The worst of it was that Alanna believed Mi-chi, or she believed whatever had spoken through the Doi woman. That surge of weird magic was impossible to deny. Just what is sitting up in that pass, waiting for me to come after the Jewel? she asked herself time after time as that day ended and the next crept on. The blizzard continued to blow outside without showing any signs of letting up.
She thought about just going home, but at this point, something inside Alanna balked. She knew there had to have been other times in her life when she’d failed to complete something she’d set out to do. She couldn’t remember them, however, and she didn’t want to. Furthermore, she did not want her search for the Dominion Jewel to become the time she would remember that she had started something and had given it up. Almost in spite of herself, she began to remember what she’d known as a child in Trebond about survival in the snow.
She was peering through a crack in a shuttered window shortly before twilight of their third day at the inn when she felt someone come up behind her. She knew it was Liam and didn’t turn. “I think the storm’s dropping,” she said, trying to hope.
Liam turned her around, gripping her shoulders tight. “Don’t even think of it,” he warned. “And don’t make your eyes wide and ask what I’m talking about. I’m not Coram, and your tricks don’t work with me.” That made her angry.
“Maybe Coram lets my ‘tricks’ work with him, and I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Then why’d the innkeeper tell me you were asking about snow gear?” He gave her a little shake. “Do you think you’re immortal? That’s a killer blizzard! Entire herds are out there frozen in their tracks! Maybe that Gift of yours could shelter you from the little blows in Tortall, but this is the Roof of the World, and you will die. I’d never attempt it, and I forbid you to!”
Years of training stopped her from hitting him, although she’d never wanted to as much as right now. “You don’t know what I can do, Ironarm.” Her voice was icy as she jerked out of his hold. “I resent your acting as if I’d do something stupid if you weren’t around.”
“And wouldn’t you do something stupid?” he snapped. “Sometimes you act like you have no more sense than the kitten I named you!”
That was unfair, and they both knew it was unfair. Liam couldn’t apologize; Alanna couldn’t forgive. They were coldly silent through dinner, and the others retreated to their rooms immediately after, rather than witness this quarrel. Liam stayed to talk with the Doi, and Alanna went upstairs with Faithful.
“We’re not going to work this out,” she told the cat as she undressed and got into bed. “We’re too much alike, I guess.” Then she began to cry, because it hurt, in spite of her knowing why things were going wrong. Faithful nestled beside her cheek, purring comfortably. Alanna was asleep by the time Liam came to bed. She didn’t feel him gently touch her tear-blotched cheek.
The dream was so clear it scared her: Jonathan stood beside a coffin that held his mother, Queen Lianne.
“She was not strong.” Roger stood on the opposite side of the coffin, his face emotionless. “Her time had come.”
Jon’s eyes were tired. “She was healthy once, before you sent the Sweating Sickness. Before you tried to kill her with your spells.”
“That was another lifetime for me,” Roger said. Thom was a shadow at Roger’s side. “I have no more magic,” Jonathan’s cousin went on. “I did not kill her.”
Jonathan looked at his mother’s face. “I know you didn’t.”
Behind Jon, in the shadows, stood George. His eyes were fixed on Roger.
Alanna’s eyes flew open. It was very late—Liam was asleep, and the hearth-fire had burned down to embers.
That’s it, she thought grimly as she slid out of bed. I’ve wasted enough time. I’m going to claim that Jewel and go home.
Are you sure? Faithful asked as he settled on Alanna’s pillow.
“This is crazy,” she whispered as she dressed. Liam slept peacefully, not hearing her preparations. “That Doi fortune-teller was making fun of me.” Grabbing the bag that contained her next layer of clothing, she pointed to the door.
No, replied Faithful. Someone has to keep him asleep. He began to purr. A white, shimmering glow rose to cover him and Liam.
In the hallway Alanna shivered as she exchanged the clothes she’d put on so quickly for garments made of silk: shirt, hose, and gloves. The next layer was wooclass="underline" leggings, stockings, another shirt. She’d begun to sweat, but she knew outside things would be very different. Discarding the bag and carrying soft-soled trapper’s boots, she tiptoed out of the inn and into the passage that joined house and stables.
Underground hot springs made it possible for the inn to stay open. The stables were warm—in her clothes, too warm. Alanna cursed the heat until she spotted the stable-boy, asleep in a pile of hay. When he stirred, she touched his forehead and told him to sleep, putting her Gift into it.
Moonlight pranced when she saw her mistress, but Alanna shook her head. “Not tonight, girl.”
Next to the stable doors were the three large bins the innkeeper had described for her. The one marked in red contained heavy winter gear in the largest possible sizes; the yellow one held medium sizes, and the green was for small. Opening the last, she pulled out the next layer of clothing. Everything was Doi make: leather jacket and trousers lined with fleece, a vest filled with goose down, a knitted facemask, goggles.
She used a burnoose for a head-cloth and her own fleece-lined mittens. From her belt hung Lightning and a double-headed ax with a special blade for ice. Over it all she wrapped a fur-lined cloak. Scanning the racks of snowshoes hanging over the bins, she selected the smallest pair and fastened them over the boots. “I hope I still remember how to use these things!”
Standing, she took inventory. Had she left out a single piece of clothing or a single tool that might help?
If she had, she couldn’t remember it now. Gently she brought up her Gift, filling every stitch she wore with it and binding the stable’s warmth to every layer of clothing. She fixed it there with a word of command, just to be safe, and sealed it all with the ritual “So mote it be!” Heat settled over her like a blanket. Drawing a deep breath, she opened the stable door a crack and passed through. Before she closed it, she sent a bit of magic back to the sleeping boy, so he would wake in five minutes and bolt the door.
The stableyard held drifts of only a foot or so, protected as it was by the inn’s high containing wall. She found the gate and opened it, bracing herself for the first unrestricted blast of the storm. When it came, it almost knocked her over. Slanting her body into the wind, Alanna passed through the gate and pulled it closed.
The wind made her gasp with its sharpness. Icy daggers bit into her chest as she started to shiver. Cold, a part of her wailed. I hate the cold!
Alanna forced a foot out in front of her, trying not to think of ice or wind. She stepped again, shoving her shoed foot down. Step two. She could barely see in front of her. How would she know which way to go? She raised a foot and brought it down, moving forward against the wind. Third step takes all. Somehow she was moving. Given what she already knew—that whatever ruled the pass was going to make this as hard for her as possible—she walked directly into the wind.