I lit a calor gas lamp hanging from a beam, and its hissing white light more or less illuminated the room. The damp air, one notch off being water, smelled of soil and foul rags, and I shivered with cold, sorry I hadn’t had a blow-out at some place chosen from the Good Food and Hotel Guide, which Moggerhanger kept in the car in case he needed to look after himself while on the road. I could have charged it to expenses. ‘You just don’t think,’ as Bridgitte used to say, ‘do you?’
I set my radio going on the wonky table. An effort was necessary to create civilised comfort. At the end of the room was a huge fireplace made of boulders, by which lay a heap of newspapers and a pile of logs with a blunt chopper on top. I hacked out some sticks and got a fine blaze, though a fire would have to burn for weeks to cure the dank atmosphere. Under the window stood a calor gas burner and a blackened kettle which I filled at the stream. In a cupboard I found tea (mouldy), sugar (damp) and milk (sour), all of which I threw into the bushes, and got fresh provisions from the car. The room was filled with the smell of frying bacon and eggs, boiling tomatoes and toasting bread. Within an hour of arrival I was sitting by the fire, smoking a cigarette, drinking the best mug of tea since Mike’s caff that morning and listening to a talk on the radio about a poet who killed himself while living in an isolated cottage in a remote and wooded part of the country.
To be cut off from the world, and from all normal life, was a not unpleasant sensation, though having been brought up in a street regarded as a slum, we’d at least had a tap and a gas stove, as well as a lavatory across the yard. At this place I dug a hole with a trowel at the side of the house, crouching with an umbrella in one hand, a flashlight in the other and a roll of white paper in my teeth. I supposed some shepherd had lived here with a wife and eight kids, as happy as the midwinter was long, but it certainly wasn’t the sort of bijou gem a woman would walk into with her knickers in her hand.
It was quiet — I will say that — except for the scratching of a rat but he, or she (they, most likely), kept a fair distance after my hello of a bullet from the door. I threw another armful of logs on the fire, then stacked the ten packages from the car in the dresser-cupboard, hoping that with its doors shut tight the rats wouldn’t get in and sample them. Above the dresser, just to give a homely touch to the place, was another pair of Moggerhanger’s framed exhortations (though these had fly shit in the corners) saying: ‘Eternal violence is the price of safety’ and ‘Morality knows no bounds’.
I went upstairs to see what condition the bedrooms were in. One to the left had heaps of rags under the window, and I didn’t care to investigate for fear of finding a rotting tramp underneath. The rest of the room was stacked with red and white plastic bollards for organising contra-flow systems on the motorway, as well as red lights, yellow lights, road works indicators, men-at-work triangles and police ‘Go-slow’ signs. It was as if someone had broken into the Highway Code, because my torch also lit up the happy insignia of two children hand in hand on their way to school; a deer leaping merrily across the road; a nightmare avalanche of rocks hitting a car roof and the sign of a car halfway sunk in water after driving off the quay. Another showed a bus caught between the two jaws of a drawbridge, people spilling out with arms waving.
Fuck this, I said, let me go downstairs; but first I looked in the room opposite. On a low table between two iron beds stood a copse of bottles with candles stuck in their tops. The carpet was so covered with patches of grease that I resisted walking on it in case I slipped and broke my neck. A spider as big as an ashtray scooted across the room, but he seemed friendly compared to the rats twittering by the skirting boards, because he came slowly back to have a look at me.
I pulled the truckle bed in front of the fire, and lay down fully clothed. The blankets weighed like a bearskin that had been forty years in a damp pawnshop. The swollen brook was reinforced by rain which first beat against the windows above my head. The door was so badly fitted, or warped, that wind drove through and kept the room cold.
It was hard to sleep, due to the two mugs of strong tea and the fact that there were at least half a dozen rats scratching and squeaking behind the skirting boards as they held a council of war. I read the Riot Act in rat language and fired a slug towards a pair of beady eyes, which brought quiet for a few minutes, though the shot, having missed its target, tore down another square foot of plaster. The prevalence of so many rats led me to wonder whether the time wasn’t far off when conventional weapons would no longer be appropriate, and I would have to go nuclear. Fortunately such an option was beyond my capability, and all I could do was reload the gun and lay it on the floor beside the bed. It would serve Moggerhanger right if the house was reduced to a ruin, for not providing a cosier relay post.
The road was in front of my eyes, pot-holes which I avoided, traffic lights suddenly on red when I was going at ninety. I came out of a café to find all four tyres flat (as well as the spare); then the Roller going backwards towards a cliff, with Moggerhanger, Cottapilly, Pindarry, Kenny Dukes, Toffeebottle and Jericho Jim ready to blast me with their shotguns if it went over. Or I was driving peacefully along a leafy road when a very peculiar kind of police siren, such as I’d not heard before, came in short loud squeaks.
Two rats scampered from the bed when I sat up. I felt my nose to see if it was still there. It was wet, though not from blood. I didn’t know whether to laugh or whisper. I laughed. They were invisible in the dark. Their eyes glowed, but their arses didn’t as they ran away. I shone the torch around the room and fired another slug at where their hole might be, just to show who was the boss as I wiped cold sweat from my face. I felt like an officer in the trenches in the Great War, except that I thought I might desert my post and make a bid for Blighty. There was a court martial in a room made entirely of mud. The rats sat at a table and condemned me to death. The joy of life induced me to fire off a dozen slugs. The noise of the stream outside affected my bladder, so I had a piss standing on the doorstep. Then I fell asleep. The human frame could stand only so much.
The light that woke me was like the reflection from a wall of cold porridge. I sat up, shot a rat, got out of bed, lit a fire, put a kettle on, laid sausages in the pan, then puffed at a cigar and awaited results.
The bullet had knocked the rat’s brains out, which was not a pleasant sight before breakfast, but I swept the remains into a pan and threw them over the bushes. By the time my sausages were cooked they looked like turds swimming for dear life in a pool of fat. When I extracted the fat and threw it on the fire the room stank like Akbar’s Snackbar. I was about to tuck in when I heard someone moving upstairs. Survival, a novelty at first, was becoming a problem.
During the day I’d intended sweeping away heaps of grit and plaster caused by my jittery gunplay. Then I would dust and wash where necessary, clean the windows to let in more light, and dry the blankets so as to make my second night a fraction cosier. But I was in no way inclined to share my abode, and if an old vagrant had shambled in during the night I was determined to get rid of him.
I went softly up, meaning to put a slug between his eyes if he showed any fight. The cargo enclosed in the dresser was too valuable to be at the mercy of a light-fingered tramp. If it was what I was beginning to think it was he would lick that white dust off with a beatific grin and at least die happy.
There was a noise of someone fighting his way from a cocoon of cardboard. A bottle fell on the floor and, welcoming the noise because it covered the creaking of the stairs, I leapt into the room and flattened myself at the door. Even full daylight wouldn’t let me see across the room. I seemed the only one in it, which proved how far apart my senses and feelings were.