bandages being taken off, laundered, and, after drying, put on again without being sterilized. All of the injured soldiers had worms in their wounds. It was shocking to witness their suffering. Besides those who were wounded, there were many hundreds with frostbitten hands and feet, most of them frozen in the third degree, which means that the frozen part of the hand or foot had already turned black. Though I barely had the strength to hold myself upright, I tried to help these men as best I could.
During the afternoon hours I went through all the rooms to see if I could help someone. I had no drugs or medical help, but I had the knowledge and ability to make a diagnosis and could suggest what should be done and give the order to the nurse. Starvation, shortage of drugs, and carelessness accounted for many deaths.
I was in this hospital almost eight months, sickened by the incredible disregard for the welfare of human beings. A commission was expected to arrive from Moscow to inspect the hospital, so a housecleaning was arranged, some women from out of town brought in to wash the windows. We had to scrub the floors ourselves. The nurses made some tablecloths from cotton, and for the first time they gave us sheets and pillowcases. The commission went through all the rooms except the isolation room. The convalescent prisoners were outside in the garden, taking a sunbath and waiting for the commission; our instructions were to tell them how grateful we were for being helped in our sickness. Nobody expected the commission to ask why so many prisoners had died, and none of the others had the courage to answer. I, being a member of the Red Cross, felt a certain compulsion to answer this question, and I told them everything I had seen in the eight months I had been there, concluding with the statement that, if I were ever granted my freedom, I would tell the Red Cross how the U.S.S.R. treated the members of the Red Cross and sick human beings. After the commission left I was declared healthy enough to go to work in a labor camp which was connected with a cement factory. My weight was still ninety-six pounds, and my strength seemed to have left me utterly.
I had never known that a human being could endure such misery, and I hoped and prayed to stay alive and to return to my parents and sister. Here in my lonely captivity deep in Russia, behind well-guarded fences, I realized for the first time how much I loved and missed my family. Often I thought of the bakeshop, wishing that I could eat all the leftovers and the flour which was spilled on the floor. Hunger makes animals of human beings, and the Russians took advantage of this knowledge by offering us two ounces more of bread each day, for which we would work doubly hard. The work in this cement factory was manual, since the factory itself had been established almost fifty years earlier, using old-fashioned methods and manned by political or criminal prisoners before we prisoners of war came.
At the railroad station, where the cement came in freight wagons, I had to unload the cement, shovel fifty pounds in paper bags, and carry it on my back into a storeroom. We were dusty from head to toe, the dust so thick in our ears and nose when the wind was blowing that we could scarcely breathe, but it was necessary to unload the wagon if we wanted to get our extra two ounces of bread that evening. Returning to the barracks at night, we seldom found water to clean our faces and hands, which contributed to our low spirits by forcing us to go about dusty and pale, looking like walking corpses. Counting the days and hoping for the end of the war was all that kept us going. It was now 1943, and none of us could or would believe that we would be here for several more years.
In this factory a Jewish woman doctor was in charge of the prisoners. This doctor knew that I was suffering from poor health and found time to talk to me as I came in the ambulance for treatment, questioning me about my descent, my education, and my family. I knew that I had found a friend, and she promised to help me, but she told me that she could do no more than was possible for her as a Russian citizen. I understood her position very well and didn’t ask for anything that could get her in trouble. She told me that she would grant permission for the most seriously ill prisoners to transfer to another camp. When we reported to the ambulance for physical examination, several days later, I praised the Lord when I found that I was among the twenty-five sick men to be transferred, and my gratitude to this doctor was unbounded. Still, there was no way of knowing whether the new camp would be better or worse. We had hoped before to leave the worse for a better, but each time our hopes had been dashed and we had found ourselves in a worse environment than that which we had left.