Getting away, the son of a bitch was getting away!
I flew down the stairs, ignoring something white as I pelted down, rage lifting me out of myself so that I barely felt my feet touch the floor. But I heard the slam of the back door as I came through the kitchen doorway, and though I was only seconds behind him, it was enough for the intruder to conceal himself in the woods in back of the Drinkwaters' house.
I stood in the door for a minute or more, panting. For the first time, I understood the phrase "spoiling for a fight." Then common sense prevailed and I retreated, locking the kitchen door behind me.
I suffered an immediate reaction to the adrenaline my body had pumped into my blood to prepare me for action; at every step, I felt my flesh sag on my bones. With a terrible reluctance, I went to see what had been left on the stairs. A spotless white handkerchief was tented over something about halfway up. I reached out slowly and pulled off the handkerchief.
Shining in the sun pouring through the stained-glass window at the landing was a set of cheap metal toy handcuffs. By them was a plastic gun.
I sank onto the stairs and buried my head in my hands.
Three days ago, my past life had been a secret, or so I'd thought.
Now Claude Friedrich knew about my misfortunes. I'd told Marshall. Who else knew?
The life I had so carefully constructed was falling apart. I tried to find something to hold on to.
And I recognized, once again, the bleak truth: There was nothing but myself.
I searched the house. I talked to myself the whole time, telling myself that after it was searched and safe, I would finish cleaning it, and I did. It was a tremendous relief to leave the house and return to my own. I called Helen Drinkwater at work and told her that on my drive to work, I'd seen a suspicious man at the edge of the yard.
"I think you shouldn't leave it unlocked even for the fifteen minutes before I come," I said. "So either I have to get there while you're there, or you need to give me a key." I could feel the woman's suspicions coming over the phone line, along with a tapping sound. Helen Drinkwater was tapping her teeth with a pencil. Mrs. Drinkwater doesn't actually like to see me; she just likes to enjoy the results of my having been there. Before this morning, that had suited me just fine.
"I guess," she said finally, "you better come earlier, Lily. You can just wait in the kitchen until we leave."
"I'll do that," I said, and hung up.
The vicious game played with me today would not be repeated. I lay down on my bed and thought about the incident. It could be that the intruder had not known I could hear the little sound of the boards creaking; perhaps he'd just anticipated that I'd start down the stairs at some later time and find the cuffs and gun. Of course the intruder hadn't planned on any kind of confrontation; that was plain from the way he'd rabbited out the back door. But somehow, it made a difference whether or not the intruder had intended me to be aware of his presence before he left the house.
I would have to think about it. Maybe ask Marshall.
And that brought me upright on the bed instantly. I slapped myself on the cheek.
Marshall was on the edges of my life; he had probably left it completely after our conversation the night before. I won't start to think of him as part of my life, I promised myself. He'll go back to Thea. Or he's completely gone off me, since I told him about the scars. Or his common sense will tell him he doesn't need someone like me.
After that, I swore off thought for the day. I ate a hasty sandwich, then left the house.
I have two clients on Thursday afternoons, and I felt it had been a very long day when I left the last one, a travel agent's office, at 6:30. The last thing in the world I wanted to see was Claude Friedrich at my doorstep.
You'd think he has the hots for me, I thought sardonically.
I parked the car in the carport and walked around to the front door instead of entering by the kitchen door, as I usually did.
"What do you want?" I asked curtly.
He raised his eyebrows. "Not very polite today, are we?"
"I've had a long day. I don't want to talk about the past. I want my supper."
"Then ask me in while you fix it." He said this quite gently.
I couldn't think of what to do, I was so surprised. I wanted to be alone, but I would sound peevish if I told him to go away—and what if he didn't?
Without answering, I unlocked the door and walked in. After a minute, he walked in behind me.
"Are you hungry or thirsty?" I said, fury just underneath the words.
"I've had my supper, but I'd appreciate a glass of tea if you have some," Friedrich rumbled.
Alone in the kitchen for a moment, I put my arms on the counter and rested my head on them. I heard the big man's footsteps sauntering through my spotless house, pausing in the doorway of my exercise room. I straightened and saw that Friedrich was in the kitchen, watching me. There was both sympathy and wariness in his face. I got a glass out of the cabinet and poured him some tea, plonking in some ice, too. I handed it to him wordlessly.
"I'm not here to talk about your past. I've had to check up on everyone connected to Pardon, as you can understand. Your name rang a bell. ... I remembered it, from the newspapers. But what I'm here to talk about today ... a client of yours was in to see me," Friedrich said. "He says you can verify his story."
I raised my eyebrows.
"Tom O'Hagen says he came in from playing golf on his day off, Monday, at about three o'clock."
He waited for my reaction, but I had none to give.
"He says that he then went over to Albee's apartment to pay his rent, found the apartment door ajar, looked inside, and saw that the area rug was rumpled up, the couch pushed crooked, and no one answered his call. He left his rent check on the desk right inside the door and left."
"So you're thinking Pardon may already have been dead at three o'clock."
"If Tom's telling the truth. You're his corroborating witness."
"How so?"
"He says he saw you going into the Yorks' apartment as he came down the stairs."
I thought back, trying hard to remember a perfectly ordinary day. I hadn't known until I was coming home from my night walk that it would be a day I needed to remember in detail.
I closed my eyes, attempting to replay that little stretch of time on Monday afternoon. I'd had the bag in my hand with the supplies the Yorks had wanted me to put in their apartment, anticipating their return. No, two bags. I'd had to put them down to fish out the right key—poor planning on my part. I remembered being peeved at my lack of foresight.
"I didn't hear anyone walking across the hall, but I did hear someone coming down the stairs, and it may have been Tom," I said slowly. "I was having trouble getting the right key separated from the bunch on my key chain. I went in the Yorks' place, put down the bags... put some things in the refrigerator. I left the other things out on the kitchen counter. I didn't need to water the asparagus plant because it was still very wet, and the shades in the bedroom were already open—I usually open them for the Yorks—so I left." I replayed locking the door, turning to leave... .
"I did see him! He was walking away from Pardon's apartment to go to his own and he was hurrying!" I exclaimed, pleased with myself. Tom O'Hagen isn't my favorite person, but I was glad I was able to verify his story, at least to some extent. If it had been Tom I'd heard coming down the stairs, and then I'd seen him again leaving Pardon's in the two or three minutes I'd spent in the Yorks' apartment, surely he wouldn't have had time to kill Pardon. But why would Tom have been upstairs? He has a ground-floor apartment. Deedra? Nope. She'd been at work.
"I hear you know Marshall Sedaka," Friedrich said abruptly.
The comment was so unexpected that I actually looked at him directly.