At that first view I was astonished that there could be so much comfort on a ship.
“Pray be seated,” said the Captain. “I will order food.”
We sat down and a barefooted sailor came in and prepared the table. It was not long before steaming plates of something like beans and salted meat was brought in.
The Captain held the chairs for us as we sat down.
“You do not perhaps feel hungry,” he said, “but it is well to eat a little.”
“Can you tell me why you struck down my husband?” asked Honey.
“I cannot tell you. I did not leave the ship.”
“You knew others had come to take us away?”
“It was the purpose of our mission.”
“To raid our coasts to take women …” I began.
“No,” he said. “To take you. You will understand in due course.”
Honey spoke gently then: “And you will understand that we are bewildered. We want to know what this means. We fear you have brought us here to…”
He smiled at her courteously. “No harm shall come to you on my ship if you obey my orders. I have issued a command that no one is to touch you.” He was looking at me. Then he turned to Honey. “I will command the same immunity for you.”
“She has already been attacked,” I said.
“I trust…”
Honey touched the Agnus Dei. “This saved me,” she said. “This and John Gregory.”
“Any man who dares touch either of you will pay for it with his life,” said the Captain.
“Then I demand to know for what purpose we have been brought here,” I said.
“This is something you will know in time.”
“You have snatched us from our homes,” I began, but again Honey restrained me.
“For Heaven’s sake, Catharine, let us discover all we can. The Captain is anxious to help us.” Pregnancy had brought a serenity to Honey which in the circumstances seemed unnatural. She was thinking of her baby and playing for time.
He gave her a grave smile.
“It is my duty to see that you shall not be harmed. I shall do my duty. But I ask your help. You will not go where I do not wish you to. You will never go unescorted. The man Gregory will be with you. Do not go on deck without him. The men will have been warned, but it is not always possible to control them, and although they know they risk their lives there may be some wild enough to thrust their attentions on you.”
“Where are we going?”
“I cannot tell you. It is not a long voyage. You will understand when you reach our destination. There you will learn the purpose of your coming. If you are wise you will forget what has happened and look forward. As far as this ship is concerned I offer my protection and any comforts I can give you. The ship resembles a castle, some say—a floating castle—but it is not a castle, you must understand. We are at sea and life at sea is not like that on land. There are luxuries we cannot have. Nevertheless, I would wish you to be as comfortable as I can make you. Clothes, for instance. You have come ill prepared for a journey. I must find some cloth for you. Perhaps you can make it into gowns. You will eat in this cabin—sometimes with me, sometimes alone. My advice is that you accept what has befallen you—accept with serenity and understanding that on this ship if you follow my instructions no harm can come to you.”
He applied himself to the meat and beans on his plate. I could not eat much, nor could Honey.
I could not believe that this was really happening to me. I would wake up soon, I promised myself, the Spanish galleon would become the Rampant Lion, the Captain change to Jake Pennlyon and it would be just another dream of which I had had several, about that domineering character.
But this dream—this nightmare—went on and on and it was reality that had faded.
Very soon after Honey became violently ill. It was small wonder. We were unused to the roll of a ship; we were exhausted mentally and physically; we were bewildered and uncertain of what was happening to us. And Honey was pregnant.
I looked after her and that was a good thing to do because it made me forget everything but that I feared she would die.
John Gregory was never far away. How I hated that man who had slyly come to our house, posing as a priest, and who had led our captors to the house and to us. A spy! A traitor! What could be worse? But he was now our protector. I could not bring myself to look at him without expressing my contempt. But he was useful.
I said to him: “I fear you are killing my sister. You know the state of her health; this shock has been too much for her, as indeed was to be expected. I should have believed those who had been befriended by us would never have betrayed us, but I was mistaken. We had liars and traitors in our midst.” When I berated him he would stand before me, his eyes downcast, contrition in every gesture. Honey always tried to stop me, but I couldn’t stop myself and there was some relief in giving vent to my feelings.
On the second day when Honey was so sick and I feared for her life I said to John Gregory, “I need our maid here. She must help me nurse my sister.”
He said he would speak to the Captain and very soon Jennet joined us.
She looked much the same. Is it possible, I asked myself, that she could adjust herself so soon?
She was in an old gown which she had snatched up before she was taken; and already she was regaining that complete placidity which was a feature of hers.
The sight of her face irritated me once I had felt the relief that she was alive and well. She looked as though she were satisfied with her lot. How could she be? And what had happened to her?
I said: “The mistress is very sick. You must help with her, Jennet.”
“Oh, poor lady,” she said. “And in her condition.”
Honey’s pregnancy was visible now. I thought anxiously of the child and I fervently wished that we had both gone home to my mother the day after Jake Pennlyon had sailed.
Honey seemed comforted because the three of us were together, and Jennet was undoubtedly a good nurse. There were rough stools on which we could sit and we were beginning to grow accustomed to the roll of the ship and the smell of cooking. Honey slept a great deal during those first days, which was a good thing for her; and Jennet and I talked together as we watched over her.
I learned that Jennet had been seen by one of the men who had raided the house. He was strong and lithe and had come upon Jennet on her way to my room. He had seized her and spoken to her, but she could not understand what he had said. He had picked her up and carried her under his arm as though she were a bundle of hay.
Jennet giggled and I knew what had followed on the ship.
“Just him,” said Jennet. “There were others that wanted me, but he brought out a knife. And although I couldn’t understand what he said, I knew he meant I was his and he’d use that knife on anyone that touched me.”
She cast down her eyes and blushed and I wondered that she so wanton—for it was clear that she was not displeased with her state—could appear so coy, for she was not assuming modesty; she was too simple for that.
“I do think he be a good man, Mistress,” she murmured.
“He was not your first either,” I said.
Her blush deepened. “Well, Mistress, in a manner of speaking, no.”
“In a manner of acting either,” I said. “And what of Richard Rackell, whom you were going to marry?”
“He were but half a man,” she said scornfully.
Jennet was undoubtedly satisfied with her new protector.
She talked a good deal about him as we sat watching Honey. It took my mind off what was happening to us all as I listened.
She had not in truth been eager to marry Richard Rackell, only it was good for a wench to be married; and having given in like, well, there might be results.