A few months after my departure I met up with these members of the Berlin circle in Paris in the area around the Sorbonne.
“Open up for Tintorer the philologist …”
“Come in, Tintorer the philologist!”
“Bad news,” said the philologist in the doorway. “Bad news: our great, much admired friend, Formiguera, the dancer from Granollers, is dying in Montmartre. Science has uttered its last word: nothing more can be done.”
“…?”
“Rampant, terminal TB. The day after tomorrow he will find eternal rest.”
“Science has uttered its last word?”
“Absolutely.”
The moment we knew that science had uttered its last word, we could all relax.
We left the hotel and Tintorer the philologist suggested we go for a stroll in Le Jardin du Luxembourg. I agreed.
“Nothing can distract better from death’s intolerable presence,” declared the philologist, “than the contemplation of beautiful things. This park is an ideal spot. The Palace of the Medicis, today the seat of honorable senators of the Republic, is built of fine, ancient stone. The offspring of the bourgeoisie sails multiple toy yachts on the central pond. Perhaps one would prefer it to be less crowded, but they are harmless folk, and not out to knock into you or give you a shove. In short, I like this park. The pomp and circumstance of its trees are most pleasant.”
We strolled along its avenues and under its trees, we gawped at the circular pond and the children’s merry-go-rounds, we read the names of the poets inscribed on their monuments in that wretched style we all know so well. We walked as far as Sainte-Beuve’s statue. The second we arrived, a pigeon deposited a small drop of white excrement on the great critic’s broad and noble baldpate.
“Notwithstanding,” said a rather embarrassed Tintorer, “Sainte-Beuve is right.”
We finally sat on a bench close to the statue of Le Play. The conversation drifted slowly in dribs and drabs. The philologist drew triangles and other geometrical figures in the park earth. He livened up all of a sudden.
“Formiguera,” he said, “is a son of Granollers. His father was a schoolmaster. His mother was one of these petite middle-class women who spend their lives brooding over the ambitions of their children. It’s all they have to live for, they never go out, they secrete their lives away in the nooks and crannies of their houses. They had two children, a boy, and a girl who married a veterinary surgeon in La Garriga. They tried to interest the boy in studying. His father wanted him to be a doctor. He scraped through his school certificate. The lad was easily distracted, uninterested, with no strength of will. The time came to leave for university in Barcelona. His mother accompanied him. You recall those middle-aged women one sometimes saw in university courtyards, dressed in black, with peachy cheeks, inquisitive eyes, and black headscarves? One such … They looked for lodgings, student lodgings on Carrer d’Aribau. They bought a few things from stores. A bookseller familiar with the dirty swindle in science textbooks sold them course notes. Then the mother burst into tears … Are you too from outside Barcelona?” asked Tintorer after a brief pause.
“Yes.”
“Did you study at university?”
“Yes.”
“Then you experienced that unforgettable feeling of being alone in Barcelona at the age of seventeen. It’s a combination of homesickness and weary fascination. You get up one morning in October, with a sun that’s still hot. You go to class with your course notes in your pocket. By that time, the university is buzzing. An occasional professor in his gown is walking across the courtyards. Carts with barrels of water wash down the sunny square. The whole world seems to be populated by seamstresses and kiosks selling aperitifs and olives. Then you open a door and see a billiards table with young lads in their shirtsleeves who look as if they’ve been playing there from the day they came into the world. At the back, the table for seven and a half. Do you remember the smell small change leaves in the palm of the hand? You draw in your stomach. I know because I’ve also alternated philosophy with these vile passions. You take that smell into the street — and a dab of cue chalk on your back — and if you recall the grimace on the croupier’s face, imagine! — an early morning croupier! As the first yellow tram trundles by, you have a brief fainting fit. Then you go down Pelayo and take a walk along the Rambla. So horrible, but long live Pelayo! Every morning the whole of Barcelona takes a walk down Pelayo. When you’re a student, you inevitably bump into everyone you want to meet. If you’re playing hooky, you bump into your professor. He doesn’t know you, but you doff your hat instinctively, though you’d rather not. Did he perhaps see me? You turn round. The professor turns round — to look at a seamstress or a widow on her way to sign on at the tax office. You assume that fellow will fail you. You bump into a gang of students coming from lectures. What was that? Did they get me drunk out of my mind? If they didn’t, you conclude you must be the most intelligent being on the planet. If, on the other hand, they did, it becomes the axle around which the world gyrates, the center of the earth, the Holy Trinity … Nevertheless, you buy a newspaper. You look for news from your town. Well, well! We’ll have a new priest! The Daughters of Maria will be happy because they say he’s the learned sort. The apothecary is betrothed. You glance at the front page. Poincaré has given another speech. Havana cigars. The situation in Moldavia: Havana cigars, Variety Shows. 25 beautiful young ladies, 25. Kursaaclass="underline" Death of the Heart (drama). Canaletes. The first absinthe of the day at the Continental. You put your watch right — your First Communion watch. You go into Poliorama to see the photos. Last year’s law graduates. Idiots, to a man. At eleven some people are impatiently waiting for the girls to leave El Sigle. They leave the store at one, but some people will do what they will. The trees are still green, but their leaves have withered. The Marquess de Comillas, completely incognito, is dangling his legs over his palace garden wall, reading El Criterio by Balmes. Further down, a flower seller is chatting to an old man. The nights those florists must enjoy! A tiny lady in a hat is still in time to carry a fish on a cabbage leaf from the Boqueria market. A lady in an open carriage that’s as gray as a cello. The aristocracy. Caldetes is small potatoes, we think. Granollers is better, albeit without the sea. Then, the billboard man. The Bone Cure. Lots of seamstresses. A river in full flow. Those coming from Boqueria are off to the Carrer de l’Hospital; those coming from Carrer de l’Hospital are off to Boqueria. A late bat flies out from Carrer d’En Roca and turns up Carrer de Sant Pau. A whiff of the dankness of stagnant old Barcelona hits you from Carrer de Ferran. The wind brings a whiff of blotting paper from the Town Hall and Local Government Offices. The Plaça Reial. Pitarra, the immortal and unpleasant Pitarra. The Hotel Falcón. I’ve slept there. I could repeat the experience. Inevitably you find in such places ordinary folk enjoying their aperitifs, cheap, nasty cigars between their lips and carnations behind their ears. What will they be up to at home? Did Carrer Nou ever loom large in your life? In those early days, you’d make it to the Porta de la Pau. The sea is heavy and a diesel-oil color, but the seagulls skim your eyes with their wings. The breeze weakens your legs. The Majorca ferry is always the same though for Majorcans it’s always different. At this point in time, they are better documented. The sound of pigs squealing. A train passes, trucks clang over the revolving platform. You feel even worse if you look at the statue of Columbus. On your way back, you walk behind military officers. You follow those same backs as far as Canaletes. Trams are packed with gentlemen on their way to lunch. Their wives wait for them between two bowls of steaming soup. Today, however, they’ve cooked rice with strips of cod. Some are yawning. They’re already on their coffee at the Petit Pelayo. It seems as if it was only yesterday. A footballer — pastry in hand — is arguing, then eats it and wipes his fingers on the back of his pants. Street musicians. They’ve just been to see the chair of the Events Committee. Multicolored chufa milk is gushing violently in Canaletes. On Pelayo you hear the noise of an iron gate banging shut. The tram to Sarrià. The empty Plaça de la Universitat. A trickle of students leaves that premier teaching center. A priest. They’re from the Arts Faculty and most enlightened. A stream of filth. And now a huddle of professors with their walking sticks and high culture, as if they’d just returned from the Battle of Lepanto. Did they get me drunk out of my mind? You drag yourself up the staircase of your lodgings by the banister. The room hasn’t been cleaned; the mattresses are rolled up on a chair, though they have opened the windows. A breeze. A stench of oil and raw onion. Various noises from the inside yard. You enter the kitchen gripping your Mineralogy notes. Followed by soup. You feel tired, dead on your feet that are on fire. The landlady’s longest hair always ends up on your plate. You eat with little appetite and a tad disgusted, especially if you don’t study Medicine. Things at home are cleaner. Better not wipe your fork on your napkin …”